I am sick and f**king tired of being sick and tired.
No doctors have the answers for me, and it just hit me like a ton of bricks today.
My mom has been going to medical doctors for ten years who have been POISONING her to the point she had to go and detox from all the medications they had her on.
I am ANGRY at the world around me, the lies, the Halliburton detention centers they're building here, the "red phone" ad straight out of Karl Rove's playbook...don't you people (read: American Public)SEE this?
You are SO caught up in american idol and fast food and the ILLUSION of comfort and safety that you are deaf, blind and dumb sheep happily RUNNING to slaughter. And oh, lest you think I am judgemental, I cast the judgement upon myself too.
I cannot see past this fog today.
I spent almost all of what little money I have left to buy some organic fruit, since the crap they sell us is POISON and to NOT ingest poison you have to PAY more..how sick is that?
I have a copy of the Tao Te Ching and some white sage, and I plan on spending from sundown tonight to sundown on Sunday on a juice fast, in prayer and meditation and slowly cleaning out the excess in my home that is now so encroaching upon my psyche that I'm in a panic and fighting the urge to swallow a (dr prescribed) pill to slip into complacency (sp?) and apathy.
I no longer dream of a better tomorrow, I see my hope fading and WISHING for the end to come because I am tired, I am SO tired...
I must be patient.