I am in somewhat of an insatiable period..... Nothing seems to fill or satisfy. I am sensing something enormous is about to engulf my life and I find myself periodically grasping at invisible ropes to hang onto, wrap around my body to keep me stationary. Fear, anxiety and pure unadulterated pleasure is around the corner and not being able to control it is overwhelming me. Breathe, I need to breathe better. Slow down and listen, stop talking and be.
Friday's Neuro-science conference is making me a bit nutty I guess. Perhaps brain and neuro scpecialist's won't know if my mind is slightly altered to calm my nerves.... Since all they want is my DNA, some questions answered on being a person living with ALS, a little smoke before hand couldn't hurt!? I love not having a job anymore for the simple fact "random drug tests".... I would so have to go to rehab for weed.
That's sad. Just make it legal already. I've never seen an assassin pot head!
So apparently, I am going to be a huge science project for my neurological dr's ... Harvard's main man has asked me to be part of his lecture. I am so genetically unique that my DNA may actually lead to a real break through in research. Who knew???? I hope I can at least give insight, and hopefully one day my daughter, who shares my genetic make-up will be able to live without the uncertainty of having a child with Down Syndrome and potentially develop ALS.
I wanted to be famous. This just seems a bit extreme way to get it! Breathe, live, love, laugh and remember why I need to breathe, to live, to love, to laugh really hard.