Okay, this isn't like my usual depression; this time it's like nothing is going right, and it pisses me off. My friend couldn't forgive me for what I said when all this SHIT happened.Another of my former friends decided he was going to straight up blow me off, for one. I have been listening to Evanescence for thr the past couple of days. For those of you who don't know who Evanescence is, they are a band that singsd usually deppressing songs. To top all of this off, I don't have a boyfriend to comfort me when I need it the most. I begin to doubt that anyone will love me for who I am. Sure, I've had plenty of sex offers, but it doesn't compare to someone asking you out on a date... I'm forced to fake a smile in front of everyone, when right now I am crying. God damn it! Why can't anything go right?! No, I WON'T go down this path again! I won't!