Hall Way

I stand in the hallway
Doors every where but I am trapped
Lost not knowing what to do, which way to go
I start screaming
My lungs begin to decay as the shadow emerges
Afraid of the dark I am bound to run
The light grows dim the air thin
Scared to turn the knobs
I run blindly into the madness
Reflecting in front of me I beg for help
Only to realize its me
Copying every movement hypnotized within her eyes
I am looking into her heart watching, seeing how sinister I have become
Death playing games, tortured girls stand glazed to shame
Mimicking foolish words, tossing feeling aside
Veins withered, cloths torn
Joining them would be so much fun
Until realize I am staring back at myself
Coldness arches upon my spine
With this slight tingle on my neck the hairs raise
My arms growing icy
I am losing, thoughts of giving in
Throwing back the life preserver
I can’t go on no more
The light is gone fading away as do my pulse
This is goodbye…

The door knob slowly turns as the door opens.

Hey

Wow it's been long time since i have been on. Well I have written some more poems. They are not that bad. Every thing here is going ok. My little sis is having a baby. My dad is sick again. My firnd is dieying. And I think i am doing ok.

Hey

hey sorry I haven't been on in a while. I have been just floating in and out of things going on in my life. Been trying to figure out what to do with all of things. I have been trying to figure out if I should go back on my meds because my moods have been getting worse again. It is like I am losing myself amoungst myself again. Like I really don't know who I am any more or what thing/ person I am. I feel as if I am broken even more cracking around the edges more and more as each day begins and ends. I keep losing who I was/ am every time I turn around to look in the warped mirror of life. Bouncing from one emotion to another from one personality to another hopeless disater, Leading my self further away from the light that once was lit within the small coner amoungst my hide away. I never know if this will be the end or begining of self sacrafice. Churing all the dark withered insides outward into total chaos.

Letha

Amor

Armor

Shattering pieces all go together
Falling hopelessly into nothing
I have wronged many people
Including myself
What crown full of tarnish
Of filth of need
Painting a picture of reality as it fades away
Another way to help the conscious survive
Myths eating away at sanity
Reflecting a trail of pitter patter
Dark, lost, cold
Clouds of an everlasting space
The sun sets
Leaving ripples of faint wellness
That everything will be alright
How can a poet find one’s self if fiction
Is what one believes
Black roses never fade
But white promises always die
A crying widow deceived by choice
Choose an ocean crystal clear to the naked eye
What beauty a lost soul carries.

Selma

My husband wants me to stop. He doesn't want me to hurt any more. Last night he told me that. You know how hard it is to stop. Yea I have done it before but once I start again it is like impossible to stop. I know he is worried. I just don't want him to run away. He said to me that he would never run away, but I know deep down that he wants to. What am I to do? Many lost souls gather for the time being because when the time is right a drowing soul will soon give up.

I like this song It is by Joss Stone.

Mind, Body & Soul" > "Daniel" J. Stone, W. Stoker, A. Stone, M. Vaughan

He shares my blood
He holds my soul
Will he ever know, ever know
He's cutting his own skin
He's my brother
Come straight from my mother
He's stronger than he thinks he is
Let him know, let him know

I pray to God
Will He help him?
Does he deserve this?
I don't know
At times he comes across selfish
But he ain't a bad person
This I know

His lies, his cheats, his stealings
Makes me cry till I stop repeat
He's simply lost his mind
Lord, I'm asking you, Lord
Will you help him find it?

Oh, oh
And it's sad
But I will and you'll find a way, oh
I live by that
Each and every day, yeah
Daniel
Won't you listen to the words I sing?
Writing this was harder
Than you'd ever think

You've got a heart
You've got a mind
You got a soul
And your eyes are kind
Your eyes are kind
And your eyes are kind, oh

Daniel
Would you listen to the words I sing?
Writing this was harder
Than you'd ever think .

I listen to this song like over and over again. I think it is pretty and I can relate to this song in many ways.

Enjoy.

Lee

11/20

Why does she have to be like that. Every thankgiving. Gone away in the frikin hospital. I just want to crawl up into a cornner and let all my frustrations out. Worries worries. Worry about everything. What a snow globe just trun upside down, shake, drop rolling falling within a deep madness.

11/15

Why do people think that they have to get colse to you or think they have to help you? It is so f***en stupid. SOme people think that I can just reach my hand out to reach theirs. But I don't want to. My hands bound to my tattered soul, chained within a drak conner, hiding, hiding myself, my scars, my shame, hding from every one that thinks I am a mistake born on this earth to walk around bareing my innocents, my desires, my broken dreams. All I feel is the relife of this cold blade. The numbness tingling through my body. As the life change begans to bleed. I am free again until the scars apear again.

Letha