I didn't know I was submissive until (not to long ago) when I started reading about d/s and SM. But when I look back on things I liked done to me, and how I acted around men, I've always been that way. But now I can understand my feelings and needs and do not longer think that they are "not normal" … and I'm keen to act them out and want to make it happen for real.

I wasn't an obedient child because I waited to be put across my father's knee. I played only with older children who told me what I have to do. While jogging through the forest I always had desires and fantasies of being raped and used for men's pleasure a.s.o. .

And I've always been attracted to men a lot older than me (being in the age of my father or grandfather). I love follow their strict orders acting how they want me to act and pleasing them exactly in the kind they love it most. I like it particularly if it makes me anxiety and is uncomfortable and a little bit horrible and painful for me. Being raped and used purely as a toy for fucking, sucking and being available for perverse services became one of my favorite masturbatory fantasies since I have red the books of "Marquise de Sade" and I always get exited and wet immediately by having this dream. I also like tenderness and caress a lot. But "normal" sex and sex with men in my age bores me very much.

I have to say quite honestly, that I am not much experienced in BDSM because I did not find any suitable partner, which could give me what I miss. But now I can not hide my secrets any further. I'm keen to act them out and want to make it happen for real. I can't help it.

Oh yes, I want to enjoy my sexuality and to experience more than I ever dreamed. I want to explore all those kinky taboos that I have only read and heard about. And I want to experience great sex - be taken to eruption - primeval orgasms - again and again.

I have to say quite honestly, that I am not much experienced in BDSM because I did not find any suitable partner, which could give me what I miss. But now I can not hide my secrets any further. I'm keen to act them out and want to make it happen for real. I can't help it.

My serious lifestyle decision is, to find the right D/s-Mistress & Master BI-couple who takes me where I've already been in my secret dreams. A couple who have a genteel, classy and elegantly style of living with clear roles of server and served. Not just sexual D/s and BDSM but domestic discipline and training in whole home-life. Who require a courteously, respectfully and well service or discipline their housekeeper if she is disobedient or fails.