So i'm back in the NW looking for a place to ground and heal. The road has truely worn me thin this year. I feel like I've been pushed on from every place....trying to finance gas money in a washed-out economy by selling jewelry and busking harp. Tired and lonley. My physical health isn't the greatest. I've been suffering in silence for years now. Will spare you the gory details. I can't digest my food right. Caught food poisoning in Jan 2007 in Mexico, haven't been right since. I've been through over $10,000 worth of medical tests for parasites, chrone's disease, ulcers etc...all coming up negative, all kinds of diets (lemonade, juice fast, brown rice fast, veganism) fasting, nasty, nasty herbs! Nothing makes a shred of difference, I feel just as crappy eating %100 organic vegan food as I do eating the opportunivore omnivore diet, for a month respectively. Been through sound healings, breathwork, yoga. My belly hurts all the time, wakes me up in the night. I'm totally sick of being sick. So if anyone out there knows a miracle worker, PLEASE send them my way. Your prayers are appreciated. I have decided to settle down this winter and record all my music, before this BEAST eats me alive. I feel like I'm 50, and not 27. My creativity has gone down the drain along with my sanity. Depression rears its ugly head. My Guides are silent. I have dreams of being buried alive, and eaten by maggots in the grave. How is it that I can heal others, but I cannot heal myself???