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Fri, May 16, 2008 - 3:35 PM
The second place was a trail in a cayon that lead to a waterfall. There was a little creek that ran through out. there were groves of trees and scrub and few places where it was just rocky, and the pups could swim in little pools in spots and Tooby could even be off of his leash. It's that canyon that I miss the most. I think it's because I don't ever get any alone time anymore that I miss walking. I also miss moving my body and feeling like my body is actually semi-strong. Maybe I just mss being out in nature. Maybe it's because somehow, no matter how lonely I feel in life in general, a nice long walk just me and my dogs makes me feel whole again, like nothing is missing. Somehow actually being alone makes me not feel lonely anymore. I don't quite understand that, but I'm sure it has something to do with re-connecting to myself.
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Fri, May 16, 2008 - 3:43 PM
In two weeks I will be going on a hike. I will let you know where it is if it seems like a good place to go walk for you. It will be in the east bay, and one day when you have time you will get to go.
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Fri, May 16, 2008 - 3:52 PM
Thanks Danetta that would be great! A good hike is what I need to perk me up these days I think. There are few things in the world that can't be solved by hiking or shooting zombies, and nothing that can't be solved by hiking, eating ice cream and then shooting zombies in that order!
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Fri, May 16, 2008 - 5:20 PM
What if you went hiking in the backcountry, shooting zombies with one hand, and eating ice-cream with the other?
Would you just explode from the joy? |
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Fri, May 16, 2008 - 9:14 PM
i totally get that...after i walk and just like breathe and clear my head i feel more whole and loved and alive...walking is so the best, i hope you get to soon! :)
~PH |
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Fri, May 16, 2008 - 9:34 PM
bee, I relate to that ever so deeply. It is why I wanted so badly to go to Americorps, you see. I wanted to be wif the out of doors for months on end... as maybe a soul search?
Since I canna do that no more (I hope so much so that there is a reason for my not going just yet), I go to a state park near me. It does not have the most famous of trails, but it makes me happy. I could sit here for an hour and describe for you the different twists and turns, the part where a tree has fallen over and I haffa duck underneath it, the gopher tortoise holes, the turtle i saw and petted, how sad I was to see the turtle eggs dug up and eaten (but happy for the raccoon who got em), etc. My Great Sadness is gone when I am there. I feel very much alive. I am hoping... If I end up working with the parks... that my sadness will lift and stay lifted for the most part. It is my greatest hope, as I will be ABLE to walk in the beautiful natural out of doors on my break, and drink my sippy cup fulla juice by a lake and watch the herons hunting snakes for dinner. And stuff. I am rambling. But I totally understand. I also agree that a dog is needed for accompanying me on these journeys (and maybe for work? if I get enough seniority?). I think this is partially why I love scoop so much... he does this for Snacky, but times a million. :-) Anyway. I stop my blah blahing now. I say make time, friend. Make the time. ~autumns |
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Sat, May 17, 2008 - 6:39 AM
:)
i think this is your brain/body say "thanks more more more". We are so lucky we live in a great area to walk. WALK ON SISTER |
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Sat, May 17, 2008 - 10:15 AM
I live in Downtown San Jose, just about a mile and a half (at the most) from work. I was driving that distance for about two years to work. For the past two months I've been walking to and from work everyday. I stop at Peets (it's on the way) at about 6:00 AM, get my coffee, and walk to work.
It takes about 20 minutes, and gives me a chance to enjoy the morning and get centered before my busy day gets underway. I like it, and it's "green" too! Walk-on Bethie! |
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Sat, May 17, 2008 - 4:51 PM
This is going to relate but in a kind of odd way. It didn't bother me much when my ankles went bad because I wasn't walking as much as I did when I moved out here. I used my car to get whereever I needed to go and that was fine. Short walk from car handi-cap spot to the store or class or office or whatever. But also, there has always been a part of me missing. I would find that part when I would go to the water or swim in a pool even. Being in the water was my movement that made me feel more whole.
When I first starting having to use the wheelchair, there was a freedom to it. My fatigue level lessened and my pain level as well. I would be free outside no matter how good my body was feeling. I love nature (except bugs and itchy plants) and i love so many things about the outside world. Before without realizing it I couldn't enjoy it that much because of my ankles and my pain. Now in the chair i can be connected to a part of that missing me part because of the freedom that the chair gives me. I can see things and not just what is on my way someplace but I can actually go someplace just to go and i don't have to worry about not being able to make it home. I see the flowers and the colors everwhere. I love it out here because there are flowers year round. I see the birds even the stupid pigeons and stuff. They all are pretty to me on some level in some way. When my head is quiet I hear the sounds and those are awesome too. My head isn't always quiet. I get that mostly when I am able to be relaxed with my surroundings and when i am in a place of submission or more fully my girl space. But there is still the need for moving my body. We are working on things to get me where I can be more active and I do miss walking but mostly I miss being in the water and moving about and feeling the sensations of my body moving without the struggle and pain from my ankles and my FMS. I could liken it to something else but I think that would be a better blog for me to write on my own. But the overall point I guess is that I get it from a different place what you are saying (at least I think I do). And it is important to have that freedom feeling and the moving feeling and to see the things that bring you peace or to see the new things that you find joy in. Keep on walkin' chel |
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Sat, May 17, 2008 - 8:46 PM
miss bethie, they say that we hunger for what our bodies need. walking is a lot like meditation for me. i bet it is like that for you, too.
i hope you find somewhere to walk. i love this site for finding great trails. www.bahiker.com/index.html |
