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Katerine — Sat, 21 Jun 2008 21:39:55 GMT

Finding joy in a summer afternoon thurnder storm.

Mixed feelings

Katerine — Thu, 28 Feb 2008 03:22:44 GMT

Well its official. The Warden has moved back to McAllen. Feeling a bit sad cuz it has been my job to take care of her since I was 15. I dont know how to let go. Now that she has left I'm feeling guilty cuz I was not able to make her feel at home here. I realize that it is hard for an 86 y/o woman to leave the home she has lived in for 60+ years and move away from all of her friends. She was very lonely here. So, I quit fighting and let her go back. My fear is that she went home to die. She has become increasingly ill in the last few months. My other fear is I have a new mortgage and 2 households to support. Can I make it? It was on thing to pay appt rent., but now its a mortgage. Kinda scary. At the same time I am relieved because I no longer have to worry about going home at a certain time to be with her and I can play more than I have in the last 2 years. Not feeling so much like a prisoner. Lots of mixed emotions but mostly feeling guilty that I am relieved that she is gone. Am I a horrible daughter?

My Card

Katerine — Tue, 19 Feb 2008 17:38:09 GMT

You are The Sun Happiness, Content, Joy. The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent. Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way. The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy. What Tarot Card are You?