So is been frustrating for the past couple of days. I felt somewhat unsatisfied and feeling that language as we know it fails as I try to explain my interest or my experiences of life . There seems to be in new realm of life where life is endless with no beginning and no end this makes it hard to explain to other people I want to collaborate or be involved with. This world exist outside the mind and our constant chatter. Is a feeling a body knowingness and I feel it when I do contact dance. It seems as if we are programmed to this cubicle life that we live and if we dont brake from it we live our life making decisions from there [mostly fear]. It can become suffocating which brings me to my challenge I have been having into diving into my creativity. I week ago I fought demons or illusions all day as I stayed all day in my house trying to harness this creative flow.
I went to a tantric creative exchange gathering last night and to my surprise there I felt and heard this calling that this was a glimpse of this language or world I am meant to follow. Just earlier I had felt the need to express this to friends. I feel in one hand I want to create an environment where I can cultivate this world and at the same time I have to find the focus to prepare or welcome or activate this new language. Is almost as if we/ I are creating life as we know it by the decisions we make like a journey or matrix. This matrix is fragile because it exist outside language or in silence, in believing rather that being cynical and this road hasn't been paved yet it has no guideline
and requires really asking the right questions in times of hard-shift and going to the core of the pain struggle or issue.
So the final questions is how do we really listen and make the final step to become this love, this language this tool, our body , a living example of this radiance outside judgment, ALL transforming EXpression of the infinite.
I guess what Im saying is Im trying to create an Empire of Love and expression and I have to start from scratch...dam it !!! But I dont want to do it alone. I need wood, materials wings, feathers and all.
Do you have materials?
Does this make sense to some of you?
There is more to where this in going and it has to do with mastery and mystery.
If this make sense can you say YES or perhaps elaborate more or give me pointers?

So a saw a sing at my work were it said that for those who rode the bike for July 4th they will be getting free breakfast and get to use the spa before work. As a sing for becoming independent from the gas companies my job is offering breakfast and they get to use the spa facilities. Now if we could all make our share of riding the bike once a week instead of the car. How cool. I personally love riding my bike and hopI can start riding more and more. Pass it on maybe we can have a bike day.

So im thinking in spending less time on tribe. As much as i love tribe with the way is going I'll rather just spend more time in myspace.
here is my link.
myspace.com/cosmicmessenger

I think thats the one or send me your email if you feel like it.
Love Fernando.