disclaimer: I realize that this may turn-around for me at any moment, as the universe gives me another challenge. bobbing up and down on the waves of life means that sometimes we gulp the salt water!

I often feel like I'm riding on ocean waves in life. Up, down, over, under. I can kick, I can swim, or I can lie back and float when I need to. Sometimes I bump into stuff along the way, and I can either let it knock me upside the head, or I can grab on and let it keep me afloat for a while. I don't have a clear vision of where I'm ultimately headed, but I know I won't be in the same spot twice or for long. I can steer in a certain direction, but I'm at the mercy of the waves and wind, too.

I'm not fighting the current today. When I received word that two of my classes have low enrollment, and the sessions are scheduled to start next week, I felt no stress or pull. I let it glide off with the realization that it might free me to hold my own classes. This is good because I'm unavailable for one of the days, anyway, due to the Convergence! I let it go, and floated onward.

I'm poor. To the point that I race the bank every month to pay my rent. I do what I love for a job, though, and I make that choice willingly, so I take responsibility for my finances. I don't spend more than I have...except for Convergence. I charged a large part of this trip, which is completely out of character for me. But I'm fine with it. I know it's a wise decision. The hoop orders have poured in lately. My card has no interest for several months, giving me time. I'm just letting the ocean take me out further, without fear.

And I settled my divorce yesterday. The burden rolled off my shoulders as I asked for not a penny more than my conscience felt good about. I definitely held the power in the conference room, and could have asked for a stipend of $600 a month for the next 5 years in lieu of spousal support. But I didn't. I decided that I would treat him how I'd want to be treated, even if I "deserved" that help. I wanted to be able to hold my head up and respect my decisions. And I can, and I do. And I don't fear about my family's future. I see the power of the ocean: the universe will provide for me: provide a path to success, provide floating debris to give me a break, provide a boat, or a lighthouse, or a swift wave that takes me somewhere quickly.

I'm not fretting. I'm not over-planning. I'm not lying prone and useless, either. I am calmly swimming, sometimes floating, and always remembering there's a sun above, and we're all a part of this giant circle.

Smile if you pass me en route. :)