Back from Florida....

Back from Florida...

D has full blown stage 4 colon cancer, but she was in remarkable shape and was cave diving like a crazy woman (gotta admire her bravery and strength). Her only minor nod to the winters worth of chemo was to allow me to be dive-sherpa for her and carry her double tanks and heavy gear up hills.

She has a new oncologist who gave her a 2 year timeline.

So, she is determined to spend the rest of her life (such as it is) doing things that she really enjoys and wanted to finish before she goes. Cave diving and finishing a couple of research topics are top of her list.

I'm wondering what I would be doing if I'd been given a two year lifespan.

Trip to Florida...

Fyre and I are heading to Florida for a trip.

Tripwise, this one has the makings of one of the most memorable in my life. But not for the right reasons.

Fyre's best friend D, is heading to Florida to do some cave and cavern diving with her guy. We're going to join them.

D is an amazing person. She is stunningly beautiful 45 year old with a gorgeous body, possessing bright eyes that shine when she talks, and an adventurous spirit and the incredible sharp mind of a trained lawyer and a bilingual french antiquities scholar.

Pretty amazing, huh?

She is however, terminally ill with colon cancer.

This may be the last time we see her.

Fantasies....

A friend confided a really juicy sex fantasy to me a little while ago, and it piqued my interest in my own fantasy world.

I noticed that I haven't really had a "holy fuck, if I think about that I will come in my pants" fantasy in a couple of months. Usually I have a bunch of those running around in my head, ready to call to action. Not wanting to co-opt anyone elses, I have gone in search of some of my own.

I dunno though. It is kind of almost counterproductive at this point because the more I want to have a fantasy of my very own, the harder it seems to get one. I'm sure that there are dozens of new ones that I can find, but right now I'm pulling out the old ones like dirty shirts from the laundry pile and checking each of them to see if I can wear that one, but they are all old and stale and I'm kind of jaded on them.

WTF? Cause I'm limiting myself too. I mean, the dog is looking at me with loving eyes, but I won't go there. That is the kind of fantasy that I just don't wanna sell myself on.

I'm gonna go now... (BTW, the dog is safe)

Full moons and Eclipses....

I loved the eclipse last night.....

The moon was perfectly visible for once in our normally grey skies. It was wonderful to see the moon shining brilliantly, then slowly seeing the shadow of the earth creep across the face of the moon.

I love how the full eclipse changes the moon to a wonderful orange.

The question of the night....So if werewolves come out during a full moon, do they revert back to human form during the eclipse and then back when the eclipse ends?

tpyos

I make a horrendous amount of typing mistakes when I type. On my old laptop, I got used to the keyboard and there was a delete key perfectly placed so that my third finger would automatically correct my mistakes as I made them. I could type at 40 words per minute and delete the twenty or so typos at the same time.

Sadly, my new lptop has no delete key and so to caually correct my simtake takes a lot more work that it used to, interuppting the flow of my typing. So, my typos will stay and i will blog with thym until I get used to the new keyboard.

Besides, I'm enjoying the new words that I make up. And google always suggests what it was that I was looking when I make a typo anywya...

Perimeter at the burn...

There is a thread on tribe voicing concerns about the collapse zone of the 2008 pavillion...

bm.tribe.net/thread/0f55...b98a366c69ce

I can remember getting the briefing from the ESD officer the night of my first burn and working the inner zone as a firefighter at the burn of the man....

I recall it being something like...."let the rangers do the perimeter, and don't stop anyone from getting too close to the fire, just let them know about the hazards that might be around, and be there to help them out if they get in trouble....and stay safe..."

Most amazing safety briefing I ever had in 16 years of firefighting...

In 2007, the crowd got really close, pressing into the fire. In my turnout gear, I was fine, but the heat of the flame was causing everyone to winch as the heat seared their skin.

An absolutely stunningly beautiful asian girl was being pushed too close to the fire as the crowd circled around. She was smaller than the other rowdy milling crowd and looked like a leaf being pushed into the heat and flames of the burn. As the flow of the crowd came around, she looked in my eyes in panic and swirled into the eddy of my shadow. She took shelter in my heat shade as the crowd swirled around us.

I opened my jacket and she tucked herself into my chest.

We stayed that way for what seemed five minutes or so....the crowd racing around...my buddy grinning away beside me...and I just enjoyed the absolute beauty of the moment...

We were called back to our staging point and I helped her get outside the inner swirling circle of people. She gave me a big hug, and a thank you. She then gave me a wonderful kiss and disappeared into the night.

I love working the Burn.

Dive Master...

I'm in the Cayman Islands for New Years...and a bit beyond.

On a whim, I decided to get my PADI DiveMaster certification.

I've been SCUBA diver for many, many years...but I figured that it was time that I started doing something new other than just jumping in the water and doing goofy stuff.

Maybe there is a career change in it, who knows. I could hack being a guy who gets to dive three or four times a day and get paid for it, especially where the main occupational hazard is sunburn and bikini lock (a condition where you can't stop looking at certain part of a bikini).

So, it has actually been some hard work. I've really enjoyed taking the Divemaster training. There is a crapload of information that I need to know for the exams, and while I enjoy gaining knowledge, there is still little pressure to make a good show on the exams. I really have enjoyed the teaching, diving and the social side after all the diving stuff have been done.

I've done about 20 dives in the last 10 days, and I've seen a ton of really interesting undersea creatures, including sea turtles, sharks, rays, eels, and lots of lovely little fishies. I really love the feeling of relaxation i get at about 40 feet and beyond, my back just releases and the tension fades and I can just float...

It's been beautiful here on Grand Cayman, with today being a rest day from all the diving. I sat by the pool, caught some sun and studied.

Nice life.

Writing...

Shit, I haven't been writing in such a long time, I wonder if I can get back to it.

So, I've either not needed the release that writing gives me, or I have been sitting on stuff and not letting it out. It has definitely been the latter (former and latter have always fucked me up, englishy is a 'tupid languagey).

Anyhow, time to start writing, I'd say.

I started with such hope

Tonight, I started with such hope...

Perhaps tonight, I would make a Squash Mulligatawny soup that would bring about world peace....

Alas, I sit here eating a bowl, and there is still lots of conflict in the world.

Disappointment. Maybe I was hoping for too much.

Still, it is a darn good bowl of soup.

Maybe the chicken pilaf will....

Word of the day...

at·a·rax·i·a [at-uh-rak-see-uh] –noun a state of freedom from emotional disturbance and anxiety; tranquillity.

Now that would be a cool name for a theme camp....