This Halloween for the first time in three years I left my hoop at home. Every Halloween I fill myself with great expectations of the night. Since I have learned how to hoop I have been performing on this magical night. As much as I love to hoop there is a whole secret world of expectation and pressure that goes with it. This year I wanted to be free of that and just enjoy the holiday like any other party goer. I ventured out with a small group of friends to the castle party in Montique. Brian Mque throws this party every year on his incredible property. I have heard of its legend for sometime but never made it there. Upon arrival I was thrilled and inspired to see so many people in the true spirit of this holiday. I quickly found myself under the stars around the fire. We started drumming and many joined us and brought there spirit to the fire. At one point in the night I got up and began to dance, in my tutu and leopard print to say the least I was feeling it. Surrounded by the music I began to sing. Channeling the night my voice was strong and I sang a song about what it is to be sassy. I have started singing just in the past three months, something have always loved t do but never felt like I could because of insecurities. It was a blissful feeling to find my voice and to have so many be receptive to the words which were coming from some higher place. I realized that night how I have always hid. Hid being my hoop, hid behind elaborate costumes, hid behind a shield of sass. I loved using my voice, singing songs and being musical. A side of me most people have never even seen. It was truly n uplifting experience. I think I might leave that hoop at home more often. I do not want to hide anymore.