I am suspended on a sea of love…

I did what I wanted to last night, which was to be alone with my own whims and desires… and then slept in this morning… and I was blessed with the most amazing dreamstate rebalancing… wow! … feeling the support and love of allies all around… seen and unseen beings… at first my body felt like it was floating on bubbles of air like a waterbug… and I felt through a whole cast of characters… each one another buoyant bubble… each beloved offering me so much pure love… each in his or her own unique way…. how effortlessly supported I felt…

There was an interesting tension of staying afloat… the balance point between water surface and this body and gravity and air… I was suspended… almost despite my weight and density… it wasn’t quite womblike… I wasn’t surrounded and embraced… but the tension made it even more miraculous… I was floating when by all rights I should be sinking… no visible means of support… yet here I am, floating thru this world… buoyed by grace…

After a leisurely roll call… bringing each beloved to mind and then heart… sinking into gratitude… releasing my silly efforts to believe I’m separate… another process began, a more physical inventory, all through my body… and then I began to feel more like a baby in the womb… and I relaxed into the sensation of taking in and giving out in equal measure, unashamedly, almost unconsciously… that complete let-go… and I felt my body opening… all the holding release… inside and outside equalized pressure… and still I was suspended… and loved…

I’ve been wondering how to proceed with work this summer… how to dance with money and society… how to share my gifts… and stay afloat…

Now I have new reference points for what that feels like internally… and reminders for how to stay afloat… without pushing or pulling or efforting… the more I love and release, the more bubbles gather around me…

Love floats… love is floating “me”… what a marvelous dream we are in… what I breathe out, floats you… what you breathe out, floats me… this effortless sharing of essence and gifts… suspends us in the dream of time and space… ahhhhhhh… thank you all… for loving me however you do… for passing on gifts that you don’t even know have been received…