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oh yeah.. and another thing..

wendy — Sun, 17 Aug 2008 17:36:27 GMT

why are people so serious all the time.. espically the "grown ups".. why cant we be silly sometimes..use our imaginations and pretend for a minute.. maybe i just never really grew up.. maybe i dont want to really grow up.. this is where i want to live.. i will look at this picture and imagine how i would decorate it.. and how cool it would be. to live some where like this

whatever

wendy — Sun, 17 Aug 2008 17:30:13 GMT

what ever happened to the magical summers past. when we were young we couldnt wait until summer vacation.. staying outside well past dark.. running wild through the fields. summer has a special smell and feel.. then as we got older it was bonfires on the beach, cookouts, campouts, suntan lotion.. and older yet it was picnics with friends and kids. pitching horseshoes, gardening, mowing the lawn, and the smell of sheets hung to dry on hot nights.. and now.. it might as well be winter all year long.. its lost its magic

friday the 1st

wendy — Sat, 02 Aug 2008 03:16:30 GMT

man the grandkids wore me out today.. but it was fun. we went to the playground and then we went for ice cream.. then i came home and went to see robert randolph and the family band.. they were awesome.. so much energy. the only thing that sucked about it was i went by myself. but oh well such is life.. but as i looked around the crowd i notices a few things. its no wonder i cant find any clothes to fit me.. all the other fat girls in lockport have them.. men seem to be getting shorter,there are alot of short men in this town.. and the gene pool is pretty mucked up..not that i need any of them for reproduction.. i already made my contribution to society.. im just lonely for a warm body..

another day..

wendy — Sat, 19 Jul 2008 19:15:21 GMT

its hot here today.. and i dont have air conditioning.. but thats ok.. its good to sweat..it cleans the pores and it makes taking a shower so much better. yeah sure.. went to see nazarath last nite.. not a bad show.. saw some faces from my old bar room days. it was kinda hard since its put on by molsons and there are people walking around selling beer.. im taking a break from cleaning the house.. dan is coming over later to put together the computer desk he gave me.. we see each other as much as we did when we were a couple . but id rather have him as a friend than not have him around at all.. im lonely for someone to cuddle with though.. i was looking around at the concert last night.. alot of fat girls so i dont feel so bad..

what the heck

wendy — Sun, 29 Jun 2008 20:42:53 GMT

you know its hard to be single and 50 now days..

first full day of summer.

wendy — Sat, 21 Jun 2008 14:10:38 GMT

welcome summer its about time, but then on the other hand before you know it will be ending. sometimes i miss drinking and partying.. id just like to take a break from having to think for a while.. to escape from the constant drama that surrounds me.. so i just withdraw into myself and read a book and take an adventure.. and thats not a bad thing.. i can go anywhere and do anything and be anyone..the last of the birthday parties for a while , today and tomorrow.. i think im gonna start collecting up stuff to go camping.. im not sitting in this apartment the whole summer again.. i can read laying out in the woods too..

june15

wendy — Sun, 15 Jun 2008 13:25:19 GMT

not quite 9:30 in the morning and im bored already.. it really sucks that gas is so expensive i cant go anywhere. i would like to go meet my cousins in salamanca. or just take off and go to north carolina for a visit. but on the lighter side.. woo hoo i lost 7 pounds..

almost summer

wendy — Tue, 10 Jun 2008 00:01:45 GMT

i have noticed that there doesnt seem to be a gradual change of the seasons. one day i t was spring.. now its summer.. almost 90 the last couple of days.. if this is a taste of summer its gonna be interesting with out an air conditioner

omg its june already

wendy — Sun, 01 Jun 2008 13:57:41 GMT

i cant believe its june already.. time for hurricane season. and the way tornados have been who can guess whats gonna happen in the ocean. woo hoo. ive had 150 views of my profile.. i wonder who all those people are. all the little old ladies are fussing about garden space on the other side of the building.. if they dont stop were not gonna be able to plant anything out there.. im glad im on the other side where no one cares what i do because we dont have a spicket over hear and i will carry my water in the wagon to water my flowers. besides mine are actually where i can see them when i sit in the window and sew

dieting

wendy — Fri, 23 May 2008 21:40:32 GMT

i just figured out how come im having such a hard time with losing weight.. i dont want to give up my last friendship.. food.. it never denies me.. and its always there for me.. i already gave up drinking and smoking cigarettes and weed.. and those have social aspects to them.. and so does eating.. so i gave up the the other social habits i had.. i dont want to give up the last one.. then i will be so lonely.. well we all know you cant give up eating.. but its like you can only have a little. its like having only a little hug.. or a little kiss.. or a little love.. but you dont get enought to fill that part of you that need it so much.. its like only putting a quart of gas in your car and having to make it take you as far as possible.. if i have to go with out something i want to do it all the way. im learning to live with out hugs and kisses and other intimate things.. hey but then if i can learn to just go with out food then i wont have to worry about going with out the other things will i.

rejection

wendy — Fri, 23 May 2008 18:39:00 GMT

some people handle rejection well some dont.. im one that doesnt.. i dont seek revenge.. i turn it toward myself and ask what did i do to make you not want me anymore.. you would think with my history i would be used to it..sometimes it cant be gotten past.. it makes one feel so lonely. lonely, now there is a concept im very familiar with

hmmmmmm

wendy — Sun, 11 May 2008 12:19:39 GMT

happy freaking mothers day... ba humbug i say..

busy weekend

wendy — Fri, 09 May 2008 23:45:59 GMT

colbys birthday is this weekend..hes 7 already.. i was one of the first ones to see him...well his head sticking out anyway.. seeing a baby being born is supposed to be so wonderful.. worst thing i ever saw in my life and i was brought up on a farm.. scared me for life.. im not having any more babies.. lol.. anyhoo.. i get to make the cake.. with good yummy chocolate frosting. and its mothers day.. that doesnt mean a dang thing to me.

run

wendy — Sun, 04 May 2008 21:58:26 GMT

im so ready to be on the go again.. i hate it here.. im tired of being the one to call when something is wanted.. can you babysit. i need a ride.. can you sew this ... i want to go back to flordia. marilyn needs me.. she has problems and needs someone to help her out.. maybe im just lonely . i like being alone i dont do lonely well.. it breaks my heart to see the way m&s dont participate in the kids lives.. i dont want to be a lonely alone old woman..

well another friday night

wendy — Sat, 03 May 2008 02:15:48 GMT

another boring friday nite and of course there is nothing on tv. I am about at the end of my celibacy ( man how come there is no spell check on here) rope.. thats all i think about lately.. i guess i have to work on my hobbies more.. maybe ill go to bed and read..

what i hear

wendy — Sun, 27 Apr 2008 23:11:54 GMT

with the windows open in the livingroom and the weather being nice i can hear the sound of baseballs being hit by metal bats in the park on the other side of the houses.. that metallic ping and the sounds of kids yelling tell me its springtime in lockport once again

spring time

wendy — Fri, 25 Apr 2008 12:41:19 GMT

man i must need to go out side more often..i went out the other day and everything was green.. it seems that it was just winter out.. here is one to mark on the calander.. everyone is getting along for a change..shhhhhhhhh.... i might jinx it.. ive been doing spring cleaning and took 3 boxes to the salvation army... everyone thats happy its spring say HEEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

another friday night

wendy — Fri, 28 Mar 2008 21:10:12 GMT

here we go again.. another weekend alone. if i can stay off the computer maybe ill get some work done.. i want to get the bags i have cut out sewn and i need a dust ruffle.. i woke up this morning and there was a few inches of snow.. dang i said its supposed to be spring.. oh well.. such is life in a northern town.. i miss key west..

government

wendy — Tue, 25 Mar 2008 14:31:23 GMT

I am so way over spitzer being linked to hookers.. big deal..awwwww his poor wife.. shes probably just pissed that he got caught and got her mixed up in his crap. Sometimes women dont care what the hubbys doing as long as it doesnt interfer with their good life.. and now they are putting paterson under the microscope.. gee whiz. i want to know who it is that is putting these people on these pedestals.. why do the american people still carry on with the puritain way of thinking.. and are the ones making the most noise with out skeletons.. presidents, governors, congress,sportstars, moviestars, etc.. they are only regular people too.. unless they are doing something illegal who really cares what happened in the past.. so what if our now governor smoked pot 30 years ago.. come on who didnt smoke pot at least once or twice in the 70's..are we playing the big brother is watching game..

monday morning

wendy — Mon, 24 Mar 2008 13:43:42 GMT

so i made it through the let down of another stupid holiday . i remember family dinners at holidays. now that the family is all over the place its not the same.. and even the family that is around dont get together ..but its past and there is nothing really until thanksgiving.. woo hoo.. well nathans birthday is in june..

sometimes

wendy — Mon, 24 Mar 2008 00:14:48 GMT

sometimes it would just be nice to have some one to talk to. like right now.. i feel... lonely, not good enough .. not good enough.. thats what has me right now.. i wasnt a good enough mother or wife or daughter and as of recently girlfriend.. sometimes (like right now) i wish there was a friendly giant that would come and wrap me in a blankie and rock me in the rocking chair and tell me everything is gonna be alright..with all the people on the world wide web there is no one to talk to

kill the wabbit..

wendy — Sun, 23 Mar 2008 17:27:47 GMT

i dont want to eat any more candy... i dont want to try anymore weird color jellybeans.. i did make sure the kids had fruit and protien for breakfast then i let them eat all the candy they wanted.. isnt that what a good grandma is supposed to do..

adventures in babysitting..

wendy — Sat, 22 Mar 2008 20:31:38 GMT

im babysitting the grandkids today.. couldnt wait until their parents left.. man they get on my nerves. the house is straightened up and i only have one more load of laundry to do. when they come home from grocery shopping we are coloring easter eggs.. oh boy what fun.. then we'll have some dinner and they will leave again for the evening.. its nice that they have sattilite tv and all the channels.. put the kids to bed and i can sit back and watch tv.. well i need to go fold and look and see where the kids are.. they wanted to go out side and play.. do you think grandma would tell them no..

grrrrrrrr.. easter weekend

wendy — Fri, 21 Mar 2008 17:03:04 GMT

well its supposed to be spring but it was snowing when i got up this morning. thats life in wny.. my sholder hurts, the pt guy said to stop doing what i do to make it hurt.. yeah sure.. stop being on the computer, stop sewing , stop stop stop.. ill just do more stretches.. take more breaks, and put the hot rice bag on it.. gonna go babysit the grandkids tomorrow.. maybe after they go to bed ill hide everything from their easter baskets. make them work for the goodies. well gonna go have a pb&j for lunch. maybe put on another pot of coffee.. HAPPY FREAKING EASTER EVERYONE!!!!!!

how come

wendy — Tue, 18 Mar 2008 02:26:34 GMT

how come things have to be so hard sometimes.. my boyfriend recently broke up with me.. he said he didnt see himself being with me forever.. isnt that something..( after a year and a half ) thats cool.. i hope he finds the one he wants to be with forever.. Is anything besides death and taxes and plastic cups forever????????