Da Burn

now that everyone has almost gathered their bearings, me included. I figured I would write about my burn experience. I expected the burn to be exciting and emotional and a huge party however, it was much much more. The love and support from everyone that I recieved was almost overwelming at times. All of you were so special to me and if it weren't for people like you The burn wouldn't be possible. Everyone who I know and love deserve special thanks for my first burn. I don't want to run the risk of leaving anyone out so I would like to give a special thanks to lyn for giving me the greatest playa gift one could offer. The gift of tears. It has been so long since I have cried and I needed to open the dump valves and let my self go. When the temple burned it wiped my slate. I didn't think I had anything that I wanted to burn (me being pyro and all) but she made me look deep inside myself and let it go. The rest of you gave me the support to move on, past that point and I was literly a new person. You won't know who you are until you let go. I found out more about myself and others in four days then I learned in a lifetime. Maybee it wouldn't work to have black rock city all year round, but it did give me a new found freedom and faith in humanity.
All my life I have been alone. Nobody ever understood who I was, my wit, my intelect, or my art. My freinds liked me because I was amusing and they wanted to see what I would do next. for them I was a class clown or a shoulder to cry on but I never realy got that in return, they would just wait till I shut up and then tell me their problems. I thought the marine corps would understand me. band of brother hood and all. but I found myself trying to be something that I wasn't just to fit in. I now know that I am not alone. Nice guys may finish last but they end up at the burn. All the shit that I have been holding back, all the love that I couldn't show because of "male masculinity" has all suddenly become a thing of the past. Fuck it! I like to hug, I like people to respect me and not rag on me for dumb shit, and I like being pyro! Pyro is my personality, it is more then just a name. Bless you all for being who you are and thank you for letting me be who I realy am.
ashes to ashes dust to dust sep 2 2006 the man went up in flames
Pyro

The mix up

This is quite entertaining. I no-doubt had a wounderful time at smokeblowers party. There was jaws in the pool and naked fire-spinning and GREAT people. So There I was sitting next to the pool, chating with smokeblower when my phone rings. So I answer. Now it could have been the artificial stimulants or bad reception, whatever the case may be the conversation was broken up. The guy on the other line said his name was ta...... I said "who" ta...... "taz"? "hey taz what's going on" he replies "nothing much, what are you up to" I say " nothing just hanging out at smokeblowers having a fantastic time" "who" he replies "smoke blowers house, let me give the phone to him so he can give you directions"
About an hour later I am stark naked in the pool talking to laura when ta..... shows up. However it is not taz the fire marshal, but tad my old marine corps buddy. Imagine my surprise. So I was caught off gaurd for a moment and then I told him to hold on while I put some clothes on. I started to get dressed when I heard a giant splash as my buddy tad and his inicent comrad erin where launched into the pool fully clothed. "whoops" said one of the guests (not saying name) " I thought they where perverts who snuck into the party"
It was at that moment that I explained the inner workings of our lovely comunity. I told them about burning man, alma, elysium and all the wounderful times that I have had with you all. I then declared that if the world was going to end, these are the people who I would like to be with. In about a half an hour they where naked in the pool, drinking and mingling and I even tought them a little fire fun. They had a blast. I am hoping on getting them into the tribe... they will have to stick to alcohol, damn Marine corps, but lets hope to see them soon. I love you all, thanks!
Pyro aka Steve

oh yeah

Alysium was such a fun time even with the temperature at a shocking 109. I wounder if they will ever get that pool cleaned.