now that everyone has almost gathered their bearings, me included. I figured I would write about my burn experience. I expected the burn to be exciting and emotional and a huge party however, it was much much more. The love and support from everyone that I recieved was almost overwelming at times. All of you were so special to me and if it weren't for people like you The burn wouldn't be possible. Everyone who I know and love deserve special thanks for my first burn. I don't want to run the risk of leaving anyone out so I would like to give a special thanks to lyn for giving me the greatest playa gift one could offer. The gift of tears. It has been so long since I have cried and I needed to open the dump valves and let my self go. When the temple burned it wiped my slate. I didn't think I had anything that I wanted to burn (me being pyro and all) but she made me look deep inside myself and let it go. The rest of you gave me the support to move on, past that point and I was literly a new person. You won't know who you are until you let go. I found out more about myself and others in four days then I learned in a lifetime. Maybee it wouldn't work to have black rock city all year round, but it did give me a new found freedom and faith in humanity.
All my life I have been alone. Nobody ever understood who I was, my wit, my intelect, or my art. My freinds liked me because I was amusing and they wanted to see what I would do next. for them I was a class clown or a shoulder to cry on but I never realy got that in return, they would just wait till I shut up and then tell me their problems. I thought the marine corps would understand me. band of brother hood and all. but I found myself trying to be something that I wasn't just to fit in. I now know that I am not alone. Nice guys may finish last but they end up at the burn. All the shit that I have been holding back, all the love that I couldn't show because of "male masculinity" has all suddenly become a thing of the past. Fuck it! I like to hug, I like people to respect me and not rag on me for dumb shit, and I like being pyro! Pyro is my personality, it is more then just a name. Bless you all for being who you are and thank you for letting me be who I realy am.
ashes to ashes dust to dust sep 2 2006 the man went up in flames
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