Male

39

I have fun working. Most of the time I have a bunch of projects that completely captivate me, either writing projects, art projects, programming projects, clothing design projects, or something along those lines. At the same time, people are really great! I love them. Sometimes I just want to be alone, and then I'm bad company, but even at those times I just love people. I was raised to have a philosophical outlook on life, which only means that I was raised to look at things in terms of how they fit together, instead of how they break apart. In spite of being a complete athiest (I don't believe in God, a soul, or anything like that), I still manage to be extremely spiritual. There is such utter beauty in all things, such complete unity; and at the same time such vast differences and distances between things. This sense fills my every thought and expression, even when it seems like it doesn't. I'm very much myself; I don't bend and sway to anyone's tune but my own. If something doesn't make sense to me, I don't go along with it, even if it causes me pain. Some would say that's a failing. It causes me to be brutally honest, and even not-so-brutally honest. I just tell the truth all the time, for some reason. If I do something wrong, I 'fess up. If I think you've done something wrong, I tell you. I don't back down from my beliefs unless I'm convinced, so emotional appeals don't work. At the same time, I'm very empathic about certain things, very sensitive to the feelings of others. I don't feel the need to assert my own personality against you, to overshadow you, or to "make you know that you're wrong and I'm right." Becoming close is about both of us - I try to see, feel, and be open to you. But if it's a choice between sparing someone's feelings (even my own), and telling the truth, truth wins every time. It's just how I'm wired. I can't stand to live a lie. Every time I've tried, the truth has forced itself out of me right away.