being a father

so i just saw my kid for the first time yesterday. it was a defining moment in my life. It's amazing to me as loud as life can be and how full of energy it is, it starts with less than a whisper inn the darkness of the womb. i saw my baby's heartbeat as a flashing strobe light on a black and white screen. It's a boy, no, it's a girl, no, IT"S A RAVER!

Now, being born to unexpecting parents, i don't feel like i got the full experience of what a dad should be like. i started a tribe to harvest what i could from the experience of others. weather your a dad or not, tell me your thoughts.
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I finally get it now.

Charles Darwin once said that it wasn't the strongest or even the most intelligent species that will last the test of time, it was the ones quickest to change. Another wise person also said that history doesn't repeat itself, but it rhymes. As I pass the gas station down the street from my apartment, I am reminded of the stories I once heard from my mother and those her age. How 1970s were an uncomfortable preview of times like these. The differences are slight, the results the same.

In 1973 OAPEC (the Arab components of OPEC and then some) put an oil embargo on the US and other countries because they supported Israel in the Yom Kippur War. Then there was the Iranian revolution and the Iran Iraq war. These events were a laboratory for the things that happen today, and although the cloud from this oil fire is black as the soul of OPEC itself, there is a silver lining. It is a higher thought, or perhaps an principal from a bight thinker long ago: for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.

All of this was necessary. I get that now. Would we search for renewable, clean energy if oil and gasoline was so cheap? Would auto makers ramp up plans for the plug in hybrids? More than likely not. Now, I am not talking about you reading this, I am talking about the mass market, the people that have one motivator: money. Since the price of gasoline hit $4.00 a gallon, efficient vehicles like hybrids and motorcycles can't stay in stock, and demand is soaring, surpassing manufacture output. Technology, it would seem, will now prevent the surplus that will follow, as evident by the 1980's oil "glut."

And so, as I pass the man on the corner changing the price at the gas station, I thank God for my scooter and for the truth to come out. Oil is dirty, it's bloody, it's limited, an now, it's expensive. Now it's bad in every witch way possible. I love my scooter. It was one of 5 left in the store which once held almost a hundred. I have adapted. I have changed, and so have others. Perhaps now, the country will too, and then the world. Then all this blood won't be necessary for oil or money. Hopefully, we'll all change, hopefully for the better.

GUESS WHAT

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Baby Poulson

Ladies and gents, Haley Beth Poulson, 7lbs. 3oz. with ten fingers, ten toes, and a two loving parrents.
Mozeltof!

IT'S OKTOBERFEST!!!!!!!!!!!

the most exelent time of the year is here! we went to the german american society in south el cajon (on mollison just north of chase blvd.) it is the most exelent german festival, only costs you 3 bucks to get in and they will fill your stein with exelent german beers. it was sooooooooooo good. there's little to no line for beers and food. YAY!

another round

i am 29. another time around the sun. it's hard to know how to feel. i am one of those guys that wants to be young for a bit longer. i hear the thirties are the new 20s, but to who? i look forward to making new promises to myself and actually keeping them. i want to express myself and do more art. i used to be an "artsy fartsy" kinda guy. i look forward to using my brain and getting my degree. a ton of stuff, shit like that. but as much as i look forward to the destination, it's the journey down these roads that i most desire, because i don't really want to be 30 next year, or 35 or even 100... i wanna be on the road to go there, with all of you.

here's to another year. fuck.
"let's fuckin' rip it up!"