i admit i am somewhat of a prodigal son with tribe, crossing over to myspace and facebook for long periods of time only to return to tribe where there is some sense of sincerity and comunity.

plan to revisit frequently.

had a hot, steamy dream of getting nailed in the back door by hot man next to me in my hotel bed. i woke up so horney!

ever have one of those days where you're going along thinking you are contributing handsomely to the human race and then WHAM! your perspetion of yourself is suddenly shattered and you realize you are one of the jerks you are always bitching about?

well, today was particularly bad. i was doing all right until the boss told me i take to many early days for dr's appointments and that i should be cognizant of the time of day i schedule appointments (she prefers we schedule appts first thing in the morning or last thing in the day and come in or go home accordingly).

well, i was livid because i go to great lengths to arrange appointments around my work schedule, but really, sometimes you just CAN'T make it work, ya know?

what was my first response to her? i went to fellow co-workers and complained and gossiped. GOSSIPED! i usually do not do this because it thuroughly annoys me when my co-workers come to me and talk shit. i always think they are being jerks in taking up my time to complain, but today it was me. though it is difficult to avoid being hypocritical at times, today i became a terrible hypocrite.

why be so hard on myself? because i actually tell co-workers i don' t have time to gossip and expect them to go. then i come along and expect them to make room for me.

i dunno. rough day. rough lesson.

this week has been tough at the office. a lot of staff meetings wherein the "boss" talks "at" us for close to two and half hours.

this wouldn't be so bad if his tone wasn't so condescending and his comments so insulting.

i work in higher education and the summers are almost unbearable (the only thing that makes it bearable is knowing that if you leave campus for lunch, you will definitely find parking when you return. perhaps, even the same spot) because the students are gone and the push to clean up electronic files, complete computer maintenance, and work on projects that were otherwise tabled during the academic year is on!

this is mind numbingly boring work, my friends. the days creep by and all i can do to salvage any shred of sanity is to visit tribe or yahoo groups briefly to get a little perspective.

this makes me a cranky boi.

anyhow, i hope ya'll are out enjoying the sunshine.