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overwhelmed lately
Sun, November 26, 2006 - 7:22 PMok, i feel so distant from everyone and everything lately, I even feel distant from dance. my upcoming divorce is not going as smooth as hoped, i just started a new job that is realy wonderful but alot to take on all at once, i work as a medical interperter and i am also the area supervisor. so hence much stress.... my kids are getting neglected, i am neglecting myself and don't recognize myself anymore.....
i wish i could just jump off this train.....
i need help......
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Sun, November 26, 2006 - 8:02 PM
When you are standing at the edge of all the light you have ever known, and are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing that one of two things will happen. There will be something to land on, or you will be taught to fly. Hang in there, Sweetie! Goddess Bless, Traci |
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Sun, November 26, 2006 - 9:06 PM
Sending hugs!
Oh Mayra, how I know how you feel! I don't have any real answers... just a been there and go there again and again...
I don't know how old you are... but I know for me it is partly due to my stage of life (I'm nearing 40). A natural passage... but at times a very painful one. Part is also what I've come understand as the natural duality of a woman's nature... when life starts taking it's toll on me, the balance gets out of whack... too much is expected of me and the nurturing, giving, repsonsible side of me gets overwhelmed; The "wild child" (the gypsy, the dancer, the free-spirit) is either completely lost or starts flailing wildly to get out. Maybe yours is lost right now? Anyhoo... know that you're not alone... sending a prayer heavenward for you and sending hugs your way. BTW - being a medical interpreter is SO cool!! :O) |
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Mon, November 27, 2006 - 9:00 AM
Wow, a stressful job, and kids, and going through a divorce. I've been there, too (well, not the kids, but the rest of it). It was rough, but I came out of it a better and happier person. In the meantime, it still sucks sometimes.
Do you have a friend or family member who you can get together with sometimes, who will just let you vent for awhile, and who will just listen, and not blame anybody for anything, just listen and provide just a little bit of feedback? When I was going through my divorce many years ago, I had a couple of friends like this, and they literally saved my life and my sanity. |
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Mon, November 27, 2006 - 10:16 AM
The key word is Passage
I've (Raven) been going through the exact things - I have 3 children and finished my divorce in February. Sometimes the only thing I could do was to make sure they all got hugged and got food that day. It's a terrifying experience! Especially when you have a job that takes the time and focus away from you healing, and from your children. But sometimes that's how it is - divorces, and life, are expensive! And there are so many choices to make, and so much paperwork and so many stressful confrontations, one right after the other! But you WILL get to a place when there are pools of calm - it's like running as hard as you can, trying your best for everyone involved, and sacrificing yourself as you run through the desert and the thorns, and being scratched by unkind people's comments and opinions of you no matter how hard you try - then, every once in a while, you'll come to an oasis. When you do, whether it's a chunk of time you have for yourself, some unforseen money, or a kind person - just relax in it, swim and enjoy it. It's where you'll get strength for the next stretch. And soon, they'll get more frequent, and your life will slowly become normal again - but this time, you get to create what "normal" is. Not your spouse!!!!
Talk to me any time, ok! Many, many blessings, and it WILL get better, I promise! Only a fool couldn't see how hard you are trying, and that will lead to good in the end... really. And ALL of us in Tribal Spirits are pulling for you! |
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Mon, November 27, 2006 - 10:56 AM
You are making progress though right? Moving foward. That takes time and can cause worry but it will all be good in the end.
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Mon, November 27, 2006 - 7:18 PM
Mayra, honey, I'm here for you. Both on tribe and always in person. Whether you need a hug, a shoulder to cry on, a count nazi :-), whatever it is...you can count on me. I love you!
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Mon, November 27, 2006 - 9:32 PM
oh mama...
You are a beautiful person...and your kids know it,too...they are not "babes off fresh off the teat"....they know full well what you're up against....they have followed you to your "Northern Paradise" and have claimed it as their own, as well, for now. Your drive and determination is an example to those around you, including your children/young adults. As Tracy so beautifully said: you're either going to land on something or learn how to fly...it's all good.
Blessings, Stacey |
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Tue, November 28, 2006 - 1:48 PM
If wishes were material...You would be SURROUNDED by love and happiness...That is what I wish for you, Mayra! It appears, by all of these WONDerful comments...That I am not the only one with wishes for you...
And OH MY GOODNESS...Traci!...Something to land on or learn how to fly...What BEAUTIFUL words and inspiration!!! I have just recently been going through some REALLY rough feelings and circumstances. Though I am married and have the best husband ever...I was feeling SO alone and SO blue (in my lost-ness and my direction-less-ness). Then, I read your posting and my heart just went out to you! I read your posting and all of the beautiful comments. I hope that no one minds...As I took some of them in as you were speaking to me, too. I guess it doesn't really matter "where" we are going or "how" we are gonna get there. Just need to enjoy the fact that we ARE here to feel...The ups and the downs...The happys and the sads...And to hug each and everyone of our children, friends, families, and hubbies...The journy will get us "there" soon enough... |
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Wed, November 29, 2006 - 12:40 PM
Healing feelings sent your way -
Come to know you are never without.
You are surrounded by love, even in the darkest of times - open your mind to it - believe and it will be so. Take gentle care - Arya |
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Sun, December 10, 2006 - 8:27 AM
overwhelmed with emotion
Wow ladies,
as i sit here reading all your comments I am overwhelmed with emotion and literally tearing up! I am usually the strong one for everyone and for a while i have not been feeling very strong, I just want someone to lean on and say i am loved and that everything is going to be alright, Thank you ladies for your words of encouragement, I have no family here in Wisconsin except for my kids, but now i know i do have an extended family of beautiful ladies i can lean on when i am down. Raven.... thank you, your words are so healing to me and i don't feel so alone. I am blessed to have you all in my life.... my kindred spirit sisters! |
