I feel..... normal. For the first time in my entire life, I feel normal and right with the universe. I'm on Hydroxyzine which I did a bunch of research on. (I love Wikipedia) Turns out it covers a whole spectrum of shit. It's an anti-anxiety, sleep aid, anit-emetic (vomit), and anti-histamine, and an anti-psychotic. So I take it at night and I'm actually sleeping, wake up in the morning feeling good and productive. I feel normal. Finally.

And I know I already knew this, but it feels good to confirm that there are people who love me and care about me and are willing to take care of me. Jennifer is amazing and I don't deserve her. I love her so much. And Andycat has been a kind of Gaurdian Angel to me.

In other news, I've lost my pregnancy. And before anyone starts throwing out the condolences, I'm fine. In fact, I feel pretty damn good. My belief is that when these things happen, they aren't meant to be in the first place.

I promise you all I feel fantastic. Going to see Regina Spector Nov 20 and the VNV FUCKIN NATION on Nov 21!!!!!!!

Gonna work on getting myself a job or two close by. Need the moneys.

So there you have it. Life update.
Hope everyone else is doing ok. I feel I may be wanting a bit more social interaction soon. Sorry I've been so distant lately. Hormones and anxiety and bi-polar make for wanting to be alone alot.

Love you all. ~hugs hugs hugs~
~Alway Your Sezzy Razor