Thought Soup
What makes you Tick?
Fri, July 20, 2007 - 12:56 PMI don’t Blog much, but I was just asked a great question and had no ready answer. I loved the question so I sat down to think of an answer. It very quickly occurred to me that my answers were really groups or themes. The question and answers follow:
Question:
What are your top 15 absolute favorite parts of life? The experiences and sensations that make you want to get up in the morning and do it all again.
Answer:
I don't know that I have ever made that list. Let's see; in no particular order my favorite things are: (Theme/Explanation/List)
Exploring: Probably my number one favorite thing, but it takes many forms in my life, from hunting the quiet stacks of out of print book stores; to driving the back roads of sleepy towns where America can be found; or hiking to remote destinations that only a few will ever see. Nothing puts me more in the moment than the sensation of something new. If I were forced to define what adventure means to me, it would include the concept of exploring. They say that the difference between a rut and a grave is the depth. Exploring helps me out of my rut and keeps me alive.
- Road Trips across country
- Hiking seldom visited wilds
- Looking for lost treasure
- Harvest Festivals
- Motorcycle rides on roads that really go places
Flying: My favorite dreams have always been about flying. I can vividly remember the sensation of flight when I wake up and it feels like freedom. I don't know if I can explain it any better than that. I suspect that if that doesn't make intuitive sense to you, then it can't be explained. Most of my more extreme hobbies stem from my desire to fly. The Army taught me how to repel off of cliffs, and while that is exciting, it's certainly not flying no mater how fast you go. I became a Paratrooper in hopes that jumping out of an airplane would be like flying. In retrospect that was a really bad idea. The vast majority of Paratroopers jump static line parachutes, where a cord attached to the airplane pulls your chute open when you get out of the plane. Again, that's exciting but not flying. I tried Free Fall Parachuting to see if that was any better than skydiving with the Army. It was much better, but still nowhere near what I was looking for. My most recent failure to experience flight was flying a glider plane on the North Shore of Hawaii. That was almost there, but the canopy separated you from the experience. The only things I have found that are close to my idea of flying are SCUBA diving and Hang gliding. SCUBA you can hover over things and examine the underwater world from any angle at will and at your leisure. I am still learning to hang glide, but it's fantastic, and every flight I feel "it" if only for a moment.
- SCUBA diving
- Hang gliding
Connecting: Humans are funny creatures. We will love, hate, swindle, belittle, bolster, encourage, kill, murder, maim, backtalk, backstab, devalue, discourage, cheat, lie, steal, teach, tease, notice, need, like, learn, validate, underestimate, touch, tempt, ogle, berate, interact, invite, fondle, scheme, undercut, outmaneuver, play, tickle, tease each other/ with each other but we rarely ever connect. It seems that most of the time we are moving through life and it’s this motion that prevents us from stopping and connecting with each other. It takes time. The less distractions there are the better your chances are of really connecting with someone. I could go into a tirade detailing the biggest obstacle to connecting but it would take pages to talk about our emotional armor or shields or walls or baggage or pick your own metaphor. That distance that surrounds us that we feel we need to keep from being hurt… again. The truth is that if you have no experience with those obstacles, you probably will as soon as you meet another human. Some of my favorite experiences are the ones that make you stop for a moment, distract you just a bit, and frequently allow you the chance to connect.
- Sharing drinks: alcohol, coffee, tea, hell even water
- Smoking great cigars
- Sex
- Cooking (together)
- Passionate Debate
Amazement: Adult life jades you to otherwise extraordinary experiences. It seems to me that the function of "adult life" is to make you forget how great it was to be a kid, and I say "FUCK THAT!" I love the saying, "you have to grow old; you don't have to grow up." Many of my favorite experiences center around embracing a child-like sense of wonder and amazement; I catch myself being an adult from time to time. I went to see Penn and Teller perform their magic act in Vegas. During the show, I saw a trick that I absolutely could not figure out. I found myself being an adult trying to work it out. It was a close one, but I quickly caught myself at it and repeated this useful mantra; "ITS MAJIC YOU ASSHOLE." After I remember that the last thing I want is a world where there is no magic, I relaxed and really enjoyed the show. The other affect of "Adult Life" it to make you value the wrong things. I fear that there will come a day when I get caught in a summer rain storm and I worry about what I have in my pockets that can't get wet instead of enjoying the warm rain. Fortunately, it hasn't happened yet. Take pleasure in the little things. Finally, though the experiences are rare, I try to remember that the world is not only made up of the things that I can measure and see. Under the right conditions, you can catch a glimpse of things that don't fit and can't be measured, and that is amazing.
- Magic
- Walking in the rain
- Shamanism
I love that question. If you explain your answers, you get a pretty good glimpse into what makes a person tick. I’m glad I took the time to make this list.
Yours in Service,
Gabriel
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Sat, July 21, 2007 - 12:25 AM
#15. Music
14. comfort of friends I know 13. Dogs 12. working out 11. Good Film 10. Meeting new friends 9. BBQ!! 8. Drinking 7. Adventure!!!! 6. Pushing myself to limits 5. Travel 4. Performance 3. Cooking 2. Sex 1. Learning new things |
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Sat, July 21, 2007 - 9:48 AM
thanks
if i were writting a book about my philosophy on life, there would definately be a chapter called "ITS MAJICK, YOU ASSHOLE!"
we DO have a lot in common. |
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Tue, July 24, 2007 - 12:23 PM
scuba IS flying...only the air is a little wetter =)
i never really had the flying dreams...but in my dreams i can breathe underwater....so ive had countless nights that i swam and played with fish gliding around as if i was always there....yep those are my favorites.
even though ive never jumped out of a plane, ive told people that diving was probably the closest id ever come to flying...i cant wait untill i get the chance to go again |
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Tue, August 7, 2007 - 12:38 AM
Not sure if you really want a response to this blog or not but since its 0130 here in Chicago and i am feeling sorry for myself not being at pennsic here it goes.
What makes me tick? I had to ponder this for a little while. After all who am i really. Hell who is anyone. I KNOW we are the sum of our collective experiences but somehow that doesn't seem a good enough place to start. Like everyone else i have had my share of craptacular moments that shaped my life. I will attempt to jot them down and attempt to describe why i am what i am because of them. Learning: I love to learn new things. When i find out a fact that i never heard before its GREAT. I have tons of "useless" stuff rolling around in my skull. Things like the proper way to tiedown an aircraft and a easy way to clean my blender without taking it apart. Fear: I hate being afraid of things. Heights, fire, getting shot at as well as others crap. The stupid thing is i also run at most of the things i am afraid of, so i can try and tackle them head on. (Heights is still a bitch since i fell rock climbing) The strange thing is i am almost at peace with myself when i am smack dab in the middle of something that should scare me. Sometimes time slows down when i am there and i feel more alive, all of my senses are firing at once. (Don t tell my wife but it can be better than sex) My biggest fears are getting old and useless(cant do much about that one, we all have to face that one day), and Letting down those that depend on me. People: I find that most people enjoy the company of people that think just like they do. It tends to help them validate their own self worth. Now i am not the exception to that rule by any means but i do try to find people to talk and hang out with that are odd to me when i can. Often you can find common ground with them that neither of you knew was there. Life the Universe and everything: I love to look at the stars, trees, clouds, ect. (a bitch to do in Chicago with the light pollution) I remember the 1st time i saw the northern lights when i was in Iceland. I was awestruck . It was the sense of there is something out there bigger than you, and if you live a thousand lifetimes you might not understand it. At the same time there was a sense of being almost able to grasp "something". If anyone you have ever gone surfing almost your limit and then were able to rest alone on your board you probably know what i am talking about. Its the WOW no matter how hard i try i cant BEAT this force of nature hell it probably doesn't even notice me. I think that we humans tend to try to put everything into a little box and figure that since we named it and described it we completely understand it. This is FAR from the truth. Wulf vs Dan: Many moons ago when i started in the SCA I came up with my Wulf persona. He was not an intravert like i was. Was able to talk to people ect. At the time i was still pretty shy in general. Hey don't laugh i can hear you guys saying no fucking way could i have been the shy kid ever. Wulf was brash and opinionated while Dan may have had opinions he didn't share them often with others. Somewhere and sometime the Wulf persona got even more insane and i started to come out of my shell a bit more. Someplace the 2 personalities merged. I didn't really notice the change till WAY after it happened. Someplace i went from the quiet shy little guy to the loud, slightly psycho not so little guy. I often STILL forget i am not 145 lbs and have pencils for arms. Innocence lost: Nothing makes me madder than seeing an innocent hurt. Where i work that means the REALLY young, ten and younger, or the elderly. Most of the time the people in between know better than to be doing the things they are doing or who they are hanging out with. I guess its a code that i developed when i was younger to never consciously to hurt an innocent. Its one of the things that drives me to get off my ass and go to work, where at least 50% of the people i help could give a shit about anything. Those are the basics of what make me, me. Its probably no more than most of you. I attempt to look at myself without the rose colored glasses from time to time to see if i am doing what i am doing for what I think are the right reasons. I have found that nobody is a harsher critic of me than me. Although Cass comes pretty damn close. What i did to deserve her i don't know but i guess i must have had some good karma stored up in a previous lifetime. |
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Mon, September 3, 2007 - 4:04 AM
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Wed, September 26, 2007 - 8:07 PM
Basic People
"When you are dealing with people in basic life situations, never forget that you are dealing with ignorant, lazy and neurotic minds that are hardly more than organic robots that love to stick to their habitual activities and reactions. They are like pawns on an immense chessboard of a strategic game you have to learn to play. This means that you have to learn Stalking as described in the Carlos Castaneda book, The Power of Silence. You need to stop believing you are dealing with Real People or Consciously Individual Human Beings.
Your stuckness is not so much the situation as it is in your own spiritual complacency of remaining in normal kinds of so-called “consciousness”. In terms of the Nagual Seers who taught Carlos Castaneda, your Assemblage Point is stuck on the normal position of the Tonal or Social Self of the modern emotional mind. It is primarily a spiritual problem within your own consciousness and only secondarily a situational problem. Running off to join an ashram or commune somewhere will not help you. It will only amplify your neurotic selfishness in the name of spiritual development..." I'm not implying that you are a "basic." In fact, you are likely above average - perhaps far more than you even realize. By the way, thx for your service to our country.... |
