THE INVITATION ~ ORIAH MOUNTAIN DREAMER

IT DOESN'T INTEREST ME WHAT YOU DO FOR A LIVING.
I WANT TO KNOW WHAT YOU ACHE FOR,
AND IF YOU DARE TO DREAM OF MEETING YOUR HEART'S LONGING.

IT DOESN'T INTEREST ME HOW OLD YOU ARE.
I WANT TO KNOW IF YOU WILL RISK LOOKING LIKE A FOOL
FOR LOVE, FOR YOUR DREAMS,
FOR THE ADVENTURE OF BEING ALIVE.

IT DOESN'T INTEREST ME WHAT PLANETS ARE SQUARING YOUR MOON.
I WANT TO KNOW IF YOU HAVE TOUCHED
THE CENTRE OF YOUR OWN SORROW,
IF YOU HAVE BEEN OPENED BY LIFE'S BETRAYALS
OR HAVE BECOME SHRIVELLED AND CLOSED FROM FEAR OF FURTHER PAIN.

I WANT TO KNOW IF YOU CAN SIT WITH PAIN,
MINE OR YOUR OWN, WITHOUT MOVING TO HIDE IT
OR FADE IT OR FIX IT.

I WANT TO KNOW IF YOU CAN BE WITH JOY MINE OR YOUR OWN.
IF YOU CAN DANCE WITH WILDNESS AND LET THE ECSTASY
FILL YOU TO THE TIPS OF YOUR FINGERS
AND TOES WITHOUT CAUTIONING US
TO BE CAREFUL, BE REALISTIC,
REMEMBER THE LIMITATIONS OF BEING HUMAN.

IT DOESN'T INTEREST ME IF THE STORY YOU ARE TELLING ME IS TRUE.
I WANT TO KNOW IF YOU CAN DISAPPOINT ANOTHER
TO BE TRUE TO YOURSELF.
IF YOU CAN BEAR THE ACCUSATION OF BETRAYAL
AND NOT BETRAY YOUR OWN SOUL.
IF YOU CAN BE FAITHLESS AND THEREFORE TRUSTWORTHY.

I WANT TO KNOW IF YOU CAN SEE BEAUTY
EVEN WHEN IT IS NOT PRETTY EVERY DAY,
AND IF YOU CAN SOURCE YOUR OWN LIFE FROM ITS PRESENCE.

I WANT TO KNOW IF YOU CAN LIVE WITH FAILURE, YOURS AND MINE,
AND STILL STAND AT THE EDGE OF THE LAKE
AND SHOUT TO THE SILVER OF THE FULL MOON,“YES.”

IT DOESN'T INTEREST ME TO KNOW WHERE YOU LIVE,
OR HOW MUCH MONEY YOU HAVE.
I WANT TO KNOW IF YOU CAN GET UP AFTER THE NIGHT OF GRIEF AND DESPAIR,
WEARY AND BRUISED TO THE BONE,
AND DO WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE TO FEED THE CHILDREN.

IT DOESN'T INTEREST ME WHO YOU KNOW
OR HOW YOU CAME TO BE HERE.
I WANT TO KNOW IF YOU WILL STAND
IN THE CENTRE OF THE FIRE WITH ME AND NOT SHRINK BACK.

IT DOESN'T INTEREST ME WHERE OR WHAT
OR WITH WHOM YOU HAVE STUDIED.
I WANT TO KNOW WHAT SUSTAINS YOU FROM THE INSIDE
WHEN ALL ELSE FALLS AWAY.

I WANT TO KNOW IF YOU CAN BE ALONE WITH YOURSELF,
AND IF YOU TRULY LIKE THE COMPANY
YOU KEEP IN THE EMPTY MOMENTS.

Intellectualized sexuality and trapped Kundalini.
An effective way to notice the condition of my Kundalini and state of Her existence
Is by noticing my body posture in combination to how I feel, beginning from the sensations I may or may not sense from my root charka and sex.

THIS IS A HEALING AND INVOKATION TO OPEN MY SELF TO NEW UNDERSTANDINGS

COMPREHENSION, UNDERSTANDING, LE COMPRENER:
the moment of thoroughly IN-CORPO-RATING a series of sensations and feelings connected to that which is true for myself in conjunction to the UNIVERSE therefore and hence forth for the Greater Whole.
All the senses and feelings for Being are evolved or transported to another space of Being IN JUST ONE BREATH.

I am in a different space with myself; I have discovered how images and ideas influence my feelings, suggesting perceptions and actions absolutely irrationally.
I have discovered that this is false to whom I really am.
In the process of Healing the Kundalini, the Mother Goddess in myself,
I felt the tension in my sex, I felt unable to receive openly and thoroughly.
I felt a distance between my sex, my heart and my body.
I am as little as can be and already my Kundalini fire is vibrating in every part of me wanting to be alive, expressive, in Love, sexually evoking, and inviting to evolve the meaning of my feminine thru physical and sensory understanding.

I want to sense and feel my life, starting with my sex, I want to ease the intellect that is in a habit of propelling uninvited images of what I ought to be and be doing.
Whenever the intellect adds its input, I have responded with my feelings and sacred energy without noticing how this affected my capacity to truly be in my body and feelings with my self, I desensitized . I noticed this while making love especially.
I love to express my body, my emotions of joy, love, fun, pleasure, passion and then my mind wanted to join by “illustrating”my actions and disrupting my flow with LEARNED ASSOCIATIONS so disconnecting me to what it means to me to feel in union and experience what is truly supposed to be an expression of God’s love.
The em-bodiment of Love.

IT IS OUT OF CHAOS THAT ORDER COMES TO BEING.
I want to disappear from the mind, I want to feel the passionate heat propel from my Kundalini sensations and enjoy Her movement and inspirations within me.
I want to be present with that which truly touches me and be liberated to experience the joy of sensing my feelings as they manifest in my body, my heart, my spirit.
Beloved, forgive me; I let myself believe the paradigms and the conditionings of the mind. I became so afraid as I reacted to what my mind would tell me, I began to hold my breath and hang on to you so tightly in terror of being weak and powerless.
I froze. I believed my mind and disconnected myself from my true essence. I felt abandoned by God and my purpose for being when in reality I was gapped inside.
I knew I wanted to open up and allow myself to move my body spontaneously and
experience the heat of passion. My mind was insistent at disrupting that flow with
judgments and sexual guilt. I felt myself removed from experiencing you and us by my intellect that wanted to analyze and manipulate me with fear and insecurity towards my body, my heart and my Divine expression.

You are so beautiful to me and my desire for you would always draw me back to you, and yet my mind would get the better part of me and my Kundalini would freeze right under me.
Then Chaos pushed me to the limit, my survival code started to rip me apart, I became so imbalanced that i finally busted my mind and began to break thru the walls of my incarcerated Goddess and scream myself open, ripping thru the spider web of denial and judgments set upon by old conditioning.
I felt to free myself from all that confused me and denied me form and the true essence for being Me.
There is no time in the Universe and it’s never too late for alignment, the imbalance itself triggered and ignited these understandings.
Real Love is unstoppable and passion is the reality of the multi-faceted Force.
The Will to feel God align with me is stronger than the ropes of Luciferian existence.

I am in the middle of rereading the book "Earth Spell" and i have been feeling much of the judgements and denials the Mother Goddess experienced with God while pushed away into the dark so that he could have a "pretty existence" with the Angels without the negative reflections He had from the Mother. I sat with this book one day outside in my backyard facing the sun and crying from my depths as i continued to read on.
I have been feeling in myself to discover exactly what it is i love for my self and my life, i wake up in the morning and put my hands on my heart and simply voice the word "Love" or "Amore" (i'm italian ) just
so i can experience more of this vibration in myself. This actually does enhance loving feelings for me.
I have for so long given loving intent towards a person i have loved for so long and somehow i am experiencing the reversal of what i wish for instead. He wants to xplore himself with other women, there ;s something else out there he wants to find and yet he always comes back towards my direction and i lovingly make space for him since he is the other person in my life who knows me and understands best and parallels with the RUOw teachings. I have recently decided to give less to him and give more to me.
It's diffucult to have daily reflections of not being good enough as a female, or to feel in competition with other women or to catch myself look at other beautiful women and imagine how he would like them.
These mental imagery had slowly been killing me, at least killing my self esteem and Heart.
My Heart does feel bruised and closed , I miss the affection and long for the warm embracing and yet I still feel so aligned with this person that all i can do to pick myself up is to hold my hands to my heart and give attention to my life's creative path.
What is my path? Truly having faith in the process of Life and trusting that what i choose to create for myself is going to include all the wonderful ingredients of Life that a woman would wish for.
Meanwhile, i look forward to painting this mural over at Berkeley City College over the summer and completing my first abstract digitally animated short movie named "Pillowater", an abstract short about the colors and imagery of feelings (of course).
Till soon,
Bella Foresta

lately i wonder about the meaning of words.
the names i give to every thing that is reality, and actually
the names that i have learned to give to all that is reality.
i speak other languages besides english and although the name calling
on life exists when spoken in another tongue and the meaning may "feel"different,
however, my intellect always interferes in any language and by the time i finished uttering the name
of that which asks to be acknoledged, communicated, referred to , thought of , expressed, defined,.framed
etc..
i forget what the initial feeling was of that which i saw or felt.
it seems to me Shakespeare knew a little of this when this line he wrote in "Romeo and Juliet".
i am so in a habit of living my life according to all the names that define reality that i am now
drowning in judgements and criticism for all that which is which essentially so mysterious and honestly
quiete nameless.
As i make use of words so to write my feeling to you out there,
i am certain that what ever feelings arise for you from reading this glimpse on reality
are going to be very different from my feelings for writing this. Such seems to be the reality of words when
they filter the intuition that tries to be outspoken.

Do you remember the first time???
The first time you took in a psychadelic substance.
Do you remember how you first heard about it??
Do you remember what exactly inspired you to take an hallucinogen??
Who are you today because of that experience you had?

Just heard Johnny Greenwood's composition performed at San Francisco's Herbst Theatre on the 21st of Aug.
If you enjoy or somewhat feel your insides shift when you hear classical music, try out experimental classical compositions
like Popcorn Superhet Receiver.
32 or so string instruments in unique unison, played traditionally and untraditionally.
I was not on anything however the "colors" that i felt from experiencing
the myriad of strings felt life shifted like waves of indian yellow hues. Hmmm slurp!

Nouvelle vague had changed the face of cinema by unveiling an intellect and
shoot motion not seen before in cinema. I LOVE IT ALL.
So many directors pursued the style but Godard is still one of my faves.

I love surreal art and Magritte is one of the artists whose work inspires my visual perception of reality and
the mystic with the medium of art. The titles he chose for his paintings are usually so profound and even comical at
times, like "le present" or the well known "ce ci n'est pas une pipe" {this is not a pipe}, tor "la gioconde" {the mona lisa}
the titles are thought provoking and usually have a sense of provoking ia state of nner peace. I just love his vision of the self.
I found an online virtual gallery from Belgium. It has several of his amazing pieces and titles.
check ti out.
www.magritte.be/

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had…

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives…

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone…

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile…

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy…

Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too…

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way…

Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives…

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying…

Fly was 19 minutes in length and, as with Up your legs filmed during the same New York visit, also took two days to film in a New York attic. Although only one person was filmed, in contrast to the 331 gathered for the Legs film, Fly was a more complicated project.

John and Yoko asked New York actress Virginia Lust to lie down naked whilst they filmed a fly exploring her body. Approximately 200 flies were used and each had to be stunned with a special gas. The film showed a fly traversing the girl's body from her toes to her head, exploring every part. It was claimed that Virginia Lust also had to be sedated during the filming.

Further filming of the Lennon's also took place during this period in the Bowery, rare footage includes John playing guitar.
Yoko Ono is probably one of the most underrated female artists of our era. I like her work, it's imaginative and excessively dynamic in a myriad of art midiums. Her quarkiness and ecclectic vision inspires me and entertains me.

Hero’s Journey Part Two: la Felicita’.(Italian version)

L’opposto della tristezza.
Ho scoperto che il mio senso imparato dell’Amore e’
Coinvolto con l’esperienza della Tristezza.
E va bene.
Pero’ adesso nella mia vita, nosn piu’ voglio solamente
Conoscere la triste faccia dell’Amore.
Adesso voglio scoprire in Me l’esperienza e pratica
Dell’Amore che crea la Felicita. L’Amore con gioia, sorrisi, perdoni, e baci teneri, come una festa di Primavera.
E quindi, come mio Dio posso trovare il punto su cui c’e una leva dalla quale procedere, perche’sappi che
Non piu voglio rimpiangere il passato. Qual’e la leva?
Aiutami a trovarla Dio,
Con Fiducia in me stessa, scopro momenti migliori.
E cosi’ poco a poco, mi creo il mio Amore con altrettanti sentimenti presenti che ho per
Troppo al lungo escluso.

S.Piga

in every breath
if you're the center
of your own desires
you'll lose the grace
of your beloved

but if in every breath
you blow away
your self claim
the ecstasy of love
will soon arrive

in every breath
if you're the center
of your own thoughts
the sadness of autumn
will fall on you

but if in every breath
you strip naked
just like a winter
the joy of spring
will grow from within

all your impatience
comes from the push
for gain of patience
let go of the effort
and peace will arrive

all your unfulfilled desires
are from your greed
for gain of fulfillments
let go of them all
and they will be sent as gifts

fall in love with
the agony of love
not the ecstasy
then the beloved
will fall in love with you

Remember everything you do creates an energy pattern. Decisions you made 3 weeks ago created a pattern that could still be manifesting today. Things you do today can set into motion events 5 weeks from today. In dream you can feel and see those patterns from a super conscious mind perspective and see the probable outcome of that energy you've already put into motion. These visions can be messages that you're on the right track, or warnings that you may have things to do to alter the path and improve the situation.
Recently dreamed of a gorgeous horse. I dreamed i was caressing him and his fur was as soft as a dog's ears.

When colors make their presence distinct in my dreams, I respect what significance that may have in my
growth as a spiritual connection for Heaven and Earth.
In an early dream of December fifth, a friendly male faced me as i felt my eyes shut with heavy sleep. He told me to
open my eyes and look at the red light that he triggered with his fingers with an inexplicable sci-fi tool.
As soon as I looked at the red light thru my left eye, I felt my body float just slightly off the ground.
I floated towards a large boulder at which point I reached out my arms and leaned on the boulder as if I were giving a gentle
embrace to the rock. At that moment I began to cry and green appeared.
I heard the same male say in the background about my expression "that's typical of Heart polarity" as if dismissing my gesture as
being anything out of the ordinary. Soon after, I also heard him tell me "you can feel your way back to where you want to go".
I began to float towards what seemed the direction of the city, there were several streets in that direction, but then I felt an understanding with my whole being that I really could feel myself find a way that really resonate with my entire state of self , like
following the direction of a scent that attracted me wholesomely. I switched direction and let myself go with my senses and saw
myself float toward a path with gorgeous thick trees. I felt lucid, everything in my perception felt unknown and yet familiar, I also felt
that I was experiencing a psychedelic like transformation of the new world with Divine guidance, I had the feeling that "this is it, it's happening!" then I woke up at a healthy 9 AM, feeling so good, like I feel when it's Sunday when my lover is prepping coffee and cakes and I just know today is going to be a vacation!
Drams like this one are occasional and when I dream like this, I feel there's a significant signal my spirit is communicating
to me, It feels like my fears for "where I may or may not be going in life "are pacified and the support I need is all here, even if it's invisible.

"Siddhartha had often heard all of this before, all these numerous voices in the river, but today they sounded different. They all belonged to each other: the lament of those who yearn, the laughter of the wise, the cry of indication and the groan of dying and all the voices, all the goals, all the pleasures, all the good and evil, all of them together was the world"

Hermann Hesse
I would like to add to the sentence of "all of them together was the world" by substituting
"WORLD" with "SELF".
I am all that, and everyday i seek comprehension and love for every part
of myself so to expand and feel my love so high that i can touch the finger tips of God.