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SICK....

   Sat, January 19, 2008 - 9:02 AM
I've been sick now for a few days... closer to a week and a half. First it was the stomach flu.. now its the fever and night sweats. don't feel goood about it. I'm downrigt scared about what my t-cells are doing... I 've beeen doing everything right, no drinking, no drugs, I have been stressed and not eating well.. that may have added to it. Also lateley (since X-mas) I have been supporting an 80 yearold heartpatient who had flown back home after twelve years to get post cardiac treatment from a heart surgery that he had undergone in Honduras. He lost so much blood and refused the transfusion, because of an infection that was running rampant there. In fact his hospital roomie ended up with such so he adimately refused honduran blood. Mr. Joe would have been stuck out in the cold on X-mas, because his travel agent screwed him over on his plane tickets, once he arrived domestically all of his plane tickets were void and null. Mr Joe spent the rest of his money and then some, just to get to new orleans so he could recieve care from one of the backbones of care for our aging veterans of forein affairs... which should be the VA... That is if the VA here was up and running... or at least functional. They kept trying to get him into a drug and alcohol program, for those were the only immediate available channels, and when he was admitted to that program then they would put him in the hospital to evaluate his condition... he refused... he got confused... he admits hes old and does'nt think too fast. Unfortunately it has worked against him. I finally got him an apartment thursday, after I've put out almost 450$ I then paid another two hundred to get him his own apartment. I haven't been taking care of my self, cause i've been taking care of everyone else.



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Sat, January 19, 2008 - 11:13 AM
Stop right there
ok, first of all your fear needs to go out the window. choosing a picture to go with this blog that depicts death does not help you.
know that you are alive and well and it's easy for you to be healthy and to take care of yourself! Go to the health food store and buy some immune support and take as much as you can every day for two weeks. also if you can find some local bee pollen then that is awesome immune support as well as COMPLETE nutrition! all the vitamins and nutrients you need can be found in bee pollen.
thirdly, think about how much you DO want to live. encourage and visualize your t-cells rapidly multiplying and being strong and un-effected. Meditate on golden-white light filling your body and healing any and all dying cells in your body that need not be dying. See yourself living strong with vitality and joy. The body is resilient and so is your mind. You have a lot of work to do here, brother, and living in fear will only make your trip shorter.
You are an incredible person to be so caring and sympathetic to those around you, even your own blog about your illness was taken over by this other man's story. So, if you are worried about yourself then put yourself first! The man will get his blood, his care and his life, if he truly wants. Right now, your priority is remaining strong and full of light or else you will be no help to the next person that comes along and needs it. ok???
I love you, HEAL!!
I'm praying for you,
Erin
Sun, January 20, 2008 - 5:44 AM
I know it's easier to try to fix things for others than it is to deal with the overwhelming odds that are acting against you. But if you can't heal, you can't help anyone.

Who's taking care of Kidder?
Tue, January 22, 2008 - 2:30 PM
Yes i agree with both that posted!! Couldn't of put it any better way then that. Please don't forget to take care of yourself either. I agree a 100 % with your friend Erin that posted to you. By the way I had a dream about you.. It was so strange.........................................