Depression

Okay, this isn't like my usual depression; this time it's like nothing is going right, and it pisses me off. My friend couldn't forgive me for what I said when all this SHIT happened.Another of my former friends decided he was going to straight up blow me off, for one. I have been listening to Evanescence for thr the past couple of days. For those of you who don't know who Evanescence is, they are a band that singsd usually deppressing songs. To top all of this off, I don't have a boyfriend to comfort me when I need it the most. I begin to doubt that anyone will love me for who I am. Sure, I've had plenty of sex offers, but it doesn't compare to someone asking you out on a date... I'm forced to fake a smile in front of everyone, when right now I am crying. God damn it! Why can't anything go right?! No, I WON'T go down this path again! I won't!

I'm Sorry

I've been such a horrible person! I told my friend I hated people and she took it personally! I'm so sorry!!

What We’re Fighting For

I walked in the forest the other day
A vision of light intercepted my pathway
Never did see that vision again
No, not ever again

The shadow of doubt begins to come in
I accepted it with open arms
Yes, with open arms and heart
I figured it couldn’t do any harm

I daydream of things never revealed
Equality for all of mankind
Martin Luther made his speech
To fast-forward and not to rewind

The shadow of doubt begins to come in
I accepted it with open arms
Yes, with open arms and heart
I figured it couldn’t do any harm

Hell will freeze over before people have rights
Well, Satan, get your coat
Because we’re bring winter to Hell
And we’re gone do very well

The shadow of doubt begins to come in
I accepted it with open arms
Yes, with open arms and heart
I figured it couldn’t do any harm

Rain drips down on these poor souls
We’ve been fighting now for days
Won’t give up though
It’s not within our way

Finally, the Oasis of God itself
Can you hear the wind?
Can you feel the sun?
Can you taste the pure water?
Can’t you smell the flowers and Earth?
This is what we fight for

Vanity and Depth

My philosophy is: if they fuck you over, fuck 'em back. Nut the question is: iare any of you worth it? I may be pushing people away bay saying that, but I've honestly had ENOUGH. Enough with the lies, enough with the drama, enough with the vanity, enough with all of it! So guys, if you are reading this, keep that in ming if you want a relationship with me.