The year that was
Wed, January 7, 2009 - 11:10 PM
I've never given much thought to wether I am an old soul or a young soul, just that I am. My life as a man began at fifteen in parallel to my life as a spiritual student. In fact I don't really think you can have one without the other, although throughout my adult decades one has conflicted with the other almost daily. 2008 gave me the death of my father and my brother in law. My wife has had a chronic illness for the last twenty years which means I don't know wether I will arrive home at the end of the day to find Mrs Jeckle, Mrs Hyde, or a corpse and somewhere in that year was a short stint as an unemployed bum. I'm sure there are literally thousands of people across the globe who would nod their heads and agree that their lives are similar. Our society may offer toys beyond our parents wildest dreams and over all, the majority of the human population is attaining octogenarian years, but every Ying must have a Yang and it seems very few in this world are willing to surrender to the yang, except those of us who have no choice in the matter. I don't seem to get angry much now a days, just disappointed. My job is high stress, my home life is high stress, but it's important that I don't show it. Will this lead to heart failure? Maybe. Does it really matter to me if it does? Not really. You see, I consider that as most people think of forever as a finite thing and that if the Universe/God is forever and Infinite, then as a result, I too am infinite and me as a soul is both young and old at the same time. Which means that my time in this life is just a chapter in an neverending story and that if I try real hard to make this world better in every way, I might want to come back to it again some time in what we here call the future.
And here's the real thing! If I put a lot of effort into helping others achieve enlightenment through their experience of my actions, then they might think kindly toward me in that future life and give me lots of browny points.
Or money, whichever is easier.