thoughts....

oh i'm still alive!!!

Gangi Butts — Thu, 08 Jan 2009 01:56:14 GMT

i'm still here.....i almost forgot to log in to tribe. i'mmmm back..

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Gangi Butts — Sun, 04 May 2008 17:42:29 GMT

it’s about finding balance and not letting negative thoughts consume your being. if there’s one thing i’m learning it’s how to be half-full now—at all times regardless of circumstance. that is the ultimate mindset i strive for. it’s important though to recognize feelings of anger, sadness, and discomfort. being able to express to people that you are bummed rather than being passive aggressive or a debbie downer about it is important too. keeping an open heart and mind is hard. how many times has your heart been broken? 4, 5, 6? 6 times? well maybe it’s time to reevaluate your open heart policy. time to amend the policy. keep it open, but be careful. be careful and mindful of other peoples hearts. there are so many things to fall in love with that will not crush your spirit. for me those are reggae, hula hooping, social networking, creative endeavors, and dance. those keep me grounded and help re-generate my fractured heart. in the grand scheme of things, i have everything i have ever wanted or needed. the things i dream are reachable, and this makes me lucky. the things i want to be i can be. so rather than focus on the negative spaces in my life, the things i perceive i don’t have, it’s time to focus on the positive, all the opportunities i have been given. for gosh sakes i’m the luckiest person in the whole world and i need to be thankful for everything i have and will have.

Spring time

Gangi Butts — Thu, 10 Apr 2008 00:24:10 GMT

I could sit and think about you all day long. & In my dreams we run to far off lands. I could sip tea with you all morning long. & And lay in your arms till sunrise. I could love you Spring forever. & Never long for another season.

you join me in this dream world i will presently call reality

Gangi Butts — Tue, 22 Jan 2008 10:08:40 GMT

"present moment wonderful moment" living "it" day by day gifting what i have learned show me what you know, <----expand----> my world infinitely universe of ours. i have \_so_much_/ to be thankful for. i forget who i am, where i am, and how i am. remind me of my small but powerful nature astral projecting to dreams i am incapable of staring in alone you join me, YOU join me in this dream world i will presently call reality.

ARCOSANTI

Gangi Butts — Tue, 03 Jul 2007 00:13:49 GMT

here, second day, loving it one picture and that's all.

mercury retrograde

Gangi Butts — Thu, 28 Jun 2007 17:57:58 GMT

anyone else having crazy retrograde experiences?

yesterday i saw a boy with a gun

Gangi Butts — Thu, 28 Jun 2007 16:24:10 GMT

i'm still pretty weirded out frankly. yesterday i was going about my own business, riding my bike to REI from Hawthorne--which takes me through downtown--i was getting overheated since before that I was coming from sellwood and before that coming from NE so i decided it was time to get something to drink and take a 2 min break. I decided to stop at this corner store called "Ma & Pa's." it looked a little sketchy with some of the folk standing outside but most of them seems like they were harmless. so i get off my bike and walk it to bike rack on the northeast corner of the block. it was then i noticed a strange looking boy, he was wearing a "fencing mask" but not really mostly just had wiring over his face. my mother is a psychologist and over the years has taught me how to deal with situations in which you encounter a mentally ill person. my gut instinct was to avert my eyes and not look at this fellow. what what i saw at first he was a boy no older than myself (22) holding a bunch of magazines which read "art form" or something like that. he was squirmish and could not stand still, shifting his weight left-then right then left again. i was not getting a good felling about this person , but figured as long as I did not stare at him I should be okay. so as i was about the turn the key on my bike lock, I happened to look up, as I had noticed some shift in movement. the first thing i noticed were his legs, skinny unsure about standing, then i noticed his magazines in his right arm---i looked to his left side, he put a gun in his pocket. scared confused and only able to react in one of two ways, fight or flight, i decided to quickly but calmly unlock my bike and ride away. SCARY! i have never seen anything like it--i never even seen a real gun frankly! i'm having a really hard time grasping the whole situation.

:)

Gangi Butts — Wed, 20 Jun 2007 17:22:38 GMT

did it hurt when you fell from heaven?

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Gangi Butts — Mon, 23 Apr 2007 01:35:55 GMT

flowers are beautiful flyfishing is fun

ready for the city

Gangi Butts — Mon, 12 Mar 2007 16:43:10 GMT

(this came to me this morning while walking to school with my breakfast in one hand coffee mug in the other) i yern for the city i miss the lights, i miss the exhaust i want to wait for the goddamn 12 until it arrives take the 14 across the river to my future home or the 15 to my favorite bar to ride my bike down barbur racing the buses and cars but for now i must be here writing 40 pages in my new home full of books hardly pure ecstasy

geodesic domepiece

Gangi Butts — Tue, 20 Feb 2007 18:47:39 GMT

gotta retire from it. shoulders weighted down. too many too little time not enough emotion for all

blissed

Gangi Butts — Wed, 31 Jan 2007 04:52:32 GMT

blissed out hand out the window of the sub-a-ju reggae beats bumping hard and loud i came to this place expecting to find the trees amongst the faces the ferns "bi-om" racoons squirrel the lawns causing raw-kus where they can blissed out holding my smile to the sun when it comes i came to find this place

divorce yourself

Gangi Butts — Sun, 28 Jan 2007 06:32:35 GMT

divorore yourself from your feelings and all that you have known before enter into the realm of the uncertainty the new thoughts are on the forefront of unconsciousness

no wicked heart can test me no matter how dey try..

Gangi Butts — Tue, 09 Jan 2007 21:55:37 GMT

I know Jah-Jah bless me, no wicked heart can test me, no matter how dey try. Oh I know Jah maninfest me and my fans a regress me nah ga make di river run dry. jah bless me-jah cure

happy new year

Gangi Butts — Tue, 02 Jan 2007 20:56:25 GMT

happy new year.\ in norcal right now spent nye all over the place in sf: fox tower, embarcadero, double dutch in the mission, transfer, haight ashbury, sparky's...all night extravaganza..way too much fun... now working on a project on green space creation in PDX! (picture from september)

what are these anyway?

Gangi Butts — Fri, 27 Oct 2006 07:33:20 GMT

"Popular opinions, on subjects not palpable to sense, are often true, but seldom or never the whole truth. They are a part of the truth, sometimes a greater, sometimes a smaller part, but exaggerated, distorted, and disjointed from the truths, bursting the bonds which kept them down, and either seeking reconciliation with the truth contained in the common opinion, or fronting it as enemies, and setting themselves up, with similar exclusiveness, as the whole truth." -John Stuart Mill, On Liberty

groundation what

Gangi Butts — Thu, 19 Oct 2006 19:39:21 GMT

got grounded by groundation can think eat sleep a whole lot better...my head hurts from all the rico g&ts