January 4, 2009
Vega is the perfect example of the power of femininity and how femininity is superior to the male ego. When I see her life displayed in her Tribe pages and the beauty of her dancing through pictures, and her feminine mystique, my desires to be a woman are uncontrollable. She is the perfect example of why 21 years ago, I began to live a daily life of humiliation by coming out of the closet and announcing to the whole world, "I am a man who wants to be a woman, so for the rest of my life, I am going to live, dress, and act as a woman."
Despite being sexually attracted to women, I can't help but want to be a woman. Women are so cool, so beautiful, so confident in the superiority, so feminine, so spiritual, who would not want to be a woman. Vega, seems to be an exmaple of all these qualities.
I live, dress, and act as a woman, despite wanting to be with women. I totally pass as a woman until I open my mouth and speak and everybody knows I am man living as a woman at that point. Once women realize I am a man, the general reaction is laughter at the delight of my humiliation and their supriority. They know that they are so superiou, that men like myself are willing to humiliate themselves daily just to be like them.
The humiliation is ten fold when I am sexually attracted to a woman and she laughs at me once she realizes I am a man. She will even scorn me if the realization that I am a man comes out while I am hitting on her. There is nothing more humiliating than to o have a woman you are sexually attracted to reject you by telling you, "No chance in hell, would I go out with you. I prefer men, not sissie who live as a women."
Despite being humiliated like this daily, I would not change a thing about my life as I would much rather have the world view me a sissy striving to achieve the femininity that Vega has perfected, than to live as a man. It doesn't make sense, but that is just the power that women have over men.
Jewels, aka Cissy
