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I'll build on this later(I need sleep and this has been "spinning in my head for hours), but...f-sake...why are people so drawn to me that they will pursue me 7 years later in life?

THIS time, she found my myspace account, so I had to make it "private".

And people wonder why I don't say where I really live now or what my real name is???

There's your answer.

People who I wouldn't mind finding me, rarely do.

People who I don't want to know where I am..pursue me to the ends of the Earth.

This isn't a one time thing here.

One has left me alone for a few years now..so okay..she's done.

2 from tribe...have left me alone for a bit and other than some dork named Patrick that envies me enough to keep my name on his profile from a year plus ago...that all is done too.

My ex-wife from 7 years ago...she just won't let things go.

She, forever.... wants to be in my life, even after repeated statements of there is nothing more to talk about.

No, I didn't start the divorce, but... I let everything go with her...many years ago, moved forward in life and was fortunate enough to find happiness.

I sure as hell don't want the ex back in my life trying to destroy that happiness.

I'll build more later..to sleep I try to go.

+SW->

posted in R.A.T.H. - 2 replies
Mon, May 5, 2008 - 4:13 AM permalink
I was at a dinner/auction/silent auction on Saturday for the American Lung Association and was a bit disturbed by what was said and applauded by the sheople(Was serving, not attending the affair).

The head person is giving the rah-rah speech, but throws in a part to have laws passed by 2010 for a nationwide ban

on smoking in public places by 2010, then...goes on to say that their goal is

"to have cigarettes eliminated by the year 2025, so the next generation doesn't, even know what cigarettes are."

Granted, I do not think that smoking is the best of things, but I don't buy into all the "evils" that are blamed on smoking either.

If these people had a chance..they'd proclaim that the heat of the cigarettes was causing global warming.

I got a bit peeved and went outside to...smoke a cigarette.

They may not realize the truth of it all, but..smoking saves people from having their ass kicked, on a daily basis, from people tired of those who would remove all the pleasures of life.

Smoking does protect lives.....the a-holes of the worlds lives.

:-)

Yes, I went back in and served with a smile.

Funny how the person giving the speech is so anti cigarettes, but had no problem offering me a drink of alcohol, while I was working and "wouldn't tell on me"(I said no).

I guess alcohol and ass is okay, but alcohol and ash isn't.

+SW->
posted in R.A.T.H. - 0 replies
Mon, April 28, 2008 - 6:32 AM permalink
Sometimes, I am just not in the mood.

What do we have to talk about, that isn't, overly, done in the news(fictionally) or on a forum that seem s to thrive on drama or idiocy?

Yes, there are exceptions, otherwise I would be out the door completely.

I just wrote back to some tribe thread that was implying that the Jonestown suicides were, supposedly a mass homicide.

I find this idea idiotic. I try to take into account that a person writing it could be family connected and is still feeling the hurt.

Now, I have concluded that they are just being idiotic because they watched a PBS special.

For those who give their strength over to any religion, cult, person, whatever....it isn't THEIR fault. It is your own.

Nobody forces a person to do anything...it is always the person's choice on how they will react.

Honestly, had I been in that situation(Highly unlikely, as I don't let others rule my mind, so let's say.."visiting day" or the like), I would have taken it as my personal duty to do whatever was necessary to save the kids, remove the idiots with the guns, etc.

How weak is one's mind to buy into that b.s.???

I do see something similar, yet a little less dangerous with people jumping on a boat for religion, a politician, a "fellowship", etc., but...

life or death? Kids involved and a person does nothing???

I feel sorry for those kids.

The adults? Not remotely.

I'm a father.

I teach the child in my house what she needs so she isn't susceptible to those kind of con jobs.

I teach my kid about the real world, not the fiction brought to one by the media.

I teach what a honest day of work means.

I answer questions(Curtailing some for age, but they will be discussed later, when old enough.) that are asked,

rather than pretending that my child will always be a child.

She won't and she is growing quickly.

A quick prop to her, as she has worked hard to learn...she is in 5th grade and did the reading test(Whatever the current name of that one is, lol) and scored 12th grade/ 7th month.

I think that is awesome.

I helped her read, as she didn't know how when I first met her and was faking things by memorizing< long story>(Step-child, but..my full daughter as far as anyone is concerned that matters), but other than making her read 20 minutes a day, with a few exceptions of longer periods to learn about topics they fly by in school these days...she has taken that on her own and done well with it.

I am VERY proud of her!!!

She asked me today if she was a "geek", solely, based on her having the highest test score in her school.

I had to laugh, went through what she thinks a "geek" is and assured her she is not.

The reality is....she isn't even close to a "geek".

She pursues the goals she sets for herself.

She makes things happen.

She isn't disliked.

She is smart, though not to the point of no one can understand her.

She has a bunch of friends.

She skateboards, rides bikes, plays in the mud, cares about others, was elected to Student Council, sometimes likes "girly" things and sometimes is a "tomboy".

She's comedical, serious, "dark" and "light".

Yes, she needs glasses to read and that is about the only time you can find them on her, lol.

Honestly...she's a scary little individual.

Intelligent, street smart, etiquette smart, kind, loving and she'll have the boys pursuing her...

Screw that...I don't,even, want to imagine all the boys that I will be throwing over the bushes "Bundy" style, when that time, shortly, approaches.

She's 11 and hits middle school next year. Ay yi yi.

It, probably, wouldn't be a bad thing, if she weren't developing early, as boys have already been chasing her for years.

Add that in....I'm going to be stressing and trying to remember that the boys are just kids and are easy to dissuade, as they still fear parents, at this age, lol.

My point, beside the props for her, was that if a parent takes the time to talk to their kids about whatever issues and informs them of some of the bad truths of the world...they aren't likely to end up like the Jonestown people.

The other part, is it allows the kid to separate the good from the bad and pursue the opposite of the negative junk of life.

I do get that some people need to feel needed and that is why certain religions and/or fellowships have the ability to draw people in.

I don't care to feel needed, as it ends up having to lead and that gets tiresome when the sheople stop making decisions for themself.

I do like talking to people, but don't feel a desire to compromise myself or my beliefs just to make others "happy".

They want happiness...create it for themself. They're the only ones who know what will bring, themselves, true joy.

I stick by my belief that people draw to themselves those who are similar.

If I act fake..then I draw fake people to me.

If I am myself, then the people drawn to me(The one's not looking for a "leader") like the true me and accept that person.



Now, getting back to the original lead in of this thread...

I'm tired of talking politics.

I care about whether our country sinks or swims, but the only reality of that is going to be what the next president REALLY does, not all the speeches.

Personally, I want a robot to be elected that goes after health care like Hillary Clinton, fixes problems with the economy like Bill Clinton, cuts all the extra grants to organizations like McCain and REALLY keeps things positive like Obama has preached, but not practiced.

Since that isn't going to happen....I consider the budget the most important factor and, therefore, knowing from past experience with Bill Clinton, know the Clintons can fix that problem.

I don't care if she is a bitch.

I care about having a country.

No money, in one's household, means no house.

The same is true for a country.

On religion...I am an atheist and think that religion screws up the world.

Is that clear enough?

Cool, as I grow tired of reiterating these beliefs every time someone thinks they are going to change my view on them.

Yes, I did explore, greatly, the candidates and religions. I know where I stand and it wasn't due to a closed mind.



Knowing that I was tired of these things, is why I created my other two tribes, that relate to humor.

I needed a laugh and decided to share those laughs with others.

If it goes the way that, typically, happens on tribe.net(People taking, but not giving), then I will remove those tribes, in time.

I hadn't seen any humor tribes, so I created two. One for regular humor. One for humor that was a little more adult related,

or "politically incorrect".

Since then...I have found two other humor tribes on tribe.net, but....s'alright, as they aren't oriented, specifically, toward the way I view humor.

This site, as most of you know, is my general journal.

The exception to the rule, is that I let others peek into that journal and comment as they see fit(Keeping with the intro to this tribe and not doing the whole troll game, as I don't tolerate that).



My brain is a bit scattered tonight, as I have so many things going through it....I know some of this writing is jumbled.

I'd apologize, but..I don't feel sorry for having an overly active brain, so..won't apologize.



I saw a writing, earlier today, that had me thinking on "idols" or "heroes".

Understand that I am separating out the idols/heroes from those who provide a positive role model for kids, as those people I give respect to, but don't worship.

I don't have any now.

I did as a kid.

I used to kick myself for trading off and selling my George Brett cards as a kid.

I don't anymore. He's another fake, down to the bleach he used to have in his hair.

I know this from multiple personal encounters, not one judgement on him being caught in an off mood.

I still think that Cal Ripken was a great role model for kids.

I used to swear to my kids, back in the day about Hulk Hogan and Ultimate Warrior, from wrestling.

Hulk, at the same time as I was going through a divorce, changed everything about his "character",

forgot about his job as a role model with many children following his lead, and, essentially made me look like an ass,

during a bad time in my life. Not that he knew anything about that, but it took some time for me to not be pissed off about the timing of that conversion. Either way, he ended up as the "character" that he was when I was giving him props, thus teaching a bigger lesson in life....

people go through struggles(Even if fake), but their true "character" will come out in the end.

Ultimate Warrior?

I liked him. I think that his and Hulk's match for the championship was the best I have ever seen.

I found his blog on the past couple of years, as I was wondering if he would ever come back.

Some days I think he is kind of out there(I'm sure many people view me in the same way, lol).

Other days, he nails things on the head of the nail.

What I like most about him, whether he is being "dark" or "light" for the day?

He is true to who he is and doesn't really worry about others perception about that, except when acting in wrestling.

That's alright. I have to "act", sometimes, in my job too.

In real life, you won't find acting in me.

I say some statements that sound "screwed up", if you don't know me.

I sound "aggressive" in my writing.

It's called passion.

When I write, much of time, I speak my mind and it comes across clear, minus the part that others think I am pissed.

It takes wayyyyy more than some silly squabble on the net to get me pissed.

Try not to perceive things, in my writing, in that fashion and you may see something beyond the appearance.

In that way, he(U.W.) and I are similar.

He wears a painted mask, though is real to form in life.

I wear the painted mask of the silly internet, so you don't know me that well either.

You have assumptions, but they do no justice to who I am and...you wouldn't know who I was, unless you spent a month with me in real life.

I've someone explained this, a bit, before, but...I'll bring it a bit deeper.

I know what it is like to have much in money and to be living on the street.

I know what it is like to be the "good guy" and the "bad guy".

I know what it is like to be the happy husband and the guy who is happy just being with friends and needs/desires no relationship.

I know what it is like to be ultra religious and to be an atheist.

I know what it is like to fulfill dreams and to have them crushed.

I know what it is like to experience the fullness of outdoor life or to be sucked into just writing on a computer, for a bit.

I know what it is like to lose or choose to walk away from an emotional battle, but have never lost a physical fight.

I know what it is like to be proud and to be humble.

I know what it is like to be assumed as dense(Mostly, due to my size and length of hair) and to be perceived as a genius(My denseness shows when I try to understand the whole of relationships, but by school standards and street standards...I am a genius. (Whoop-dee-doo).

I know what it is like to be the teacher and to be the student(You can't learn anything, if you think you know everything. Genius or not..there's always something to learn).

I know these things from REAL life, not some fictional character that I created on the net.

If you aren't out living life, experiencing life...you need to get a life.

If you are only a "taker" in life...you need to start giving back.

Why don't I write much in here?

There's much in the taking category going on, but not many that are giving back and it seems like a waste of my time.

I spend time in forums for interaction. I can hear my thoughts any moment of the day.

This may be my journal, per say, butI have opened it up for others to discuss...whatever.

If that is confusing, as it may be, consider it like I handed you my journal and told you to write something in it for us to talk about.

I mean, if you are here, then there has to be some reason for it, that relates to my thoughts.

Want to know my thoughts on things I don't cover?

Start a thread.

Just don't try to convert me to a religion, or that fake "character" running for political office, okay?

I don't think much of either of those two things.

On the former, it has to do with experience and exploration.

On the latter, it has nothing to do with his shade...it has to do with his character and I think he is a "playa" in everything, in life.



Almost forgot...

I brought up Ultimate Warrior and forgot to mention a really cool thing.

He's, finally, returning to wrestling.

Though it's just entertainment..I like the idea, as my daughter, and avid wrestling junkie, has only heard talk of him, or seen some of the older videos.

I want her to experience the Warrior; to see how most of the characters don't hold up to the standards that were set..back in the day.

Hopefully, he makes it to WWE, as he is doing the UK wrestling, upon his return.

The big difference between he and I... I , sometimes, soften my blows, as I try to understand people, a bit, better before making a presumption.

Not always, but I think it is better to know much of a situation before drawing a conclusion.

For that reason, I don't, always, write to a current topic, because once I start writing...I don't delete anything written, unless I have misspelled, or gone back, time permitting, and drawn the conclusion that a sentence was fractured and needs to be edited to make sense.

Thought wise...I do not edit.

Since this post has jumped through many hoops: I might as well finish it with something reacted and...unrelated...

"Do not follow where the path may lead. Go, instead, where there is no path and leave a trail."*Ralph Waldo Emerson*



Keeping that in mind....

"Live your dreams, or die wanting"* +SW-> *





















posted in R.A.T.H. - 2 replies
Thu, April 24, 2008 - 2:21 AM permalink
I know I had that short one, in another thread, but....late one night, I was writing, with all things connected, in my brain, and here is the redux of that thread......

let's start out things this way:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=M-QfLJbEN3k

Lyrics:

"If Everyone Cared"



From underneath the trees, we watch the sky

Confusing stars for satellites

I never dreamed that you'd be mine

But here we are, we're here tonight



Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive



If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

Then we'd see the day when nobody died



And I'm singing



Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive

Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive



And in the air the fireflies

Our only light in paradise

We'll show the world they were wrong

And teach them all to sing along



Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

(I'm alive)



If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

Then we'd see the day when nobody died



If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

Then we'd see the day when nobody died



And as we lie beneath the stars

We realize how small we are

If they could love like you and me

Imagine what the world could be



If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

Then we'd see the day when nobody died

When nobody died...



If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

Then we'd see the day when nobody died



We'd see the day, we'd see the day

When nobody died

We'd see the day, we'd see the day

When nobody died

We'd see the day when nobody died

____________________________________

Now, I know there are amen's in there, but..I don't take that as a religious thing, for me. I take it as it's origins of "All Men", of which this song and it's theme should apply(Though, the song wouldn't sound as good, without the abbreviated version).



I, typically, sit thinking, the week before going into a new year about "resolutions".

This year I didn't, though.....did.

I think it is really cool when people help kids of other lands, people who have been through disasters, etc.

However, I think that people need to do that on an ongoing basis with those closer to home.

A great example, of our nation as a whole, not doing this, is the war in Iraq and Afghanistan. If 10%. Let me say that again..10% of the money that has been sent to that war, were to have been spent on world hunger, than there wouldn't be world hunger. Phenomenal isn't it? The fact that peoples need and greed for oil has more importance than the lives of those suffering.

Does this mean that I "donate" to religious charities that, supposedly, help the needy?

No.

Ex number 2 had a brief stint with one of those fundraising places, and a mere 10% goes to aiding others. The rest of the money is dedicated to their own cause, of which 50% goes to the telemarketer, 10-20% to their boss, and so on, down the line.

Want to give?

Get food and clothing and give it to the people who ship those products to the ones in need!



" And as we lie beneath the stars

We realize how small we are"



I had the fortune, YES, I DO call it a fortune, of living on the streets for 4 months, back in the early part of the new millennium.

Many of my friends didn't understand why I did this and thought that I had "quit" on life.

Not even close.

I had met a man in one of the rooms of "anonymous" who, though everyone tried to "help" him, preferred to live out there, rather than live a "normal" life. I CHOSE to let go of my worldly goods, save for a backpack that I carried around.

I kept faith in myself. I donated plasma, I worked a 1-2 days a week at a temp place.

I never had a lack of "necessities", such as food, water, clothes, books, or cigs(Lol, on the last one). At first, I still had my car(Beautiful black MX-6), but I like certain unnamed kid, lol, was driving it without a license. I got into a minor fender-bender and realized that:

1)It wasn't right for me to be driving without a license and insurance, as the person who I crashed with would have to rely on their insurance for something that I did.

2) I was STILL holding on to the "normal" life.

3) I had to let the car go(It was at the impound yard, with a minimal bill of $130, that my friends offered to help me pay, but I refused and thanked them.).

So..I let that last major possession go(Most of the time, I was just using it to sleep in, but no need for temptation, to violate the law, or for a "home" that countered why I chose to be homeless in the first place).

I went downtown, but..that wasn't appealing to me, as sleeping on the sidewalk, didn't sit well with me. I slept in a field by Elitches(One night on top of the building housing the giant aquarium, along with down by the stream, but...that didn't bode well with me either, as you still have to watch your back, thus, not much sleep(Denver).

I got to thinking of that man, previously stated, wasn't going to give up(I don't believe in quiting, though I do believe, now, in picking the worthy battles) and looked up, whilst at one of those rooms. A roof of a little strip mall is what I was looking at.

That night, I climbed the dumpster and pipes to get on top and explore. After going to the end of it, I found "my apartment"(Three walls and an entrance that I could lay "trip wires" to alert me). The pebbled roof was a bit rough, but I had packed a blanket that cushioned it. I had a booklight, and a bit of lighting from the street, so was able to read my favorite book, at the time, Marcus Aurelius' "Meditations".

I had a jug for water. I didn't have a ceiling, other than the sky, so I laid, on my back, looking at the stars and realized how small we are(As the song goes.).

During the early a.m., before daylight, I would climb down and bath in the faucet outside of one of the malls stores(I bathed every day, as I don't think that there is an excuse for keeping oneself gross of look, or gross of smell), then start walking toward one of the temp places(I, also, needed to be up before the shop owners got to work, as foot sounds on the roof tend to cause one to call the police, though I had chased off some people trying to cause trouble by entering a shops ceiling to break in, so I was helping their security. The bed place there may have been aware of this, or not, and left a, very mildly, torn one out for a few days, of which I used, from then on, to sleep on, up there.). If there wasn't any job, for the day, then it either became a "meeting" day, or a walk to explore the world around. That was really good for me, as I studied how nature does things, by the stream, at lakes, down the trails,etc. At times, I would stay out, most of the night, drinking coffee, reading at "Breakfast King" and observing people, with the occasional chat.

It wasn't terrible. Not even close. When I did have cash...I shared it with others, who needed it, or did random kind acts for those who were afraid to ask for help, but seemed to need it, like the homeless kids who were hungry, but too shy to ask others, and/or afraid of what others would want from them in return, and then I would move on, expecting nothing in return. Tell you what. THAT is a REALLY good feeling. Knowing that you are giving, just because... and never wanting, or expecting any reciprocation.

I did eat, a few times, at the charity food places, but...I find it wrong to have to listen to a sermon on "god" to have food that was donated(Blackmail, via propaganda for food), so skipped that, for the most part,(Not all places that give food assistance do this, so I kept away from the ones that did, after a couple of those experiences). For the record, a person who is, truly, hungry will say that they believe in your god, to get food, but it doesn't make it so. I never said I did, as I don't, and am anti-dishonesty, EVEN for nourishment. I, also, didn't waste my time in shelters(Instead, I put a ceiling, of sorts, on my place, via some hard, ridged, plastic, that I found).

I could go on and on about this time of my life, but...I'm trying to make some points here, so I'll start cutting to those points, that refer to the peole of the U.S.A.

A person never need be dirty, hungry, or without clothes, even when homeless.

When you think that you are the center of the world..take a REAL look at the world around you.

When you are snubbing those "scary" homeless people, by not even speaking to them, or looking at them, it speaks volumes of who you are in real life and...it doesn't say much about good moral character, for you.

Those who want to, CAN help themselves. Some just prefer the freedom of not living by societal norms. This does not make them bad or good. It just makes them a human who has chosen to use their freewill.

It is NOT necessary to beg for money, or food, when living on the streets. I NEVER did and functioned well, with no wants or needs unfulfilled. I, also, had no religion, as is true for me today.

Even the meekest of people can help another, if they put forth, by, SIMPLY, being an ear for them to voice their thoughts.

" If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride"



Everyone cries(I do every time I watch this video, at the greatness that humanity is capable of, when united in a cause, but the line here refers to whining about their problems, rather than helping the world.

Next song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E0WYjqu9QwE

Artist(Band):Creed





One



Affirmative may be justified take from one give to another

The goal is to be unified take my hand be my brother

The payment silenced the masses sanctified by oppression

Unity took a back seat sliding further into regression



One oh One the only way is One

One oh One the only way is One

I feel angry I feel helpless, wanna change the world yeah..

I feel violent I feel alone, don't try and change my mind no..



Society blind by color why hold down one to raise another

Discrimination now on both sides seeds of hate blossom further

The world is headed for mutiny, when all we want is unity

We may rise and fall, but in the end we meet our fate together



One oh One the only way is One

One oh One the only way is One

I feel angry I feel helpless, wanna change the world yeah..

I feel violent I feel alone, don't try and change my mind no..

I feel angry I feel helpless, wanna change the world yeah..

I feel violent I feel alone, don't try and change my mind no..



I feel angry I feel helpless, wanna change the world yeah..

I feel violent I feel alone, don't try and change my mind no..

I feel angry I feel helpless, wanna change the world yeah..

I feel violent I feel alone, don't try and change my mind"



Now some points here:



" The payment silenced the masses sanctified by oppression

Unity took a back seat sliding further into regression"



People were given money, via the government "rebates", back a few years ago, to try to quiet their outrage at what the government was doing. THIS is becoming a recurring theme, with the new "rebate", as most U.S. citizens are starting to become infuriated, again, with the economy.

Keep that in mind when you vote, if it gets counted accurately, rather than "hacked", as the same theme of spending is staying with the party that has run things for 7 years, and on the other side...the person of such "great change" spent, and spent, and spent while in the Illinois State Senate(Not to be confused with the U.S. Senate, where he has positioned himself for committing to nothing, that could cause him to lose the presidency).

" I feel angry I feel helpless, wanna change the world yeah..

I feel violent I feel alone, don't try and change my mind no.."

I did feel this way, but.....

Humans are humans, and all are imperfect, so why get angry about it, or express oneself with violence(I know how odd that sounds coming from a person who used to fight so much, when I was younger, but time changes those who keep an open mind)?

ANYONE, big or small, can change the world, in some way.

If you don't like what is going on in the world, what are you doing to change that?

Don't feel "helpless"...be the change that you desire.

My mother didn't do such a wonderful job in raising me. Should I be the same, or should I try to be the difference that I needed and wanted. I have since "forgiven her", as she is entitled to be as imperfect as the rest of the world. This, also, applies to those who have done me wrong, purposefully, in the past. I forgive, and let it go, as it is old news, anyway, and nothing can be done to change that.

As far as trust goes...that is an earned thing, not, simply, given.



A last video:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=WCkQZOnCN3k

"Right Now"

The lyrics are good, but there is writing, further in the song, that expresses a theme.

Do things in the here and now.

Tomorrow may be too late(Think of that one globally).



"Don't wanna wait til tomorrow,

Why put it off another day?

One more walk through problems,

Built up, and stand in our way ,ah

One step ahead, one step behind me

Now you gotta run to get even

Make future plans, don't dream about yesterday, hey

C'mon turn, turn this thing around

Right now, hey

Its your tomorrow

Right now,

C'mon,its everything

Right now,

Catch a magic moment, do it

Right here and now

It means everything

Miss the beat, you lose the rhythm,

And nothing falls into place, no

Only missed by a fraction,

Slipped a little off your pace, oh,

The more things you get, the more you want,

Just trade in one for the other,

Workin' so hard, to make it easier, whoa,

Got to turn, c'mon turn this thing around

Right now, hey

Its your tomorrow

Right now,

C'mon, its everything

Right now,

Catch that magic moment, do it

Right here and now

It means everything

Its enlightened me, right now

What are you waitin' for

Oh, yeah, right now

(solo)

Right now, hey

Its your tomorrow

Right now,

C'mon, its everything

Right now,

Catch that magic moment, and do it right,

Right now

Right now, oh, right now

Its whats happening?

Right here and now

Right now

Its right now

Oh,

Tell me, what are you waiting for

Turn this thing around



Here's the other thread, in case you missed it:

http://tribes.tribe.net/rath/thread/f7524bb9-9112-41d6-a001-659497e345ee



Have great one, make a good difference to someone, or by doing something today and try to continue that tomorrow.

This isn't some "rah-rah" speech to get elected. This is the REAL difference that needs to happen in the world.

+SW->

P.S. Would someone tell Oprah that if she is so concerned about people, to simply donate 10% of her total worth and she can solve "world hunger", rather than pretending like she is "helping", by her show "writing off" or having items donated? Man..how long are people going to keep watching that hoax?
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Mon, February 18, 2008 - 11:20 PM permalink
This IS a serious post.

I sit and wonder, every time an election comes up; why people put all their "faith" in one person.

There's Obama, or McCain, right now, but I am talking about every couple of years this occurs.

Each President elected..there was something "special" about them in that moment, that they were elected, that, for the most part, went down the tube. YET, 2 to 4 years later...here we go again thinking.. *Well, that wasn't the guy, but look at THIS one*.

2 to 4 years later...you might say the same thing again.

*No, wait...THIS time, it IS about big CHANGE*

C'mon already. They ARE politicians. Having "faith" in them is more ridiculous than buying into some religious scam.

Yeah, some of them have balanced the budget(Do you get great rewards, such as a $100k+ job for balancing your checkbook?).

Yeah, some are "nice", or "likeable".

Yes, some make a minor change that helps a bit, but...do ANY of them stick by what they say that they do, or are about?

Then, we have the "faith" in news. Kind of like the, self proclaimed, "political experts" at CNN.

News isn't supposed to be about bias. It is supposed to be reporting, with an unbiased opinion, based on facts, much like a case that requires irrefutable evidence to convict a person. I sit and watch the news faithful, and wonder why I am not turning on some trash like "Entertainment Tonight", as it is the same quality of reporting.

Now, add in the "faithful". They are the ones who subscribe to the great "savior" politician, and the news "faith", as if it, truly, was written by the "Almighty One". They speak the propaganda, like it is fact. The proclaim of their "savior" being the only one who can "change the world", or like in the current rerun of candidates, the one who can "unite the world".

I find this whole behavior as repetitive and idiotic and think of this belief as somewhere on the border of insanity.

There isn't one person who can fix all your problems.

There isn't one person who can fix all of the U.S.A.'s problems.

There isn't one person that can fix all the world's problems.

If you think so...I think you are a fool.

Does this mean not to vote?

NO!

It means that people should take the time to research who they vote for and NOT believe what the "trusted news source" tells them is correct, as the news is all about what is going to give their network ratings, NOT about true facts.

"But why, oh why, would our trusted news source do this?", says the faithful one.

Because if they have higher rating, they get more money from advertisers, their stocks go up and they make money, etc.

Just like I say, where it relates to religion...don't trust in one source...explore for yourself, with an open mind, rather than closed to one ideology.

Who am I voting for?

The person that best serves my and my family's interest, in my opinion.

I came to this conclusion by what they have done, in their past and what their main target is for their own self interest.

All the rest of it is words and "dog and pony show".

ALL politicians lie.

To believe otherwise, might be going against one's political "faith", but it serves your life and household better, in the long run.

It's nice to be on the winning team, but....how many people who voted for Bush are standing up, cheering him on now?

Was that anti-Republican? I'd say the same about Carter too. Yeah, yeah...nice guy. He still didn't do squat, until after he was out of office.

I don't care if someone is old school, or new school.

I care about 3 things, as it relates to the future president:

1)Balancing the budget(If it doesn't happen soon...China can call in their "notes" that constitute 20-25% of our nation).

2)War: I don't think that we need to be getting into others problems, when we have too many problems to deal with at home.

3)Health care: When people stall off the doctors, as it cost too much, it creates bad health for all of us, as sicknesses get transferred by something as simple as a person "fighting off the flu". When you have health care, or a "sliding-scale", one tends to not stall off things and create an epidemic. Yeah, it may cost everyone a bit extra, but lives saved is more than worth it, even if we look at a percentage of the population...kids.

To those that speak the "holy" phrase of "No new taxes". Get a grip...if your car is failing, your roof is falling in, your kid is sick....

you HAVE to pay to fix the problem. Even, if that is only for parts, or medicine.

The same is true if you care to keep your country going.

Well, that is my "political faith". It may come across as agnostic/atheist, but the facts of the past and present, of politics, lead one to not believe in "saviors".

"Fool me once...shame on you. Fool me twice...shame on me."

What about the rest who are fooled every 2 to 4 years?

Are they just, generally, fools, rather than being fooled?

I don't know, as I haven't all the answers like the "saviors" and have bought a line or two, here and there, but...I do know that I don't vote "faithfully". I vote by what is right for myself and my family and, sometimes...humanity(As in health care and war).

How do you vote? Is it like that, or is it by waiting for a "feeling" that is the equivalent of eye contact, from a future lover, that sends tingles throughout you, and repent for sleeping with that person the next day when you have come to your senses?

Hey...it's only our country. No big deal.

+SW->
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Thu, April 3, 2008 - 4:29 PM permalink
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Shadow's yaps are located at....

I'll build on this later(I need sleep and this has been "spinning in my head for hours), but...f-sake...why are people so drawn to me that they will pursue me 7 years later in life?

THIS time, she found my myspace account, so I had to make it "private".

And people wonder why I don't say where I really live now or what my real name is???

There's your answer.

People who I wouldn't mind finding me, rarely do.

People who I don't want to know where I am..pursue me to the ends of the Earth.

This isn't a one time thing here.

One has left me alone for a few years now..so okay..she's done.

2 from tribe...have left me alone for a bit and other than some dork named Patrick that envies me enough to keep my name on his profile from a year plus ago...that all is done too.

My ex-wife from 7 years ago...she just won't let things go.

She, forever.... wants to be in my life, even after repeated statements of there is nothing more to talk about.

No, I didn't start the divorce, but... I let everything go with her...many years ago, moved forward in life and was fortunate enough to find happiness.

I sure as hell don't want the ex back in my life trying to destroy that happiness.

I'll build more later..to sleep I try to go.

+SW->

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Mon, May 5, 2008 - 4:13 AM permalink
I was at a dinner/auction/silent auction on Saturday for the American Lung Association and was a bit disturbed by what was said and applauded by the sheople(Was serving, not attending the affair).

The head person is giving the rah-rah speech, but throws in a part to have laws passed by 2010 for a nationwide ban

on smoking in public places by 2010, then...goes on to say that their goal is

"to have cigarettes eliminated by the year 2025, so the next generation doesn't, even know what cigarettes are."

Granted, I do not think that smoking is the best of things, but I don't buy into all the "evils" that are blamed on smoking either.

If these people had a chance..they'd proclaim that the heat of the cigarettes was causing global warming.

I got a bit peeved and went outside to...smoke a cigarette.

They may not realize the truth of it all, but..smoking saves people from having their ass kicked, on a daily basis, from people tired of those who would remove all the pleasures of life.

Smoking does protect lives.....the a-holes of the worlds lives.

:-)

Yes, I went back in and served with a smile.

Funny how the person giving the speech is so anti cigarettes, but had no problem offering me a drink of alcohol, while I was working and "wouldn't tell on me"(I said no).

I guess alcohol and ass is okay, but alcohol and ash isn't.

+SW->
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Mon, April 28, 2008 - 6:32 AM permalink
Sometimes, I am just not in the mood.

What do we have to talk about, that isn't, overly, done in the news(fictionally) or on a forum that seem s to thrive on drama or idiocy?

Yes, there are exceptions, otherwise I would be out the door completely.

I just wrote back to some tribe thread that was implying that the Jonestown suicides were, supposedly a mass homicide.

I find this idea idiotic. I try to take into account that a person writing it could be family connected and is still feeling the hurt.

Now, I have concluded that they are just being idiotic because they watched a PBS special.

For those who give their strength over to any religion, cult, person, whatever....it isn't THEIR fault. It is your own.

Nobody forces a person to do anything...it is always the person's choice on how they will react.

Honestly, had I been in that situation(Highly unlikely, as I don't let others rule my mind, so let's say.."visiting day" or the like), I would have taken it as my personal duty to do whatever was necessary to save the kids, remove the idiots with the guns, etc.

How weak is one's mind to buy into that b.s.???

I do see something similar, yet a little less dangerous with people jumping on a boat for religion, a politician, a "fellowship", etc., but...

life or death? Kids involved and a person does nothing???

I feel sorry for those kids.

The adults? Not remotely.

I'm a father.

I teach the child in my house what she needs so she isn't susceptible to those kind of con jobs.

I teach my kid about the real world, not the fiction brought to one by the media.

I teach what a honest day of work means.

I answer questions(Curtailing some for age, but they will be discussed later, when old enough.) that are asked,

rather than pretending that my child will always be a child.

She won't and she is growing quickly.

A quick prop to her, as she has worked hard to learn...she is in 5th grade and did the reading test(Whatever the current name of that one is, lol) and scored 12th grade/ 7th month.

I think that is awesome.

I helped her read, as she didn't know how when I first met her and was faking things by memorizing< long story>(Step-child, but..my full daughter as far as anyone is concerned that matters), but other than making her read 20 minutes a day, with a few exceptions of longer periods to learn about topics they fly by in school these days...she has taken that on her own and done well with it.

I am VERY proud of her!!!

She asked me today if she was a "geek", solely, based on her having the highest test score in her school.

I had to laugh, went through what she thinks a "geek" is and assured her she is not.

The reality is....she isn't even close to a "geek".

She pursues the goals she sets for herself.

She makes things happen.

She isn't disliked.

She is smart, though not to the point of no one can understand her.

She has a bunch of friends.

She skateboards, rides bikes, plays in the mud, cares about others, was elected to Student Council, sometimes likes "girly" things and sometimes is a "tomboy".

She's comedical, serious, "dark" and "light".

Yes, she needs glasses to read and that is about the only time you can find them on her, lol.

Honestly...she's a scary little individual.

Intelligent, street smart, etiquette smart, kind, loving and she'll have the boys pursuing her...

Screw that...I don't,even, want to imagine all the boys that I will be throwing over the bushes "Bundy" style, when that time, shortly, approaches.

She's 11 and hits middle school next year. Ay yi yi.

It, probably, wouldn't be a bad thing, if she weren't developing early, as boys have already been chasing her for years.

Add that in....I'm going to be stressing and trying to remember that the boys are just kids and are easy to dissuade, as they still fear parents, at this age, lol.

My point, beside the props for her, was that if a parent takes the time to talk to their kids about whatever issues and informs them of some of the bad truths of the world...they aren't likely to end up like the Jonestown people.

The other part, is it allows the kid to separate the good from the bad and pursue the opposite of the negative junk of life.

I do get that some people need to feel needed and that is why certain religions and/or fellowships have the ability to draw people in.

I don't care to feel needed, as it ends up having to lead and that gets tiresome when the sheople stop making decisions for themself.

I do like talking to people, but don't feel a desire to compromise myself or my beliefs just to make others "happy".

They want happiness...create it for themself. They're the only ones who know what will bring, themselves, true joy.

I stick by my belief that people draw to themselves those who are similar.

If I act fake..then I draw fake people to me.

If I am myself, then the people drawn to me(The one's not looking for a "leader") like the true me and accept that person.



Now, getting back to the original lead in of this thread...

I'm tired of talking politics.

I care about whether our country sinks or swims, but the only reality of that is going to be what the next president REALLY does, not all the speeches.

Personally, I want a robot to be elected that goes after health care like Hillary Clinton, fixes problems with the economy like Bill Clinton, cuts all the extra grants to organizations like McCain and REALLY keeps things positive like Obama has preached, but not practiced.

Since that isn't going to happen....I consider the budget the most important factor and, therefore, knowing from past experience with Bill Clinton, know the Clintons can fix that problem.

I don't care if she is a bitch.

I care about having a country.

No money, in one's household, means no house.

The same is true for a country.

On religion...I am an atheist and think that religion screws up the world.

Is that clear enough?

Cool, as I grow tired of reiterating these beliefs every time someone thinks they are going to change my view on them.

Yes, I did explore, greatly, the candidates and religions. I know where I stand and it wasn't due to a closed mind.



Knowing that I was tired of these things, is why I created my other two tribes, that relate to humor.

I needed a laugh and decided to share those laughs with others.

If it goes the way that, typically, happens on tribe.net(People taking, but not giving), then I will remove those tribes, in time.

I hadn't seen any humor tribes, so I created two. One for regular humor. One for humor that was a little more adult related,

or "politically incorrect".

Since then...I have found two other humor tribes on tribe.net, but....s'alright, as they aren't oriented, specifically, toward the way I view humor.

This site, as most of you know, is my general journal.

The exception to the rule, is that I let others peek into that journal and comment as they see fit(Keeping with the intro to this tribe and not doing the whole troll game, as I don't tolerate that).



My brain is a bit scattered tonight, as I have so many things going through it....I know some of this writing is jumbled.

I'd apologize, but..I don't feel sorry for having an overly active brain, so..won't apologize.



I saw a writing, earlier today, that had me thinking on "idols" or "heroes".

Understand that I am separating out the idols/heroes from those who provide a positive role model for kids, as those people I give respect to, but don't worship.

I don't have any now.

I did as a kid.

I used to kick myself for trading off and selling my George Brett cards as a kid.

I don't anymore. He's another fake, down to the bleach he used to have in his hair.

I know this from multiple personal encounters, not one judgement on him being caught in an off mood.

I still think that Cal Ripken was a great role model for kids.

I used to swear to my kids, back in the day about Hulk Hogan and Ultimate Warrior, from wrestling.

Hulk, at the same time as I was going through a divorce, changed everything about his "character",

forgot about his job as a role model with many children following his lead, and, essentially made me look like an ass,

during a bad time in my life. Not that he knew anything about that, but it took some time for me to not be pissed off about the timing of that conversion. Either way, he ended up as the "character" that he was when I was giving him props, thus teaching a bigger lesson in life....

people go through struggles(Even if fake), but their true "character" will come out in the end.

Ultimate Warrior?

I liked him. I think that his and Hulk's match for the championship was the best I have ever seen.

I found his blog on the past couple of years, as I was wondering if he would ever come back.

Some days I think he is kind of out there(I'm sure many people view me in the same way, lol).

Other days, he nails things on the head of the nail.

What I like most about him, whether he is being "dark" or "light" for the day?

He is true to who he is and doesn't really worry about others perception about that, except when acting in wrestling.

That's alright. I have to "act", sometimes, in my job too.

In real life, you won't find acting in me.

I say some statements that sound "screwed up", if you don't know me.

I sound "aggressive" in my writing.

It's called passion.

When I write, much of time, I speak my mind and it comes across clear, minus the part that others think I am pissed.

It takes wayyyyy more than some silly squabble on the net to get me pissed.

Try not to perceive things, in my writing, in that fashion and you may see something beyond the appearance.

In that way, he(U.W.) and I are similar.

He wears a painted mask, though is real to form in life.

I wear the painted mask of the silly internet, so you don't know me that well either.

You have assumptions, but they do no justice to who I am and...you wouldn't know who I was, unless you spent a month with me in real life.

I've someone explained this, a bit, before, but...I'll bring it a bit deeper.

I know what it is like to have much in money and to be living on the street.

I know what it is like to be the "good guy" and the "bad guy".

I know what it is like to be the happy husband and the guy who is happy just being with friends and needs/desires no relationship.

I know what it is like to be ultra religious and to be an atheist.

I know what it is like to fulfill dreams and to have them crushed.

I know what it is like to experience the fullness of outdoor life or to be sucked into just writing on a computer, for a bit.

I know what it is like to lose or choose to walk away from an emotional battle, but have never lost a physical fight.

I know what it is like to be proud and to be humble.

I know what it is like to be assumed as dense(Mostly, due to my size and length of hair) and to be perceived as a genius(My denseness shows when I try to understand the whole of relationships, but by school standards and street standards...I am a genius. (Whoop-dee-doo).

I know what it is like to be the teacher and to be the student(You can't learn anything, if you think you know everything. Genius or not..there's always something to learn).

I know these things from REAL life, not some fictional character that I created on the net.

If you aren't out living life, experiencing life...you need to get a life.

If you are only a "taker" in life...you need to start giving back.

Why don't I write much in here?

There's much in the taking category going on, but not many that are giving back and it seems like a waste of my time.

I spend time in forums for interaction. I can hear my thoughts any moment of the day.

This may be my journal, per say, butI have opened it up for others to discuss...whatever.

If that is confusing, as it may be, consider it like I handed you my journal and told you to write something in it for us to talk about.

I mean, if you are here, then there has to be some reason for it, that relates to my thoughts.

Want to know my thoughts on things I don't cover?

Start a thread.

Just don't try to convert me to a religion, or that fake "character" running for political office, okay?

I don't think much of either of those two things.

On the former, it has to do with experience and exploration.

On the latter, it has nothing to do with his shade...it has to do with his character and I think he is a "playa" in everything, in life.



Almost forgot...

I brought up Ultimate Warrior and forgot to mention a really cool thing.

He's, finally, returning to wrestling.

Though it's just entertainment..I like the idea, as my daughter, and avid wrestling junkie, has only heard talk of him, or seen some of the older videos.

I want her to experience the Warrior; to see how most of the characters don't hold up to the standards that were set..back in the day.

Hopefully, he makes it to WWE, as he is doing the UK wrestling, upon his return.

The big difference between he and I... I , sometimes, soften my blows, as I try to understand people, a bit, better before making a presumption.

Not always, but I think it is better to know much of a situation before drawing a conclusion.

For that reason, I don't, always, write to a current topic, because once I start writing...I don't delete anything written, unless I have misspelled, or gone back, time permitting, and drawn the conclusion that a sentence was fractured and needs to be edited to make sense.

Thought wise...I do not edit.

Since this post has jumped through many hoops: I might as well finish it with something reacted and...unrelated...

"Do not follow where the path may lead. Go, instead, where there is no path and leave a trail."*Ralph Waldo Emerson*



Keeping that in mind....

"Live your dreams, or die wanting"* +SW-> *





















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Thu, April 24, 2008 - 2:21 AM permalink
I know I had that short one, in another thread, but....late one night, I was writing, with all things connected, in my brain, and here is the redux of that thread......

let's start out things this way:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=M-QfLJbEN3k

Lyrics:

"If Everyone Cared"



From underneath the trees, we watch the sky

Confusing stars for satellites

I never dreamed that you'd be mine

But here we are, we're here tonight



Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive



If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

Then we'd see the day when nobody died



And I'm singing



Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive

Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive



And in the air the fireflies

Our only light in paradise

We'll show the world they were wrong

And teach them all to sing along



Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

(I'm alive)



If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

Then we'd see the day when nobody died



If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

Then we'd see the day when nobody died



And as we lie beneath the stars

We realize how small we are

If they could love like you and me

Imagine what the world could be



If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

Then we'd see the day when nobody died

When nobody died...



If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride

Then we'd see the day when nobody died



We'd see the day, we'd see the day

When nobody died

We'd see the day, we'd see the day

When nobody died

We'd see the day when nobody died

____________________________________

Now, I know there are amen's in there, but..I don't take that as a religious thing, for me. I take it as it's origins of "All Men", of which this song and it's theme should apply(Though, the song wouldn't sound as good, without the abbreviated version).



I, typically, sit thinking, the week before going into a new year about "resolutions".

This year I didn't, though.....did.

I think it is really cool when people help kids of other lands, people who have been through disasters, etc.

However, I think that people need to do that on an ongoing basis with those closer to home.

A great example, of our nation as a whole, not doing this, is the war in Iraq and Afghanistan. If 10%. Let me say that again..10% of the money that has been sent to that war, were to have been spent on world hunger, than there wouldn't be world hunger. Phenomenal isn't it? The fact that peoples need and greed for oil has more importance than the lives of those suffering.

Does this mean that I "donate" to religious charities that, supposedly, help the needy?

No.

Ex number 2 had a brief stint with one of those fundraising places, and a mere 10% goes to aiding others. The rest of the money is dedicated to their own cause, of which 50% goes to the telemarketer, 10-20% to their boss, and so on, down the line.

Want to give?

Get food and clothing and give it to the people who ship those products to the ones in need!



" And as we lie beneath the stars

We realize how small we are"



I had the fortune, YES, I DO call it a fortune, of living on the streets for 4 months, back in the early part of the new millennium.

Many of my friends didn't understand why I did this and thought that I had "quit" on life.

Not even close.

I had met a man in one of the rooms of "anonymous" who, though everyone tried to "help" him, preferred to live out there, rather than live a "normal" life. I CHOSE to let go of my worldly goods, save for a backpack that I carried around.

I kept faith in myself. I donated plasma, I worked a 1-2 days a week at a temp place.

I never had a lack of "necessities", such as food, water, clothes, books, or cigs(Lol, on the last one). At first, I still had my car(Beautiful black MX-6), but I like certain unnamed kid, lol, was driving it without a license. I got into a minor fender-bender and realized that:

1)It wasn't right for me to be driving without a license and insurance, as the person who I crashed with would have to rely on their insurance for something that I did.

2) I was STILL holding on to the "normal" life.

3) I had to let the car go(It was at the impound yard, with a minimal bill of $130, that my friends offered to help me pay, but I refused and thanked them.).

So..I let that last major possession go(Most of the time, I was just using it to sleep in, but no need for temptation, to violate the law, or for a "home" that countered why I chose to be homeless in the first place).

I went downtown, but..that wasn't appealing to me, as sleeping on the sidewalk, didn't sit well with me. I slept in a field by Elitches(One night on top of the building housing the giant aquarium, along with down by the stream, but...that didn't bode well with me either, as you still have to watch your back, thus, not much sleep(Denver).

I got to thinking of that man, previously stated, wasn't going to give up(I don't believe in quiting, though I do believe, now, in picking the worthy battles) and looked up, whilst at one of those rooms. A roof of a little strip mall is what I was looking at.

That night, I climbed the dumpster and pipes to get on top and explore. After going to the end of it, I found "my apartment"(Three walls and an entrance that I could lay "trip wires" to alert me). The pebbled roof was a bit rough, but I had packed a blanket that cushioned it. I had a booklight, and a bit of lighting from the street, so was able to read my favorite book, at the time, Marcus Aurelius' "Meditations".

I had a jug for water. I didn't have a ceiling, other than the sky, so I laid, on my back, looking at the stars and realized how small we are(As the song goes.).

During the early a.m., before daylight, I would climb down and bath in the faucet outside of one of the malls stores(I bathed every day, as I don't think that there is an excuse for keeping oneself gross of look, or gross of smell), then start walking toward one of the temp places(I, also, needed to be up before the shop owners got to work, as foot sounds on the roof tend to cause one to call the police, though I had chased off some people trying to cause trouble by entering a shops ceiling to break in, so I was helping their security. The bed place there may have been aware of this, or not, and left a, very mildly, torn one out for a few days, of which I used, from then on, to sleep on, up there.). If there wasn't any job, for the day, then it either became a "meeting" day, or a walk to explore the world around. That was really good for me, as I studied how nature does things, by the stream, at lakes, down the trails,etc. At times, I would stay out, most of the night, drinking coffee, reading at "Breakfast King" and observing people, with the occasional chat.

It wasn't terrible. Not even close. When I did have cash...I shared it with others, who needed it, or did random kind acts for those who were afraid to ask for help, but seemed to need it, like the homeless kids who were hungry, but too shy to ask others, and/or afraid of what others would want from them in return, and then I would move on, expecting nothing in return. Tell you what. THAT is a REALLY good feeling. Knowing that you are giving, just because... and never wanting, or expecting any reciprocation.

I did eat, a few times, at the charity food places, but...I find it wrong to have to listen to a sermon on "god" to have food that was donated(Blackmail, via propaganda for food), so skipped that, for the most part,(Not all places that give food assistance do this, so I kept away from the ones that did, after a couple of those experiences). For the record, a person who is, truly, hungry will say that they believe in your god, to get food, but it doesn't make it so. I never said I did, as I don't, and am anti-dishonesty, EVEN for nourishment. I, also, didn't waste my time in shelters(Instead, I put a ceiling, of sorts, on my place, via some hard, ridged, plastic, that I found).

I could go on and on about this time of my life, but...I'm trying to make some points here, so I'll start cutting to those points, that refer to the peole of the U.S.A.

A person never need be dirty, hungry, or without clothes, even when homeless.

When you think that you are the center of the world..take a REAL look at the world around you.

When you are snubbing those "scary" homeless people, by not even speaking to them, or looking at them, it speaks volumes of who you are in real life and...it doesn't say much about good moral character, for you.

Those who want to, CAN help themselves. Some just prefer the freedom of not living by societal norms. This does not make them bad or good. It just makes them a human who has chosen to use their freewill.

It is NOT necessary to beg for money, or food, when living on the streets. I NEVER did and functioned well, with no wants or needs unfulfilled. I, also, had no religion, as is true for me today.

Even the meekest of people can help another, if they put forth, by, SIMPLY, being an ear for them to voice their thoughts.

" If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swallowed their pride"



Everyone cries(I do every time I watch this video, at the greatness that humanity is capable of, when united in a cause, but the line here refers to whining about their problems, rather than helping the world.

Next song:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E0WYjqu9QwE

Artist(Band):Creed





One



Affirmative may be justified take from one give to another

The goal is to be unified take my hand be my brother

The payment silenced the masses sanctified by oppression

Unity took a back seat sliding further into regression



One oh One the only way is One

One oh One the only way is One

I feel angry I feel helpless, wanna change the world yeah..

I feel violent I feel alone, don't try and change my mind no..



Society blind by color why hold down one to raise another

Discrimination now on both sides seeds of hate blossom further

The world is headed for mutiny, when all we want is unity

We may rise and fall, but in the end we meet our fate together



One oh One the only way is One

One oh One the only way is One

I feel angry I feel helpless, wanna change the world yeah..

I feel violent I feel alone, don't try and change my mind no..

I feel angry I feel helpless, wanna change the world yeah..

I feel violent I feel alone, don't try and change my mind no..



I feel angry I feel helpless, wanna change the world yeah..

I feel violent I feel alone, don't try and change my mind no..

I feel angry I feel helpless, wanna change the world yeah..

I feel violent I feel alone, don't try and change my mind"



Now some points here:



" The payment silenced the masses sanctified by oppression

Unity took a back seat sliding further into regression"



People were given money, via the government "rebates", back a few years ago, to try to quiet their outrage at what the government was doing. THIS is becoming a recurring theme, with the new "rebate", as most U.S. citizens are starting to become infuriated, again, with the economy.

Keep that in mind when you vote, if it gets counted accurately, rather than "hacked", as the same theme of spending is staying with the party that has run things for 7 years, and on the other side...the person of such "great change" spent, and spent, and spent while in the Illinois State Senate(Not to be confused with the U.S. Senate, where he has positioned himself for committing to nothing, that could cause him to lose the presidency).

" I feel angry I feel helpless, wanna change the world yeah..

I feel violent I feel alone, don't try and change my mind no.."

I did feel this way, but.....

Humans are humans, and all are imperfect, so why get angry about it, or express oneself with violence(I know how odd that sounds coming from a person who used to fight so much, when I was younger, but time changes those who keep an open mind)?

ANYONE, big or small, can change the world, in some way.

If you don't like what is going on in the world, what are you doing to change that?

Don't feel "helpless"...be the change that you desire.

My mother didn't do such a wonderful job in raising me. Should I be the same, or should I try to be the difference that I needed and wanted. I have since "forgiven her", as she is entitled to be as imperfect as the rest of the world. This, also, applies to those who have done me wrong, purposefully, in the past. I forgive, and let it go, as it is old news, anyway, and nothing can be done to change that.

As far as trust goes...that is an earned thing, not, simply, given.



A last video:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=WCkQZOnCN3k

"Right Now"

The lyrics are good, but there is writing, further in the song, that expresses a theme.

Do things in the here and now.

Tomorrow may be too late(Think of that one globally).



"Don't wanna wait til tomorrow,

Why put it off another day?

One more walk through problems,

Built up, and stand in our way ,ah

One step ahead, one step behind me

Now you gotta run to get even

Make future plans, don't dream about yesterday, hey

C'mon turn, turn this thing around

Right now, hey

Its your tomorrow

Right now,

C'mon,its everything

Right now,

Catch a magic moment, do it

Right here and now

It means everything

Miss the beat, you lose the rhythm,

And nothing falls into place, no

Only missed by a fraction,

Slipped a little off your pace, oh,

The more things you get, the more you want,

Just trade in one for the other,

Workin' so hard, to make it easier, whoa,

Got to turn, c'mon turn this thing around

Right now, hey

Its your tomorrow

Right now,

C'mon, its everything

Right now,

Catch that magic moment, do it

Right here and now

It means everything

Its enlightened me, right now

What are you waitin' for

Oh, yeah, right now

(solo)

Right now, hey

Its your tomorrow

Right now,

C'mon, its everything

Right now,

Catch that magic moment, and do it right,

Right now

Right now, oh, right now

Its whats happening?

Right here and now

Right now

Its right now

Oh,

Tell me, what are you waiting for

Turn this thing around



Here's the other thread, in case you missed it:

http://tribes.tribe.net/rath/thread/f7524bb9-9112-41d6-a001-659497e345ee



Have great one, make a good difference to someone, or by doing something today and try to continue that tomorrow.

This isn't some "rah-rah" speech to get elected. This is the REAL difference that needs to happen in the world.

+SW->

P.S. Would someone tell Oprah that if she is so concerned about people, to simply donate 10% of her total worth and she can solve "world hunger", rather than pretending like she is "helping", by her show "writing off" or having items donated? Man..how long are people going to keep watching that hoax?
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Mon, February 18, 2008 - 11:20 PM permalink
This IS a serious post.

I sit and wonder, every time an election comes up; why people put all their "faith" in one person.

There's Obama, or McCain, right now, but I am talking about every couple of years this occurs.

Each President elected..there was something "special" about them in that moment, that they were elected, that, for the most part, went down the tube. YET, 2 to 4 years later...here we go again thinking.. *Well, that wasn't the guy, but look at THIS one*.

2 to 4 years later...you might say the same thing again.

*No, wait...THIS time, it IS about big CHANGE*

C'mon already. They ARE politicians. Having "faith" in them is more ridiculous than buying into some religious scam.

Yeah, some of them have balanced the budget(Do you get great rewards, such as a $100k+ job for balancing your checkbook?).

Yeah, some are "nice", or "likeable".

Yes, some make a minor change that helps a bit, but...do ANY of them stick by what they say that they do, or are about?

Then, we have the "faith" in news. Kind of like the, self proclaimed, "political experts" at CNN.

News isn't supposed to be about bias. It is supposed to be reporting, with an unbiased opinion, based on facts, much like a case that requires irrefutable evidence to convict a person. I sit and watch the news faithful, and wonder why I am not turning on some trash like "Entertainment Tonight", as it is the same quality of reporting.

Now, add in the "faithful". They are the ones who subscribe to the great "savior" politician, and the news "faith", as if it, truly, was written by the "Almighty One". They speak the propaganda, like it is fact. The proclaim of their "savior" being the only one who can "change the world", or like in the current rerun of candidates, the one who can "unite the world".

I find this whole behavior as repetitive and idiotic and think of this belief as somewhere on the border of insanity.

There isn't one person who can fix all your problems.

There isn't one person who can fix all of the U.S.A.'s problems.

There isn't one person that can fix all the world's problems.

If you think so...I think you are a fool.

Does this mean not to vote?

NO!

It means that people should take the time to research who they vote for and NOT believe what the "trusted news source" tells them is correct, as the news is all about what is going to give their network ratings, NOT about true facts.

"But why, oh why, would our trusted news source do this?", says the faithful one.

Because if they have higher rating, they get more money from advertisers, their stocks go up and they make money, etc.

Just like I say, where it relates to religion...don't trust in one source...explore for yourself, with an open mind, rather than closed to one ideology.

Who am I voting for?

The person that best serves my and my family's interest, in my opinion.

I came to this conclusion by what they have done, in their past and what their main target is for their own self interest.

All the rest of it is words and "dog and pony show".

ALL politicians lie.

To believe otherwise, might be going against one's political "faith", but it serves your life and household better, in the long run.

It's nice to be on the winning team, but....how many people who voted for Bush are standing up, cheering him on now?

Was that anti-Republican? I'd say the same about Carter too. Yeah, yeah...nice guy. He still didn't do squat, until after he was out of office.

I don't care if someone is old school, or new school.

I care about 3 things, as it relates to the future president:

1)Balancing the budget(If it doesn't happen soon...China can call in their "notes" that constitute 20-25% of our nation).

2)War: I don't think that we need to be getting into others problems, when we have too many problems to deal with at home.

3)Health care: When people stall off the doctors, as it cost too much, it creates bad health for all of us, as sicknesses get transferred by something as simple as a person "fighting off the flu". When you have health care, or a "sliding-scale", one tends to not stall off things and create an epidemic. Yeah, it may cost everyone a bit extra, but lives saved is more than worth it, even if we look at a percentage of the population...kids.

To those that speak the "holy" phrase of "No new taxes". Get a grip...if your car is failing, your roof is falling in, your kid is sick....

you HAVE to pay to fix the problem. Even, if that is only for parts, or medicine.

The same is true if you care to keep your country going.

Well, that is my "political faith". It may come across as agnostic/atheist, but the facts of the past and present, of politics, lead one to not believe in "saviors".

"Fool me once...shame on you. Fool me twice...shame on me."

What about the rest who are fooled every 2 to 4 years?

Are they just, generally, fools, rather than being fooled?

I don't know, as I haven't all the answers like the "saviors" and have bought a line or two, here and there, but...I do know that I don't vote "faithfully". I vote by what is right for myself and my family and, sometimes...humanity(As in health care and war).

How do you vote? Is it like that, or is it by waiting for a "feeling" that is the equivalent of eye contact, from a future lover, that sends tingles throughout you, and repent for sleeping with that person the next day when you have come to your senses?

Hey...it's only our country. No big deal.

+SW->
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Thu, April 3, 2008 - 4:29 PM permalink
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Shadow's yaps are located at....

I'll build on this later(I need sleep and this has been "spinning in my head for hours), but...f-sake...why are people so drawn to me that they will pursue me 7 years later in life?

THIS time, she found my myspace account, so I had to make it "private".

And people wonder why I don't say where I really live now or what my real name is???

There's your answer.

People who I wouldn't mind finding me, rarely do.

People who I don't want to know where I am..pursue me to the ends of the Earth.

This isn't a one time thing here.

One has left me alone for a few years now..so okay..she's done.

2 from tribe...have left me alone for a bit and other than some dork named Patrick that envies me enough to keep my name on his profile from a year plus ago...that all is done too.

My ex-wife from 7 years ago...she just won't let things go.

She, forever.... wants to be in my life, even after repeated statements of there is nothing more to talk about.

No, I didn't start the divorce, but... I let everything go with her...many years ago, moved forward in life and was fortunate enough to find happiness.

I sure as hell don't want the ex back in my life trying to destroy that happiness.

I'll build more later..to sleep I try to go.

+SW->

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Mon, May 5, 2008 - 4:13 AM permalink
I was at a dinner/auction/silent auction on Saturday for the American Lung Association and was a bit disturbed by what was said and applauded by the sheople(Was serving, not attending the affair).

The head person is giving the rah-rah speech, but throws in a part to have laws passed by 2010 for a nationwide ban

on smoking in public places by 2010, then...goes on to say that their goal is

"to have cigarettes eliminated by the year 2025, so the next generation doesn't, even know what cigarettes are."

Granted, I do not think that smoking is the best of things, but I don't buy into all the "evils" that are blamed on smoking either.

If these people had a chance..they'd proclaim that the heat of the cigarettes was causing global warming.

I got a bit peeved and went outside to...smoke a cigarette.

They may not realize the truth of it all, but..smoking saves people from having their ass kicked, on a daily basis, from people tired of those who would remove all the pleasures of life.

Smoking does protect lives.....the a-holes of the worlds lives.

:-)

Yes, I went back in and served with a smile.

Funny how the person giving the speech is so anti cigarettes, but had no problem offering me a drink of alcohol, while I was working and "wouldn't tell on me"(I said no).

I guess alcohol and ass is okay, but alcohol and ash isn't.

+SW->
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Mon, April 28, 2008 - 6:32 AM permalink
Sometimes, I am just not in the mood.

What do we have to talk about, that isn't, overly, done in the news(fictionally) or on a forum that seem s to thrive on drama or idiocy?

Yes, there are exceptions, otherwise I would be out the door completely.

I just wrote back to some tribe thread that was implying that the Jonestown suicides were, supposedly a mass homicide.

I find this idea idiotic. I try to take into account that a person writing it could be family connected and is still feeling the hurt.

Now, I have concluded that they are just being idiotic because they watched a PBS special.

For those who give their strength over to any religion, cult, person, whatever....it isn't THEIR fault. It is your own.

Nobody forces a person to do anything...it is always the person's choice on how they will react.

Honestly, had I been in that situation(Highly unlikely, as I don't let others rule my mind, so let's say.."visiting day" or the like), I would have taken it as my personal duty to do whatever was necessary to save the kids, remove the idiots with the guns, etc.

How weak is one's mind to buy into that b.s.???

I do see something similar, yet a little less dangerous with people jumping on a boat for religion, a politician, a "fellowship", etc., but...

life or death? Kids involved and a person does nothing???

I feel sorry for those kids.

The adults? Not remotely.

I'm a father.

I teach the child in my house what she needs so she isn't susceptible to those kind of con jobs.

I teach my kid about the real world, not the fiction brought to one by the media.

I teach what a honest day of work means.

I answer questions(Curtailing some for age, but they will be discussed later, when old enough.) that are asked,

rather than pretending that my child will always be a child.

She won't and she is growing quickly.

A quick prop to her, as she has worked hard to learn...she is in 5th grade and did the reading test(Whatever the current name of that one is, lol) and scored 12th grade/ 7th month.

I think that is awesome.

I helped her read, as she didn't know how when I first met her and was faking things by memorizing< long story>(Step-child, but..my full daughter as far as anyone is concerned that matters), but other than making her read 20 minutes a day, with a few exceptions of longer periods to learn about topics they fly by in school these days...she has taken that on her own and done well with it.

I am VERY proud of her!!!

She asked me today if she was a "geek", solely, based on her having the highest test score in her school.

I had to laugh, went through what she thinks a "geek" is and assured her she is not.

The reality is....she isn't even close to a "geek".

She pursues the goals she sets for herself.

She makes things happen.

She isn't disliked.

She is smart, though not to the point of no one can understand her.

She has a bunch of friends.

She skateboards, rides bikes, plays in the mud, cares about others, was elected to Student Council, sometimes likes "girly" things and sometimes is a "tomboy".

She's comedical, serious, "dark" and "light".

Yes, she needs glasses to read and that is about the only time you can find them on her, lol.

Honestly...she's a scary little individual.

Intelligent, street smart, etiquette smart, kind, loving and she'll have the boys pursuing her...

Screw that...I don't,even, want to imagine all the boys that I will be throwing over the bushes "Bundy" style, when that time, shortly, approaches.

She's 11 and hits middle school next year. Ay yi yi.

It, probably, wouldn't be a bad thing, if she weren't developing early, as boys have already been chasing her for years.

Add that in....I'm going to be stressing and trying to remember that the boys are just kids and are easy to dissuade, as they still fear parents, at this age, lol.

My point, beside the props for her, was that if a parent takes the time to talk to their kids about whatever issues and informs them of some of the bad truths of the world...they aren't likely to end up like the Jonestown people.

The other part, is it allows the kid to separate the good from the bad and pursue the opposite of the negative junk of life.

I do get that some people need to feel needed and that is why certain religions and/or fellowships have the ability to draw people in.

I don't care to feel needed, as it ends up having to lead and that gets tiresome when the sheople stop making decisions for themself.

I do like talking to people, but don't feel a desire to compromise myself or my beliefs just to make others "happy".

They want happiness...create it for themself. They're the only ones who know what will bring, themselves, true joy.

I stick by my belief that people draw to themselves those who are similar.

If I act fake..then I draw fake people to me.

If I am myself, then the people drawn to me(The one's not looking for a "leader") like the true me and accept that person.



Now, getting back to the original lead in of this thread...

I'm tired of talking politics.

I care about whether our country sinks or swims, but the only reality of that is going to be what the next president REALLY does, not all the speeches.

Personally, I want a robot to be elected that goes after health care like Hillary Clinton, fixes problems with the economy like Bill Clinton, cuts all the extra grants to organizations like McCain and REALLY keeps things positive like Obama has preached, but not practiced.

Since that isn't going to happen....I consider the budget the most important factor and, therefore, knowing from past experience with Bill Clinton, know the Clintons can fix that problem.

I don't care if she is a bitch.

I care about having a country.

No money, in one's household, means no house.

The same is true for a country.

On religion...I am an atheist and think that religion screws up the world.

Is that clear enough?

Cool, as I grow tired of reiterating these beliefs every time someone thinks they are going to change my view on them.

Yes, I did explore, greatly, the candidates and religions. I know where I stand and it wasn't due to a closed mind.



Knowing that I was tired of these things, is why I created my other two tribes, that relate to humor.

I needed a laugh and decided to share those laughs with others.

If it goes the way that, typically, happens on tribe.net(People taking, but not giving), then I will remove those tribes, in time.

I hadn't seen any humor tribes, so I created two. One for regular humor. One for humor that was a little more adult related,

or "politically incorrect".

Since then...I have found two other humor tribes on tribe.net, but....s'alright, as they aren't oriented, specifically, toward the way I view humor.

This site, as most of you know, is my general journal.

The exception to the rule, is that I let others peek into that journal and comment as they see fit(Keeping with the intro to this tribe and not doing the whole troll game, as I don't tolerate that).



My brain is a bit scattered tonight, as I have so many things going through it....I know some of this writing is jumbled.

I'd apologize, but..I don't feel sorry for having an overly active brain, so..won't apologize.



I saw a writing, earlier today, that had me thinking on "idols" or "heroes".

Understand that I am separating out the idols/heroes from those who provide a positive role model for kids, as those people I give respect to, but don't worship.

I don't have any now.

I did as a kid.

I used to kick myself for trading off and selling my George Brett cards as a kid.

I don't anymore. He's another fake, down to the bleach he used to have in his hair.

I know this from multiple personal encounters, not one judgement on him being caught in an off mood.

I still think that Cal Ripken was a great role model for kids.

I used to swear to my kids, back in the day about Hulk Hogan and Ultimate Warrior, from wrestling.

Hulk, at the same time as I was going through a divorce, changed everything about his "character",

forgot about his job as a role model with many children following his lead, and, essentially made me look like an ass,

during a bad time in my life. Not that he knew anything about that, but it took some time for me to not be pissed off about the timing of that conversion. Either way, he ended up as the "character" that he was when I was giving him props, thus teaching a bigger lesson in life....

people go through struggles(Even if fake), but their true "character" will come out in the end.

Ultimate Warrior?

I liked him. I think that his and Hulk's match for the championship was the best I have ever seen.

I found his blog on the past couple of years, as I was wondering if he would ever come back.

Some days I think he is kind of out there(I'm sure many people view me in the same way, lol).

Other days, he nails things on the head of the nail.

What I like most about him, whether he is being "dark" or "light" for the day?

He is true to who he is and doesn't really worry about others perception about that, except when acting in wrestling.

That's alright. I have to "act", sometimes, in my job too.

In real life, you won't find acting in me.

I say some statements that sound "screwed up", if you don't know me.

I sound "aggressive" in my writing.

It's called passion.

When I write, much of time, I speak my mind and it comes across clear, minus the part that others think I am pissed.

It takes wayyyyy more than some silly squabble on the net to get me pissed.

Try not to perceive things, in my writing, in that fashion and you may see something beyond the appearance.

In that way, he(U.W.) and I are similar.

He wears a painted mask, though is real to form in life.

I wear the painted mask of the silly internet, so you don't know me that well either.

You have assumptions, but they do no justice to who I am and...you wouldn't know who I was, unless you spent a month with me in real life.

I've someone explained this, a bit, before, but...I'll bring it a bit deeper.

I know what it is like to have much in money and to be living on the street.

I know what it is like to be the "good guy" and the "bad guy".

I know what it is like to be the happy husband and the guy who is happy just being with friends and needs/desires no relationship.

I know what it is like to be ultra religious and to be an atheist.

I know what it is like to fulfill dreams and to have them crushed.

I know what it is like to experience the fullness of outdoor life or to be sucked into just writing on a computer, for a bit.

I know what it is like to lose or choose to walk away from an emotional battle, but have never lost a physical fight.

I know what it is like to be proud and to be humble.

I know what it is like to be assumed as dense(Mostly, due to my size and length of hair) and to be perceived as a genius(My denseness shows when I try to understand the whole of relationships, but by school standards and street standards...I am a genius. (Whoop-dee-doo).

I know what it is like to be the teacher and to be the student(You can't learn anything, if you think you know everything. Genius or not..there's always something to learn).

I know these things from REAL life, not some fictional character that I created on the net.

If you aren't out living life, experiencing life...you need to get a life.

If you are only a "taker" in life...you need to start giving back.

Why don't I write much in here?

There's much in the taking category going on, but not many that are giving back and it seems like a waste of my time.

I spend time in forums for interaction. I can hear my thoughts any moment of the day.

This may be my journal, per say, butI have opened it up for others to discuss...whatever.

If that is confusing, as it may be, consider it like I handed you my journal and told you to write something in it for us to talk about.

I mean, if you are here, then there has to be some reason for it, that relates to my thoughts.

Want to know my thoughts on things I don't cover?

Start a thread.

Just don't try to convert me to a religion, or that fake "character" running for political office, okay?

I don't think much of either of those two things.

On the former, it has to do with experience and exploration.

On the latter, it has nothing to do with his shade...it has to do with his character and I think he is a "playa" in everything, in life.



Almost forgot...

I brought up Ultimate Warrior and forgot to mention a really cool thing.

He's, finally, returning to wrestling.

Though it's just entertainment..I like the idea, as my daughter, and avid wrestling junkie, has only heard talk of him, or seen some of the older videos.

I want her to experience the Warrior; to see how most of the characters don't hold up to the standards that were set..back in the day.

Hopefully, he makes it to WWE, as he is doing the UK wrestling, upon his return.

The big difference between he and I... I , sometimes, soften my blows, as I try to understand people, a bit, better before making a presumption.

Not always, but I think it is better to know much of a situation before drawing a conclusion.

For that reason, I don't, always, write to a current topic, because once I start writing...I don't delete anything written, unless I have misspelled, or gone back, time permitting, and drawn the conclusion that a sentence was fractured and needs to be edited to make sense.

Thought wise...I do not edit.

Since this post has jumped through many hoops: I might as well finish it with something reacted and...unrelated...

"Do not follow where the path may lead. Go, instead, where there is no path and leave a trail."*Ralph Waldo Emerson*



Keeping that in mind....

"Live your dreams, or die wanting"* +SW-> *





















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