To say that this is a transitional time for me would be an understatement. I forgot what it was like to be a whole person about 10 years ago and I've been a ghost since. When you truly know what your potential is, and you see how far away you're going from it the hollowness creeps in more and more and if you choose to fill that hollowness in with any unconsciousness it's a one way St away from what used to be and what could be. Soooo, dealing with a too long-lasting state of depression over the death of my best friend and a waking realization of all of my past failures hitting me square in the heart and unable to deny in this play of life that I had the main part the starring role and I walked off stage more than once Prima Donna style and life went on without me, in all honesty what I've been manifesting interest wise is a 10th of how I know life will be very soon, so it's not much but here it is (wow one hell of a disclaimer): hiking and absorbing being in nature, canoeing, letting loose at what ever music venues seeked out, reading good books, tending to my garden, yoga and exercise, music in the fullest sense of the word (can't make it (yet) but love it so much), my loving cat with nine lives Ellie, starting up my new business, reconnecting with so many beautiful people that I locked out as I couldn't stand the idea of anybody else suffering with me unless they really wanted to feel me and thus suffer, photography, writing, boxing/martial arts, learning to play guitar, making things with my hands, -- -- -- -- -- just trying to break out of this jail cell I locked myself away in for so long and see that glorious light 1 more time only this time not to deny it later on in a time of tribulation.