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serious request for help

   Sun, March 23, 2008 - 9:32 PM
those of you who are Santa Barbarans or ex-Santa Barbarans might remember an old man known as Leon or Hijay (sounds like "hi, Jay!") though he prefers to go by Leon now (long story, so never mind). Leon is currently under hospice care for prostate cancer. at this point he eats like a bird, having experienced extreme loss of appetite and some nausea, and has lost a dangerous amount of weight. he is weak, and though in a decent mood as of my most recent visit, he is vulnerable to depression, especially given his illness and confinement. he could get bed sores...among other problems! responsible parties have put in a request for appetite stimulants but i don't know how long Leon would have to wait before this gets implemented or takes effect.
therefor...i'm now asking friends and people of goodwill to pray (or whatever else you do to summon spiritual help) for Leon. i think i'm not foolish enough to expect anything so unlikely as a full recovery, but i've been praying that Leon find his own strength, regain his inner balance, regain his appetite, eat more normally, heal to the fullest extent possible physically mentally emotionally and spiritually, and greet each of his remaining days with love as a blessing and an opportunity. please join me by praying (etc.!) likewise in your own way for my friend. from the bottom of my heart, thanks in advance.

Holden



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Mon, March 24, 2008 - 4:10 AM
Lord I come to you this night in the name of Your son
Yeshua Ben Joseph
Blessed Savior
Lord I first ask you to forgive us for ware we fall short of your glory
I thank you Lord for each moment and I thank you for allowing us to approach you in your presence this hour
Lord I come to you tonight with a mighty burden on our hearts
I thank you for working a great mirricle in the life of our brother Leon
Lord you have said "whatever we ask in your name Jesus that we shall recieve"
ord tonight I ask you to pour out your blessing and comfort to Leon
I ask you to cover him in your blood so that all may know and see that you are merciful and full of glory
Lord I ask you to heal and restore him compleatly
I ask for you to send Myriads of angles down to him and his beloved to protect him from the wiles and confulsion of this present darkness
I ask you to to remove the yolk of burden
I know that you will heal him Lord
And I ask that you begain that Marvelous work in him this very hour
So that he may Healed fully according to your timming and will

And it is in Jesus Name

~AMEN~


Leshu Wah Calmnn Jas Ho
Puesa Yul~Li Yeh Puhq~ue
Mnen Phen Yi Ki Neh yaw Sho~hatch
Col~a~ Bah helo



<<<Jas Ho Puesa >>
Pray in the home for saving


<<Yul~Li Yeh Puhq~ue>>
Pray by his side for what he wills



<<Leshu Wah Calmnn >>
His knowing will calm him


<<Mnen Phen Yi >>>
Mention My name(Jesus) to him



<<Ki Neh yaw Sho~hatch>>
Knowing this shall give birth to hope



<<Col~a~ Bah helo>>
And I will bring him a Halo
Mon, March 24, 2008 - 7:29 AM
Passenger, i thank you for your statement...but now i have to report that Leon has already died. i recieved word (voicemail) that Leon passed yesterday afternoon.
we all did what we could! i vow to continue his work, pick up where he left off, learn all i can from his life and death, and act in his honor. peace.
Mon, March 24, 2008 - 9:30 AM
He is at peace. Good on you Holden for putting the word out. We all need to work harder for peace and learn from our elders before the knowledge is lost.

Go with the Gods, Leon
Mon, March 24, 2008 - 10:45 AM
peace
he was a beautiful man of peace. he is back in the bosom.
Mon, March 24, 2008 - 3:37 PM
RIP brother and enjoy the after the life.

Look out of any window
any morning, any evening, any day
Maybe the sun is shining
birds are winging or
rain is falling from a heavy sky -
What do you want me to do,
to do for you to see you through?
this is all a dream we dreamed
one afternoon long ago

Walk out of any doorway
feel your way, feel your way
like the day before
Maybe you'll find direction
around some corner
where it's been waiting to meet you -
What do you want me to do,
to watch for you while you're sleeping?
Well please don't be surprised
when you find me dreaming too

Look into any eyes
you find by you, you can see
clear through to another day
I know it's been seen before
through other eyes on other days
while going home --
What do you want me to do,
to do for you to see you through?
It's all a dream we dreamed
one afternoon long ago

Walk into splintered sunlight
Inch your way through dead dreams
to another land
Maybe you're tired and broken
Your tongue is twisted
with words half spoken
and thoughts unclear
What do you want me to do
to do for you to see you through
A a box of rain will ease the pain
and love will see you through

Just a box of rain -
wind and water -
Believe it if you need it,
if you don't just pass it on
Sun and shower -
Wind and rain -
in and out the window
like a moth before a flame

It's just a box of rain
I don't know who put it there
Believe it if you need it
or leave it if you dare
But it's just a box of rain
or a ribbon for your hair
Such a long long time to be gone
and a short time to be there
Mon, March 24, 2008 - 10:04 PM

I felt an immediate call to prayer yesterday that is for sure
The Lord works in Mysterious ways
Sometimes it does seem cruel
But in a way Perhaps Leons Healing was immediate in fact
I am Hearing that he was in much pain
And that also Prayer was answered
He did find Salvation again in his final hours
I am here tonight to bnng you the message of his ruturn
Please do not take offence
But do know that the gift is stirred in me this hour
And I allow myself to become the vessel of encouragement











Eemm Man na na
Eww wahh mi nu nah
Eww lou la mah M`i nu mon du
Leh chi ew la maaah shu lam
Tran~ier Tah Teo Lam
Neodo Lieve
urra huwee yallo wah
Kan dio~am Lesh Shi
Tello em I Aros Chim
Jah been Mi Shhot
Yih Em Wih des moo Cha
Kin rem ~vin~vah Mi secr~t Holden






<<<Tah Teo Lam Neodo Lieve>>
My body is Lame I need to leave



<<urra huwee yallo wah>>>
We are hurring along the golden way


<<lou la mah M`i nu mon du>>
I feel that I owe you my many thanks and comfort this Monday



<<Kan dio~am Lesh Shi>>>
I can see that we had a very strong connection ..I am grateful



<<Leh chi ew la maaah shu lam Tran~ier >>>
As your trainner I feel it is more neccessary now for me to teach you peace


<<<Eww wahh mi nu nah >>>
May you remmeber me as I was and be blessed



<<<Eemm Man na na>>>
I am with you man now


<<<Jah been Mi Shhot>>>
You've been part my tree



<<<Yih Em Wih des moo Cha Kin>>
You will see me again one day my friend



<<Tello em I Aros Chim>>>
Tell them I love them and hear them



<<<rem ~vin~vah Mi secr~t Holden >>>
Remmeber my Secret Holden




























Tue, March 25, 2008 - 12:59 AM
Leon Now has his Halo
Wed, March 26, 2008 - 8:54 AM
I am so sorry about your friend. I hope that he died with dignity, with few regrets, knowing that he was loved.
Sat, April 5, 2008 - 8:16 AM
leon/hijay
Its sad day for humanity when such a great and noble spirit leaves us. Yet i am sure that he was enlightened enough that he will have a fairly easy time in the afterlife, and so its hard for me to be very sad. After all, it is the attachment to this plane that people over identify with
in the first place. Hi jay (i neverknew he was called leon) had for many years thatt kind of strong inner glow, shen, and enlarged aura which
marks a person who has managed to do some serious spiritual opening and work.

For reasons which i attribute to my own path mostly, i found myself floored by him and his presence so much that for many years all i could do was dexchange greetings with him. I watched him walk up and down State street, apparently filling life after life with the kind of good advice that only those with enormous life experiences and many many years can give.

In a world filled with sleepers and zombies, i could recognize in him an older generation of awakened consciousness. I wouldn't call it perfected, but hi jay carried himself with the dignity and poise which one would associate with somebody who had been a buddhist monk in formal training for many years. His tiny mannerisms took use of assorted spiritual postures, a fact i could appreciate about him wich i assume most people would miss.

I could share with him then at least as much as the greeting which would have been the custom in a temple, hands placed in a kung fu position over heart or third chakra, and a deep bow while grounded squarely in a slight horse stance.

Other than this, i had few interactions with him other than to witness him, because what was going on in my own life at the time was chaotic
and troubling to me and made me feel unworthy to present myself to him. His aura was very clean.

I did tell him the second to last time i saw him that he was a shining person and an inspirtion to me, and that he had meant a lot to me
over the years- I am sure he found this surprising as i had kept my distance some... but unsurprising on the other hand as he surely remembered by formal greetings.

I refuse to be captured by the wests assumption that all death is bad. He was after all a very old man living in a society which could not generally recognize and thus take care of him. I am sure that he will move on in his journey to whatever planes of reality his karma or his will choose, and not be trapped as most people are in Tiferets Tidal spin cycle.

So theres some happiness for him, even maybe some jealousy, in that hes escaped planet Earth and will be moving on.

I think it is incredibly important to remember him, even tho i barely knew him. All told, we intereacted maybe a grand total of one half hour over ten years.

I would hope that our memories of him would be fresh, and the kind of things which would memorialize him with honesty and dignity while at the same time, not creating new links in the collective psyche that might bind him to Earth. In this i wish him his wings, and Godspeed,
a flight up the tree and back into the presence.