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Changes...

Raven, Enchantress of Mrrp — Mon, 05 Feb 2007 05:26:23 GMT

The tides of change are moving through my life and I'm feeling overwhelmed. So, I'm calling out to both the my community and to the powers of the universe for support. After many months off of work, I'm returning to my former employer tomorrow. I have mixed emotions of relief, excitement and anxiety. I'm choosing to focus on the positive and go in knowing things will be better this time around since I'm going to be in a different bldg., different dept., and with a new team of people. I'm also trying to start my own direct mktg. business and my call for initial support has been somewhat disappointing. I'm going to face the challenge head on, but am feeling a little lack in the strength department. Also, one of my dearest girlfriends is moving out of state this week and I'm heartbroken about it. It's a good move for her and I wish her all the best, yet I have a heavy sadness in my heart. Several of my closest friends have moved out of state over the past few years and it rips my heart out every time. Finding someone who you truly connect with on all levels is a rare, precious thing. Although I know the friendship will remain in place, the distance that will separate us is unwelcome. To make matters worse, someone I thought was a close friend blew me off tonight. I breathe as I observe the feeling of disappointment move through me. I spent a lot of time over the past year learning to not be afraid of asking for what I need (rather than holding it in and letting is fester into darkness). So, I ask for the ability to draw upon my inner strength as well as for love and support from those around me. For that which I have and will receive, I am grateful.

Yippee! A snow day!

Raven, Enchantress of Mrrp — Tue, 16 Jan 2007 21:05:44 GMT

Finally...our first true snow day of the season. Hurray! I love snow. I grew up in Central Washington, so got lots of snow every year. It never truly seems like the holiday season here to me when there's not a beautiful blanket of white powder cover everything outside. Everything looks so peaceful and clean. Seeing it now gives me a sense of childlike joy I went out to play in the snow with my friends' 2 year old daughter this morning and it was so much fun to see her laugh and play in it for the first time! What beautiful innocence and wonder! Remember what that feels like? Take it inward and ride the wave of delight!

Through the Threshold

Raven, Enchantress of Mrrp — Tue, 02 Jan 2007 19:46:34 GMT

Now that I've crossed over the Threshold into a new year, I invite what it has to bring. I ask the universe fill me with love as I seek new adventures for my heart and soul. Each day I will appreciate all the gifts that life has given me. I face each of the challenges that lie before me with renewed belief in own strength and with the support of my beautiful community of friends. I wish to manifest a year of great joy and love, and so I shall. Happy New Year everybody!

Missing the burn

Raven, Enchantress of Mrrp — Sat, 02 Sep 2006 16:47:28 GMT

Tonight the man goes down on the playa and I'm feeling really sad that I'm not there to see it. Some of my best friends are out there, so I'm with them in spirit. It's been weird not going this year. I'm trying to just get through each day with the knowledge that the universe has another plan is in place for me. I just don't like it very much right now. I'll feel better when my friends return to share their stories of all the adventures they had.

Erinpaloozified

Raven, Enchantress of Mrrp — Sat, 29 Jul 2006 00:13:48 GMT

Sadly, I won't be making it out to the playa this year. THerefore, Erinpalooza was my big event of the summer and what a superb time it was! Picture basking in a pool with 20 other half naked beautiful people while being served mimosas from a man in a white tux (who is in the pool as well), an endless supply of bacon, and cheesy eggs. And that was Sunday morning's recovery! Thanks Erin for having a palooza all about your birthday. I had a fabulous time! Now I'm getting ready for PDF. Yay, I love summers in the northwest!