I attract fetishists. Before you feel sorry for me, let me say that I really like most of the fetishists I've met; they're often very interesting, dedicated and grounded people -- or at least the ones who are happy with themselves and their fetishes are.
I've met a lot of closet fetishists and I usually find that they are lovely, normal men and women who spend far too much time being anxious
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Sexual Integration and Free Association
I've been practicing polyamory for three years now. Before that, I didn't know the word, but the concept has been a part of me for as long as I've been aware of relationships. When my husband and I "discovered" poly and yearned towards it the way a twelve year old girl yearns towards the sensual beauty and freedom of horseback riding, we took things pretty slowly.
We started our journey but
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Ah the joys of homemade porn! It's all the rage right now, audio-visual technology being what it is, but still, there's porn and then there's mmm... porn!
I spent most of yesterday evening unloading three dozen homemade videos off my hard drive onto dvd's (nah, I don't sell them, I just have very visually oriented lovers who inspire me to acts of technological and gymnastic creativity) and
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What creates connection? Is it physical proximity, desire, language? Are we are already inherently connected, or do we exist as separate entities, unknowable except in pieces and moments? How does our unique experience of relationships affect our perception of connection, and our need?
I believe connection is easy, and we avoid it out of fear, as a finger avoids an open flame. The pain of being
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I have found myself, rather to my surprise, dealing with circumstantial celibacy. To be more blunt -- I don't have any sex partners living nearby at the moment, and being a fairly lusty lady, it's been an interesting struggle to reconcile my tremendous desire to sexually connect while dealing with the lack of immediate opportunity.
I'm no stranger to sexual dry spells; in fact, I went through
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Unabashedly shameless seeker after Love and Selfhood works endlessly to capture essence of bliss while falling down repeatedly only to get up and attempt further leapings into the Unknown. Ideas spark my fire, conversation is my food, sex keeps me sane and love is, of course, oxygen.
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