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Director of my life

Genevieve — Wed, 26 Sep 2007 08:32:54 GMT

Hmmmmm……… I was lying in bed thinking again tonight, as always.. And I came to a thought about learning. How do we learn really? Do we in any way have any choice when it comes to this matter of learning. Isn’t living and experiencing life in itself learning? I mean a moment ago I didn’t know that this moment was going to happen. We in fact are gaining more memory which is learning. Maybe not you’re typical reading textbook type learning, but learning none-the-less. We are learning all the new moments of our lives and storing them away in our memory for future reference. We do not really have any control over this. I mean the day is going to go on whether we like it or not. We can hide in our rooms, if we like, but the fact remains that even that would be teaching you something. Teaching you that hiding from things does not make them go away. And that hiding doesn’t make the world stop, it still goes on with or without you in it. The only thing we can control is the direction that our learning goes in and how disciplined we are to direct it….. We are mire directors in this movie of our lives. How much we get out of life, how much we experience, and what we experience are all factors of which direction we direct our learning to go. We all have interests and fascinations that we are drawn to. Where do these come from? Are we born with them? Or are they programmed from our environment?. What about discipline? What makes one person disciplined and another lazy just drifting through their days without any real focus? Is it the suffering one has gone through? Is it something that is taught by our parents? I can assure you that my direction is in no way linked to my parent’s discipline. Hehe- I just feel happier in the know. I love to learn, I want to know everything about everything….. I can stay up all night on google and just keep asking questions. It is a porthole of endless knowledge. There is nothing it doesn’t know. I think I am kina becoming obsessed with it in fact, I find myself getting less and less sleep the more things I think to ask it. =) But I can’t stop it, I’m always thinking, we all are, all I can do is direct it. So the question I have to myself is, if we have to learn, I mean we are not in control there, time is happening whether we like it or not, so we are learning, then don’t I want to learn something that is going to benefit my life and lead to happiness and fulfillment. If I am constantly learning what the media is telling me about what Lindsey Lohan or Britney Spears are doing, am I not just wasting my life learning about something that really has nothing to do with me? How is that going to make me happy in any way?. All it takes is a little direction. Instead of watching and learning what everyone else does, don’t I want to just learn on my own. Create my own ideas. Create my own reality, instead of living vicariously through others. Life is so special, I think I want it to be my own………………

the color red

Genevieve — Fri, 21 Sep 2007 22:04:08 GMT

This is an idea from a message one of my friends sent me today.. Back to my first lesson in Philosophy and Logic about the color red. What makes it red really? It has no physical properties that make it red. You can’t feel red, can’t smell it, or taste it. What makes it red except that other people are telling us, hey this is red... Then we use our own experiences and start relating everything that we have seen that matches that same color and that’s how we come up with what red feels like, what red would taste like, etc..Without others interpretations what would we even know about ourselves? Would we not so much worry about the trivial things that we do like fitting it and conforming to the norm? Would we spend so much wasted time on our looks? This I would think would open up room for other trains of thought for more important matters. But think about socialization. It is a great skill to be able to communicate our thoughts effectively to the listener. The more we do so the better we get at conveying our message effectively and maybe closest to what we really mean. But no matter how effective a speaker we are there is always going to be that window of interpretation. Which I think is a God given quality for creating new thoughts. I mean how else do we create our own original ideas? We take what other people have told us, tweak it to our own understanding and then go from there. If we did not have that window of interpretation, then where would all the new ideas come from? If we saw everything the same and experienced everything the same, then we would think all the same, look all the same and this would in fact be a very boring world. Our experiences are what shape who we are. And the way that we perceive our experiences is what I think makes that experience good or bad. We can take the worst experience and learn something from it to teach another or tweak ourselves into a person we want to be. So who we are starts from an idea of who we want to be. How we see ourselves, right? How do we get the idea of who we want to be? Without socialization and meeting people that we admire who posess traits that we long for in ourselves, we have nothing to base that image upon. In conclusion socialization and effective communication are very important skills one can acquire. I myself have been a loner most of my life and I generally lack these skills, due to the fact that I didn’t realize their importance. I want to thank you for this, for you have in fact conveyed a message to me that has tweaked my own thinking into these crazy ideas. I hope this makes sense, as sometimes I think my own thinking is so far out there that I have a problem conveying my message at all. -G Red — Color coordinates — Wavelength ~625-740 nm Frequency ~480-405 THz Hex triplet #FF0000 sRGBB (r, g, b) (255, 0, 0) HSV (h, s, v) (0° or 360°, 100%, 100%) Source Visible spectrum[1] HTML/CSS[2] B: Normalized to [0–255] (byte) Red is any of a number of similar colors evoked by light consisting predominantly of the longest wavelengths of light discernible by the human eye, in the wavelength range of roughly 625–750 nm. Longer wavelengths than this are called infrared, or below red and cannot be seen by human eyes. In human color psychology, red is associated with energy and blood, and emotions that stir the blood, including anger, passion, and love.[3] Red is used as one of the additive primary colors of light, complementary to cyan, in RGB color systems. Red is also one of the subtractive primary colors of RYB color space but not CMYK color space. One common use of red as an additive primary color is in the RGB color model. Because "red" is not by itself standardized, color mixtures based on red are not exact specifications of color either. In order to produce exact colors the color red needs to be defined in terms of an absolute color space such as sRGB. As used in computer monitors and television screens, red is very variable, but some systems may apply color correction (so that a standardized "red" is produced that is not in fact full intensity of only the red colorant). -Taken from Wikipedia

Death

Genevieve — Wed, 19 Sep 2007 04:31:05 GMT

“Death in my mind isn't a finality. There's a continuum: It's like at night, you go to sleep and in the daytime you wake up, or whenever you wake up, and it's a new day.” -David Lynch

Absurdity

Genevieve — Wed, 19 Sep 2007 04:24:39 GMT

"Absurdity is what I like most in life, and there's humor in struggling in ignorance. If you saw a man repeatedly running into a wall until he was a bloody pulp, after a while it would make you laugh because it becomes absurd. " -David Lynch

Fate

Genevieve — Sun, 16 Sep 2007 04:10:09 GMT

Sooner or Later, fate puts us together with all the people,one by one, who show us what we could and shouldn't, let ourselves become. Sooner or later we meet the drunkard, the waster, the betrayer, the ruthless mind, and the hate-filled heart. But fate loads the dice, of course, because we usually find ourselves loving or pitying almost all of those people. And it's impossible to despise someone you honestly pity, and to shun someone you truly love. -Shantaram