Female

36

I'm a 36 year old married mom of 3 great kids. I've been married for over 13 years now to the best husband a gal could ask for. Aside from my marriage and family--I don't have much. (of course they are everything to me and as long as I have them the world is good) I have a hard time making new friends - I am often misunderstood. I absolutly love to laugh even at inappropriate times which tends to get me into trouble . I almost always say the wrong things. I love learning to belly dance and the past 2 years that I have been working have been the best I've felt about myself in forever! I've never been good at anything or had anything I worked really hard for or was passionate about but I think with patience and hard work I could be good at this. Not yet haha! My goal in bellydance is not performing. I'm not saying never but it isn't why I drill 4xs a week, it isn't why I obsess and think about bellydance all the time. My goal is gaining control over my own body. All through my life control over my own body has been taken over and over . I won't bore you with the lil details but these events have shaped me into the woman I am today. I have never had a positve opinion of myself or of my body and slowly that is changing. I love the challange of willing my body to do things it never thought of! I love that through bellydance I feel beautiful and strong and for the first time ever comfortable in my own skin. I am asked alot by my family and others who know I bellydance when will I perform. Don't hold your breath. I may never perform on a stage--I am perfectly happy dancing in my room with the door locked.