Lost Job

Yeah I lost the job.

An RV

OK, so I am gonna try to buy this RV. Its a big hunk of metal, gonna call it metalhead if i get it. I plan on coverting it to a bio-mass vehicle, once i get it.

I secured a J O B!!!

woah, I am moving on up, again!

Well I still plan on being an entertainer and host and trillionaire and all that good stuff, but first, I must get a car!!! I started my new job, at waffle house, yesterday. Its interesting and I get to start at the bottem again.

Well not really, I am still writing my book and figuring out what voice I need to be singing in, aswell as brainstorming for some films, but I have no agent aka a hot sexy female I am banging so I am just staying at 4% inspiration on whatever I am doing, so I guess its not the dank of the dank I should be doing, but its good practise.

So I get to be the doorman basicly, for 2 days, then I go through 3 days of training. W00t, i am a cooooool guy, aren't I? Well for those two days, I will be working from 9pm to like 6 or 7am, involving awesome stuff such as wiping windows, cleaning the restrooms, wiping customer chairs, picking up the trash in the parking lot, sweeping floors, making sure the jukebox is clean, directing people to chairs(hooking my nigga's up whom are gravy) aswell as ordering lazy people to bus and prebus some tables. They say I am allowed to lock the door, to keep the drunks out on new years..... I think the more the merrier, since they tip well.

Well I must go do some push ups and then smoke a cigerette. I still have no love interest, day 130 in a row, ARG!!!! So I am allowed a few more smokes I guess. I scrub my teeth for a while, a few times a day.

So I secured a job, thats all folks.

arg, revalations at 3 am

There is a lot of stuff going on, Physically. I have vowed to go natural through this, you can't change my mind. I know the cure, its through me, afterwards, I might disclose more knowledge, but I am fine just forgetting about it daily. I

Alrigth, I ahve some need to know informomation, such as I am not gonna live forever, and i wont disclose my timeline, however I know I can change it with exercise and beer and possibly weed. I am sure I could get some gov't funding for something, just I dont know how much I'd need, or if I need to sue people, I dont want to sue, I wanna make love, besides I dont know if I'd even make it that long either, lawsuits can be dragged out for years in court.

Well here is my whole arguement, on why I think my way would work Best.

Proven tecniques, God proven ones.

Beer- I think I should drink 5 drinks a day. One before each exercise. Beer=Win!

-Laughter
-Beer is nutritious and fat free and cholesterol free
-Beer has a relaxing effect on the body thereby reducing stress.
-It can help you sleep better and improves blood circulation.
-It has proven to have positive effects on elderly people.
-reduce your chances of strokes, heart and vascular disease

‘Beer, if drank in moderation, softens the temper, cheers the spirit, and promotes health.’

Thomas Jefferson

Sex
-Reduces the risk of dying prematurely.
-By increasing muscle strength and endurance and improving flexibility and posture, regular exercise helps to prevent back pain.
-Regular physical activity can improve your mood and the way you feel about yourself. Researchers also have found that exercise is likely to reduce depression and anxiety and help you to better manage stress.
- Since I am light weight, I have to exercise a lot.
- Noninsulin-Dependent Diabetes By reducing body fatness, physical activity can help to prevent and control this type of diabetes.
-Maintaining Ideal Body Weight
-Increased Blood Flow
-Boost Testosterone and Estrogen
-Sex as Pain Reliever
-Live Longer, Stay Younger
-The Healing Power of Intimacy
-I dont get "head aches" I get fucking headargggggggs, but it cures them too!
-It increases brain power, heart rate, can fend off diseases and ailments, and makes individuals feel good about themselves.
-fountain of youth
-Sex will make you feel wonderful within and without and you will gradually notice that the more sex you have, the more bounce you will have in each st
-"Saving yourself" before the big game
-Happiness isn't sex itself, but sex does ultimately play a role in human happiness.


Weed-Alright, maybe it caused cancer in me.


Yeah I do stem cell research to try to make my body stronger.....

We all need to just get along

ok, so I am suppose to write some more. I am sure I could write from anywhere, couldnt I? I would rather do it after some hot sex, when I have creative energy, but what do I know, I am just an alpha male...... I need some females to dealphamatize me into some creative mojo :)

*wink wink*

Oh If I could of just seen your facial expression, It would of been much more different, but I couldnt. I also stressed myself out to the point where as I manifested cold sores, well I got them from the posion oak I had, then picked at my lips to remove this mask of benedrol, and I got cold sores. They suck, and Its not like I wanna give them to people. I had some in october, and this chick made out with me, a famous movie star did too. Now I got posion oak, they appeared again, and now look, I got no one to fuck or make out with. I am just jamming to some led zepplin right now, Am I suppose to write out a sample for you, a freebee. I need to feel some women up and get my elastic self in the right frame of mind.

I am working on a variety of projects, stemming from Stem cell research(works) to seeing messages my cousin sent to me, I dont know how he got them here, but I got the message. When I get back to texas, I am gonna ask him if he influenced any of this, I already know the answer. I discovered a lot of things while I was out here, such as I need to get laid everyday if I dont wanna think like I currently do, or like I people want me to respond, then when i respond inappropriately, I am at fault, or when I dont respond because I think its different stuff, its the same, and its like wtf. No one will tell me either. Its such a crock of shit. I shit a lot too, expelling the turds is fun.... Out in the eastern society, people eat that stuff. Sick fucks! I'd need a blow job for like a week non stop, to eat some shit, actually I probally eat it anyways, but I'ld like a blow job for a week nonstop, not that long, but you know, I want some head, I wanna eat some pussy too! I wanna fuck some pussy and beat it all up too, not to the point of where it hurts them, I am lost.

Ok, so am I suppose to flow like a bird, or like a man? I was just gonna be a righter, but I keep on being a trickster. I am a good trickster too, always the righter and the trickster too. Sometimes I get scared, freaked teh fuck out, and well I can do it myself, or others can influence it, and I am like ahhhhhh! what now! Is it this or this or that or this or is it everything? I know it couldnt be everything, if it is, well i can be quite if I wish to.

I am going to go take a shower, this is going to be posted on tribe.net too, less you want me to sign something, like some pussy.

I have to go to Texas :(

I write this to you, on November the 13th, at 10 pm to whenever I have to pack or so, I cant bring myself to sleep, I am not physically exhausted.



So this emotional transformation has its perks and its nonperks. THis computer is going to a Steve, I only know one living steve, one I met in LA. Apparently, I could be wrong, but I'll assume, so I'd be right or I made an Ass out of You and Me.


Perks
-I feel A lot of everything :)
-I can make myself happy with a thought, any thoughts, I generally think of a few girls I have seen around the office ;)
-I can take away any pain with a thought, for instance, when I feel really bad for feeling a certain way, i think of the most far out of the box solution, and its like hahahhaha, that doesnt work, you are crazy!!! And I am happy again:P
- I enjoy nature for all its beauty and prestine, the whole cycle of life is just so majestic through my eyes now, before so, i could care less bout nature, this asteroid floating around jupiter and the sun must be hear for a specific reason.... :S
- I enjoy air, well when i smoke cigerrettes, I am more horney, but I like fresh air better :D
- I enjoy sounds, making them, responding to them, and creating them, I hear a lot of things, sometimes i can even anticipate a machines reaction, or the user of a certain machines reaction, its is odd :(
- I make poetry in motion unless I hear others making better tunes, like the ladies clickin there tongues, I only realized on the weekend, how they made the noises, I never thought about using the tongue to make noises, too bad I cant travel back in time to fix what I wanna do sOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooo000()()()()()()()()!!!!!!!

I know you feel my frustration.


- I feel other conversations(not always good)
- I can focus on another level(close to where I was a few years ago)
- I have no real reason to wanna smoke weed, minus for my back and knee and rib and neck and feet and arm and shoulder and other various injuries, I smoke mainly because i cant afford to get myself fixed.
- I see that I am more loving to people, however I cant see the faces but i can hear noises, so I think its likewise, i just havent bothered asking
- when i wear a hippie sock, i act like a hippie, maybe I am 25% hippie with one sock, but I will 25% of the time, act hippie like
- when I wear two hippie socks, I act really like a hippie, 50% hippie
- when I wear anything orange, i think of god and teamwork
- when i wear anything green, i think of money and prospoerity
- when I wear anything white, i think of life and happiness
- when i wear anything black, I think man oh man, black people cant unfocus there penis, those newbies hahahhahah!
- When i wear anything pink, i was thinking Blasted homo's, but then some girls told me it was for pregnancy, so pink is an alright color in my book now. I am not anti-homogeneous relationship(good for them they are beating me, i am not in a relationship with sex), more like lucky them, they get booty whenever cuz thats all tehy can get.
- When I wear anything
- I am wearing some basketball shoes, so I could probally dunk something right now
- I am wearing boxing shorts, so I could probally sting like a bee
- I am breathing air right now, so I am alive, if its air. I was smoking pot outside, I try to do it often, so I wake up, but anyways, its so fucking cold up here, I dont know if i am even hitting the shit, my breath is all smoke colored anyways, not like I can tell the difference when its this cold, guess thats a perk too.
- I cant run multies in earth2025 anymore, I could, but not as easily.
- I like flowers, eating them I think I get increased libto.
- I like cheese, eating them I think that the cows will be happy
- I like chicken, eating them, I think that this bird epidemic wont happen.
- I like france when I am not forcing them to riot because of who I know with french blood, Wargoddess in the Mid Knight Riders, she should of had my back, her voice is so sexy, and a doctor lady too.
- I like poland, i think that they will make a swift return to power.
- I like america, I think we will go through years of unprecedented growth, so that we may beable to focus on somethings that really matter, like our poverty level, debt, and lack of national health care for the children
- I need beer, thats a perk. I lose so much weight when I neglect Beer.
- I need sex, the other need for gaining weight, constant exercise. If i had it my way, id work all day, fuck all night, and repeat, daily, forever. To bad I havent found any willing parties yet, all people wanna do is appear to be horny, i sure they could be too, I look kinda hot.
- I think metaphors really are reality sometimes, and its good and bad, others do not feel what I feel, and I cant share it either, no matter how much I want to, I dont have that creative juices flowing.
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- I think Dr Pepper means I'll get some. Thats a good one, I need sugar to gain weight, I was 138 the other day, now I am 147 or so without clothes.
- I feel whatever energy is given to me, positive and negative, so I probally shouldnt watch TV and I should concentrate on making love. That way, I will never have to think negatively, unless the ladies cant get me off :( but we shall see, I am like a bunny rabbit, keeps going and going and going and I am leaving, so I might get one chance, I pull my chance card NOW. unless this doesnt go anywhere, and I am just writing to you, but I pulled my chance card Neways :P I am just so fuckin horney, and I dont want a slut either. I dont know how humans made it this far, maybe I shouldnt concern myself with this, I just wanna be creative so badly, and thats how I was told to do it, just sucks, Mainly a perk, a Negative when I affect it to myself.





Nonperks
-I cant reach out to people when I want to, whatever colors I wear affect me, so I guess i have to be naked or soemthing to get out of the nonperk. Thats the only nonperk I've noticed, I've been talking a lot OutLoud to myself and machines, to express my animosity to Not Knowing....... I figure things out, and I forget them, with ease......... Thank god for emotional transformation, right, light box theraphy.......... I have a lot of physical pain that I've endured over the years of wear and tear, i was quite the daredevil for a while, now I am retired, got no money, and I got no girl(SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS or childrens), thats the negative. So Whats better, the perks or nonperks, you tell me, I dont know how to be any different from how i am, life is a team sport, male and female, Fe as in Feline, male, as in alpha male. So I am stuck cleaning...... "Working" til I figure it out, then I figure it out, and I have to go. I am sure I gave ya'll a lot of useful knowledge, but for me, thats what it was all about. I should of been writting my book and working on making a film or some music, but instead, I have been slaving myself away, fucking cleaning. Cleanings alright, if I am fucking..... I guess I was wrong in what i was suppose to do, its not like I was told, hinted, implied, I havent been wearing my glasses, I broke them out of some anger... If I had a beer, I would of been alright, i am not a big drinker, a beer an hour suits me fine. So steve, I nevereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee did lie about what I have or had, I however, did play a role, once i found out, so I might of influenced some of the outcomes, not the outcumz, but you know, this whole thing is so revolutionary, everyone should go through it, through the television, without all that fucking negative hoohaa. I dont like being negative, and I wrote this whole nonperks out, when I wrote out three perks, let me get to an even, actually I go by the whole percentile system, so this makes it even more hard to deal with it at times, I just need an assigned wife or wives, fuck buddies, whatever, a pool of ladies I can just snuggle with, its a nonperk til it happens, brother.

-And the second nonperk, I dont have any creative energy, I guess thats why there are girls.

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Thats it, a whole lot of perks, and 2 negatives. Not to bad. I could just be silent, but I like to Influence. There is no I in team, but there is Me, Am, Tme, ATE, AT, MA, EM, TA, TE, TM, and all sorts of other possibilities, in Team. I am just lonely that I havent gotten laid in over two months, especially after this whole thing, i figure it out, and i am fucking stuck, unbelievable!!!!

Good luck with this, I volunteered somehow, I think my brothers babe wife tricked me into it, or I told her the truth, probally both, But I Enjoy, I am not satified, I am soooo starving!!!! Not for food, well for food, but you know, I am 21.
You need to give manuals or something out to the children that do this, adults that do it need em too, so they can give em to whomever they fall for, but what do I know anyways, I have been dealing with this for ahhh! Almost everyday I remember, I am so smart, that I can say something different about it too, outloud, for the watch ears too! hehehe, I keep the best for myself, If I was TOLD, or DIRECTED, otherwise, I am sure I wouldnt have done nearly as much as I did, I am just in a lot of pain because I cant do what I really want to do.

Mainly, I wish some honesty was going on, I am as honest as I can be, u n l e s s I am fibbing when I Sense a ploy against mywill, or if I sense someone draining my energy. I can feel it whenever someone reads me, its painful sometimes, other times when people are reading a book with my name in it a lot, like the bible or the koran, I gain power, I just have so much, but when people use it for selfish reasons, it just hurts. I cant shrug it off, I cant cry it off, I cant do anything with it, and I wont admit to knowing it either.

I am here, and I dont know what I am suppose to do. I was living in the mountains, and I didnt know what I was suppose to do. I just live, and I am lookin for a girl, the only objective I have too! Its so freaking pathetic, that I believe whatever I am told. I cant disprove other people like I can disprove myself, they have to do it for themselves. I just need inspiration to write a book, this is childs play, I just want some honesty, since i am REALLY THAT BLIND, THROUGH MY EYES, HEART, AND MIND. Arg!

I never signed anything either, so I dont know what this is all about, since no one has spoken to my face, or given me a blow job. I guess its back to texas for me, I'll probally go traveling with my cousin, to Europe or something, finally 21, gonna get a passport and see the world, for 50 bucks, apparently I can come back here anytime I want to, I dont wanna go, but I guess I pissed these two married people off to much, I thought I was just suppose to clean there house, not focus on the Emotional transformation, I must be too smart, to uncover the shame or something... I really didnt know either, I kept on forgetting, or whenever I'd focus my energy in another direction, I'd forget too. Mainly whenever I'd forcably change my stance on something, would I forget about what matters most to me, and that is Sex. I need exercise, I am too freaking skinny. Not like I will tire out either. FUcking lazy girls, they just wanna work in the office. I should of gotten some numbers or something, I wasnt gonna go to a strip club, this isnt Nevada. I thought there was some chemistry too, I guess I was just too blind to see it when it mattered, what do I know anwyays, I know I can write for a long long time, to the point where it would take someone a little while to get to this point.

I am all here, all the time, and it sucks, fucking word games, everyone, well almost everyone. I need one of those almosts. The word games I play too, because I am a gigantic science experiement right? I need some pussy to continue, and I dont think I will do it in Texas either. Yes, I am that fucking disciplined too. Sucks. I have to go to a funeral for my friend, he died. Tyler something. I dont rememebr his last name, But I will go to Texas, comfort my friend that was Really close to hime, and then go to a funeral I am not invited too, that i am self inviting myself too, and I will have to griev for a friend whom stole the girl I loved, one who tried to turn me over to the cops, one whom wouldnt play his earth country either.


I dislike having to play Multies on this game, even when its to show a trail :~(^)

Yeah I knew, it was inTENtional, I still see myself as a God, not a Dog, but whenever i hear the word dog, yeah I hear god, and its not cool, I need to get some pussy cats. Meowwwwww! I cant wait til i am li9ke 35 or so, and I can just fuck and fuck and fuck, doing mantras or something, I hope I didnt give my bro and sis to many to do, they need to do a lot of them, 420!

:D

I am not greedy, I just do not recieve sex, well I am always open to recieving sex from some mighty fine female or females, but I wont openly look for it. Its always fun watching them try so hard to figure it out too, they think they know so much, they read page 1 alone. This is just page one.

So I get this message

Message From Spaztic : Re: Treehouse Insanity

dude, you take being a psycho too far. i tried to give you a chance to withdraw from your anti-semitic statements, but you're obviously not capable of comprehending obvious issues. don't you think my people have suffered enough already? people were bombed and killed buying vegetables the other day a few hours drive from my house. you're a fucking idiot and i'm putting you on ignore. get a clue.

------ if she didnt ignore me, i would of responde with this

You think thats it? My family, royal polish blood, our whole history, was destoried. You dont even know. Many jews died, but you survived in various other places. Poland today has all 8 major rivers severly polluted. You think that being a jew is special, I am royalty, my bloodline, and it has jews in it too! Took the germans 150 days to penetrate our families keep in Warsaw, which fell in 39 days to a all out blitzkreig.

You can say a lot, but your people could of fought off like mine did, but you were being pussies, like now. If you only knew, i thought you would be a cool person to talk to, about important issues, obviously you cant seem to take a lighter side of the arguement and you want to call it anti-semetic shit ? my best friend is a kike, and he is one irl, but he is cool. Texas is just liberal, I am sorry you have to STEAL your land, Texas won its independence from Mexico by battle, by Sam Houston, a mofo I am related too.

You are just a newbie, a peasant, a Brick Pusher up Ramps, if you wanna get dirty about it, bitch. Ignore me, i'll fucking slap you with my dick. people die everywhere, you must focus on what you have!

I figured it out, how to post to my blog!!! Muwahahahhaha

I didnt know I could just click on this and get here and here. I think I am suppose to shit the critics up or something

I just say nothing at all because I am intuned to the balance of everything.

There is supposedly a Burning Man party tonight, I dont know where, steph and patric mentioned it. I will need to go to bed soon. Its way to freaking cold up here. I need some long johns or something, I am just eating some crackers with cheese and salame. I have been neglecting my polish sausage origins, I must eat better for a while to get back to the equalibrium In my opinion. But burnt toast and the old cheese isnt too shabby.

So these burners think I should put technu on the posion oak. I just keep on rubbin it into my skin somehow. It feels like some dried liquidy blisters. I am suppose to not pop them, I will try not to. Man its some bullshit, gives you like a rash and shit, I must focus. I think I let it be for a few days, I washed it in a hot shower yesterday and it seems to be going away, but it looks like its spreading. I need like a pancho or something to wear, this is getting ridiculous in so many hilarious ways. I mean Gods justs laughs at me, he is like muwahahahaha, look at you, you think you can do it without saying the magic words!

But I Know! Its cool because its just posion oak, I must get immunity from everything through another week of pain. Like a best of thing. A symbol of the old life and the new one.

so here i am sitting in this dark barn, typing away to you. I couldn't bear it anymore, they hide the phones so well, like light sabers or something. Everything I see is a reflection of what I seek. Its gravy, I managed to find a way to get a message out to you. I had a most productive day today, I got to play with fires all afternoon, it was quite the experiance. Id go into the forest, these bolders had slid down to where this was at, huge ones, and its like thats what the land is, these big rocks. I think glaciers might of let them there or something, who knows. I am clearing a pathway downward, so I will work my way to the top of this hill, where I'll build a temple on supports. It must be done! Well In the forest, I just would go out and find fallen trees and branches, washed downt he hillside, and would probally cut them with an ax tomorrow. I am quiet the wood gatherer i must admit, I just am proficenet at the tast at hand most of the time. I like the jumping down stuff to get wood, its fun sometimes, roll out of it, drag it back up , then break em down to managable sizes. Its kinda fun, doing whatever I can to do the extra. So it was raining later on, and my firepit survived it! It was cool. Still going right now.

Anyways, in the firepit outdoors, I just kept on adding more and more logs to it to create a steady coal bed, then I'd add all sorts of wood throughout the night to keep it blisting hot. I write this to you, smoking a joint, I am trying to get tired but I always have a surplus of energy. I generally will try to read a book for a few hours and then strech out and stuff like that. I thought the fire smoke would be good for the posion oak stuffs, being one with nature and trying to fucksus on the down low, I wonder about so many things, its always good to comtumeplate certain moral justifications, Only the righteous know whats up. Maybe I am just bad with words or something< everysingle overlaying plot within plots catergorize my days. But I didn't learn to walk on water in one sitting. I just need my ears massaged or something.THey are all chapped from this junk I put on it, all over my face, its like a anti-pimple defense mechanisim, posion oak is, its like MUwahahahahahahaha, I am going to force you to coat your skin in some sort of clear mask.
Well what did I do today anyways, hmmmm. Well I had to do some technical work with a file manager, organizing some vendor lists, then I made a sandwich. Then I realized that I must be up at 7 AN! Oh noo!!!!

I am trying, I dont think it rhymes.

What are you working on at the moment? Did you ever find a gig?

I might figure out how to turn get a biomass, I'll ask these burners later on in the day if they know anyone who could help teach you so you could teach another. Ok, so I need to smoke a clove, before I go in, its on the to do list.

OK, so the last one died!! Now I am frustrated.

I had written out this huge post for ya'll, to present myself to you. But to my luck, the fuckin internet died, when I sent it, and well I clicked the back arrow and then its like all vanished!

However, that means I'll be deeply mysterious to ya'll Newbies, Californian's. I am from Texas, I am from Poland, I am from Friesland, I am from the Mayflower, I am from a lot of places and a lot of times, this is my vessel right now, and everything about ya'll is something I make up in my mind. I believe in this particle field thingy, and that the passed influences the future.I was named Casey, because it was the closest translation to our old family name, I am using the name I know off the top of my head, the one that defeated Gengis Khan. Yeah the chinese Owe me, and we have such a big deficent, the Gov't should just print money, like 380 billion or so, and equaly give it to everyone in the country. Uncle Sam, Sam Houston it should be, my great great granddaddy. Indentured Servants would of been the way to go, you know with like 300 million people. We could help everyone, give to everyone, no reason for taxes when you are taxing yourself. We should live in little communities, 8 big, 10 big, 20, 30, 80, 160, 420, 600, 2000, up to 50k, and we would be in districts with our own leadership and security, we would be completely safe and people would work for the greatest good, humanity.

Too bad we live in a neofasist conservative state, I am a stance Old Fashioned Republican, slavery was bad in the terms of cruelty, people should be given the chance to rise. What the north did when it won the cival war, was promoted big buisness, democrazy. If the Union would of listened to sam houston, we would of had a much less bloody and racist perpective on ethnicity, if by generation by generation, changes occur. What happened in America, was it happened in 2 big spurts, to different people. Shows how smart the corporations are, and look at us now! I have a lot more to say, this is just the tip of the iceberg. No I am not a terrorizor, Id pummel thousands of them with my bear hands if forced with the life or death of my family. The dear lord has taken a lot of family from my life, and I have learned a lot. I see things in a new light, maybe one of ya'll will see it how I see it, then again, this is just a sneak peak, words within words. It doesnt all make that much sense, yet. I havent written the whole thing.


Neways, I'll update later.

UPDATES SO FAR HAHAHAHAHAHAHA OK NOW FOR SOME SERSIOUSNESSSSSS


1:45 or so, I start again, Ive been preparing for my day for a while now. mike came by, Jia's son in law, and he once again didnt finish the roofing. I was being all cool with him in shit, I didnt know he talked some shit, the pussies upstairs didnt have the balls to tell me sooner, ensuring that I didnt mention it. I mean It was such bullshit, they could of just told me out right. Not that I was relying on it or anything, I never rely on anything but my ability to grow more powerful.

Alright, so I am going to continue downward on this post, its a new day and well things arent turning out to be the best of them. People are just "negro's", the white man always is! It's alright, we are just more liberal in Texas than in California, damn girly men! You see, In Texas, we live more in a communnal way than in most societies, and when someone tries to hate on you, AKA they are making you into a slave, you call them a nigger, Always white people, some hispanics, some blacks, some gooks too! I could curse up a storm, but I am just hurt. I will need to get out of the mountains and find a city.

I just love how I skip around with the points and principles.


My friend im kickin it with, well he is trying to drop me from my high, by saying all these negative things like he is intentionally trying to hurt me, if They were just honest from the get go like I have, I do not see what would be the problem. I just need direction I guess. He is trying to get me to work for a good friend of his, It could be a very good job, but I dont know if I am into work. I might just wanna be an actor/writer/everything too, LOL! Would make things way easier, just gotta have a product you can mass market to the whole masses of people, go for the high schoolers and you will have a guarrented success, you just need to hit every mark just in case! LOL, oh us Stephenson's are quite the rare breed, so are the Kasimiera's too but I dont need to hold back myself on past glorys in previous generations.

So basicly I dont know whats up, I have a month to deside if california is the place for me. A month is always too short, nature enjoys my presense, likewise. I mean I was told that mike didnt want me to be around Jia's grand daughter, I know more about kids than anyone can imagine, I had a whole army of them for christs sake! Generals, Lietenents, corporals, sergents, cadets, civilians, ninjas, princesses, cops, robbers, peasants, the Childrens, all different breeds and types. You see, Beaumont is really diverse per capita, its not like the whites make millions and the blacks make pennies,Everyone seems to do very well across the board, some people could be doing better than others, but the education, the outdoors, the lifestyle is just so laid back in Texas. Out in California, Ive had a handful of worthy experiances. In Sept, at my brothers marriage and following weeks while I got to meet all of the family, the McKaigs. My brother mark has a different mom than I do, coop and me, the young ones have different moms, with the one of the far left. Mark and Jascha are a month apart on the same day, same age too! I have a beardish thing goin on right now, I look really distinguised myself, Its very hard to break my mood when other things are looking well. Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love

You know if you say it enough it will happen, its like for good luck on water so I dont see why it wouldnt on this blog. I think I need more lovin to displace the bad thoughs.

Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love Love

Alright, I think that might of done it.

So living in the mountains is tough, I am going to go work at clearing some "brush"es off, might reach a wise insite on something worldy. I know I can control the whole entire thing, I guess I just needed to hear what I heard, or something.