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Orchid

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joined on 12/09/05
last updated 01/20/08
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Where to even begin and how much do I really want to tell on a public forum? I'm somewhat hard to get to know, but worth the effort. I am explicit in my speech because I really don't know how to be any other way yet this obscures the fact that I'm rather shy. I can much more comfortably discuss oral sex than I can share my feelings. Probably not very typical for a woman, but nothing else about me is typical - not my sexuality, not my beliefs, not what I consider a good time . . .
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Putting my heart out there again (blog entry) “A ship is safe in harbor, but that's not what ships are for.”

~ William Shedd
blog entry posted Mon, April 13, 2009 - 7:39 PM permalink - 0 comments
Dating again (blog entry) I am back trying the dating thing again after a hiatus to try and figure things out. I notice a pattern though, and it goes like this:

I am alone but happy.
I meet someone and we start a relationship.
It doesn't work out.
I am unhappy.
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blog entry posted Wed, April 8, 2009 - 9:18 PM permalink - 0 comments
Fortune cookie (blog entry) My fortune cookie message:

To love and win is the best thing;
to love and lose the next best.
blog entry posted Thu, September 11, 2008 - 10:38 PM permalink - 0 comments
Pulling myself up (blog entry) Pulling myself up from the darkness
The end of another almost-relationship
And so, my solitude continues
blog entry posted Wed, September 3, 2008 - 10:55 PM permalink - 2 comments
Alone (blog entry) It seems that my former lover was right: Everything we do is just wasting time until death. My silent despair grips me so tightly that I suffocate. I smile for friends and family, but inside I am hollow, empty. I have nothing, am nothing.
blog entry posted Mon, September 1, 2008 - 6:33 PM permalink - 0 comments
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“A ship is safe in harbor, but that's not what ships are for.”

~ William Shedd
Mon, April 13, 2009 - 7:39 PM permalink - 0 comments
 
I am back trying the dating thing again after a hiatus to try and figure things out. I notice a pattern though, and it goes like this:

I am alone but happy.
I meet someone and we start a relationship.
It doesn't work out.
I am unhappy.

It makes me wonder if I should be dating at all! I'm happy alone, but I keep taking the chance that I could be even happier if I met the right person. But instead I keep getting my heart broken.
Wed, April 8, 2009 - 9:18 PM permalink - 0 comments
 
My fortune cookie message:

To love and win is the best thing;
to love and lose the next best.
Thu, September 11, 2008 - 10:38 PM permalink - 0 comments
 
Pulling myself up from the darkness
The end of another almost-relationship
And so, my solitude continues
Wed, September 3, 2008 - 10:55 PM permalink - 2 comments
 
It seems that my former lover was right: Everything we do is just wasting time until death. My silent despair grips me so tightly that I suffocate. I smile for friends and family, but inside I am hollow, empty. I have nothing, am nothing.
Mon, September 1, 2008 - 6:33 PM permalink - 0 comments
 
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Free Your Mind

The Matrix

Morpheus: I know *exactly* what you mean. Let me tell you why you're here. You're here because you know something. What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire life, that there's something wrong with the world. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad. It is this feeling that has brought you to me. Do you know what I'm talking about?

Neo: The Matrix.

Morpheus: Do you want to know what it is?

Neo: Yes.

Morpheus: The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us. Even now, in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work... when you go to church... when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.

Neo: What truth?

Morpheus: That you are a slave, Neo. Like everyone else you were born into bondage. Into a prison that you cannot taste or see or touch. A prison for your mind.

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Morpheus: I'm trying to free your mind, Neo. But I can only show you the door. You're the one that has to walk through it.

Morpheus: Free your mind.

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Morpheus: This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.
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Sometimes the line between fiction and reality is so thin.
As for me, I took the red pill.