My dad always says, if you try to catch 2 rabbits, you'll end up losing them both.

He means that I should try to focus in my life and not pursue so many things at once. I can see his perspective on this but no matter how much I try, I can’t seem to pair down the things in my life that seem important.

I'm a person of many loves, many passions, many pursuits. I can't just drop one for the sake of "focus".

So here's where I am today, and let me tell you that it goes in about a million different directions.

1. I work a full time job doing interior design. Right now, between only 2 people, we're designing 3 condominium complexes, an office building, and several homes as well. So that means a lot of STUFF for me to do. Lots and lots of drawing, shopping and other stuff that I won't go into here. I actually love my job but there's a lot of it. It's a lot and it's nonstop all day so that when I get home, it takes me some serious motivation to roll off the sofa and get anything else done with my day. -This is my only paying gig for now so I can't very well drop this one.

2. I am working on my own clothing line. I'm getting it manufactured outside of the country in Bali, but I'm designing it here so there's a lot of going back and forth with it. Frequently these days you can find me at home, sitting amongst needles and thread and fabric littered all over my tiny living room floor. Besides the sewing, there’s also a lot of fabric and materials sourcing, money transfers, a lot of e mails and photos back and forth- Just a lot of going back and forth. I love the creativity I get to express through this line and I would love to pursue it full time and develop more designs but that would probably mean that I would have to move to Bali for a while to solidify my designs. (which I would love to do but don't have the balls to quit my day job (which I also love) to do it)

3. I am working on a food product. It's something totally original, something tasty and good for you that I think would just fly off the shelves. This also requires a good amount of time. Frequently most mornings, you can find me weighing, then tasting my umpteenth version of this product and taking detailed notes about it. So not only is my house a sewing sweatshop, it’s also turned into a food laboratory!
And even after I’ve created the perfect version of this product, I still have to get it professionally packaged, labeled and sent off for lab work so that I can get accurate nutritional information.

Then provided that all of this works out and I actually have a product that I'm proud of, then I have to do the work to get appointments with people and SELL IT so that I can actually get it on the supermarket shelves.

4. I am looking for a home. And if you already have one, you know that searching for one is a part time job in and of itself. It's definitely not something that you want to get into without having done your homework. So I'm doing a lot of research for that as well, reading a lot of books, going to a lot of open houses, researching home auctions - that sort of thing. Right now there is a mountain of real estate books that is just piling up on my coffee table. I’m actually reading through them pretty quickly though. And I think that I have probably driven my car through the maze of every single street, drive and avenue in the Lake Balboa / Van Nuys area at least three times over. (By the way, if you know of a good real estate agent for this area, please for the sake of my carbon emissions, let a girl know!)

5. I'm helping Roxy (my sister) design her new office space. And thankfully, this isn't taking a whole lot of time yet but I know how the design process goes so I know that eventually it will.

Am I crazy? Am I totally nuts? I feel like I have about a million balls in the air and I'm juggling them all while riding a unicycle and playing the tuba.

At the same time, all of these things seem extremely important and also very time sensitive. My products are all geared towards the summer season so I feel that I need to get them out as soon as I can.

Not only that but most of this stuff is totally new to me. I’ve never developed a clothing line before. I’ve never developed a food product before. I’ve never bought a house before. So I’m having to cut my teeth learning about all of these things as I go along.

And so, little ol’ me is just chugging along and pushing hard to get these things done and learning as I go. And I’m praying to God that some, if not all of this stuff works out. I want these things to get big, huge, bigger than I would have even dared to imagine. I want these things to change my life in a dramatic way. But starting all of these things and going through them day by day, it’s a little bit scary. I’m investing lots of time and money into all of these things. But the scariest part of all this stuff is that it’s not just about money for me. I mean, some of it is, of course. But for me, it’s more about my creation. I just want to see that I can do something that I totally conceived of on my own and take this baby idea and see it actually succeed, you know?

So all of these things, on all sorts of levels, seem very important for me to get done, and hence, my not being able to let any of them go.

Anyways, so that’s where I’m at these days. If you haven’t seen me or Mike around lately, believe me, it’s not because we don’t love you or don’t really really want to spend time with you it’s just that this is where we are right now.

Aaack! all of it's great but it's just that there's ALL of it.

Send us some good Ju Ju ifyou can. I'm hoping to defy the odds and catch 2 rabbits at once.
Hope to see everyone sooner than later.

Luvs - me