before this started, so quiet, vegetarian, drinking tea, being hit with sex energy invisibly, believing love, ugh, another lesbian, what was it, reading books, listening to classical music and operas, working in dirt, going home and bathing, being quiet, working in the freezing cold, getting mad, tight and wet, trying to love it, invisible rape, my handwriting in red ink for him, getting attacked with sex at work, going home, perfect quiet clean apartment, best i ever had, pears and apples an... read more