joined on 02/14/07
last updated 04/07/08
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about me
I'm sensual. I'm emotional. I'm chaotic. I hurt, I love, I bleed and I cry.
I think he just likes to fuck with my brain...
(blog entry)
so...
During my lesson, my teacher picked out the things that screw me up the most in sight reading, and said that that would be exactly what's on my sight-reading for my audition into a group I wanted into (he was the main auditioner). So, I w...
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professors...
(in Dirty lil Secrets)
I've always had a thing for older male teachers.
and then I started taking private Music lessons from Mr. Johnson... he's also my conductor, so I see him alot and he controlls most of my musical life. for about the last year, if not year and a...
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discussion post on Tue, May 6, 2008 - 8:56 PM
Re: Butt Fucking
(in al of your sexual fantasys in this tribe)
Gosh... I want that sooo much right now.... I'm pulsating just thinking about it-- it's been so long, but my boyfriend really isn't into the whole anal thing; he doesn't get it all. but oooh such different sensations.... ghhaaa!
discussion post on Tue, May 6, 2008 - 8:45 PM
Re: Gangbang
(in Cyber orgy)
*shyly enters room and slips robe off shoulders. Blushing lightly, I twist my body, concious I could be rejected, exalting in the vulnerability*
discussion post on Tue, May 6, 2008 - 8:38 PM
Re: Reverse DeJevu
(in PROPHETS and VISIONARIES... WE ARE...)
thank you very much; it's a great reminder that I have control over my own relationships and destiny.
Why the situation that I had reverse DeJevu about was scary to me, was because I was already dead. Couldn't do anything about it... I do think...
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discussion post on Sat, April 26, 2008 - 7:32 AM
so...
During my lesson, my teacher picked out the things that screw me up the most in sight reading, and said that that would be exactly what's on my sight-reading for my audition into a group I wanted into (he was the main auditioner). So, I worked my ass off and fixed the rhythms... went in, did okay-ish... then got my sighreading, something completely different then what he said I would have. I played it... okay... whatever...
I leave, kind of feeling like I didn't do well and I'd be...
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had a great day today...
until I was riding the MAX home...
ran into my piano teacher from last trimester...
started talking about family and religeon...
and he started to try and convert me for the next hour...
trying to convince me that Christianity was not only viable but the way, the truth, and the life...
I feel so bad about all the times that I tried to convert people...
please forgive me, my brainwashed child self that was 6 years ago...
I promise I'll never, e...
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So elusive. So finite. Used to describe a world so broad in emotions, colors and meanings. As I think back over the last year and a half, before that to when I was still living with my family. Memories so sharp and painful; stained in blood and pain. Seeking for a language more dramatic, more encompassing then that which we've cultivated. I remember how the fingers dug into my shoulders, my fathers' vengeful, spiteful words stabbing into my soul, telling me i was guilty of his sins. The bru...
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I believe in many, many gods. Now, that is not to say that I follow many gods or goddesses. I just believe they exist- it all depends on each person's true desires and motivations. I also believe you can only really, truly, serve one goddess... and if you're lucky take another one as a "hobby" god. I mean to say, something will always demand all of your attention. The things in your life are always going to demand more attention. It's a matter of what your priorities are that details how you...
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Prelude:
The lead professor of my music school is not well thought of. I had tried to not develop a dislike for him, because he is the head professor and I used to respect him. But sense I've been at my school I've noticed more and more things that I don't like (including his conducting, his aura, how he carries himself and how he relates to others). The other students bitch about said teacher constantly in the StudentLounge between classes, trying to figure out what we should do a...
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""Classical music lovers,
* sex talk *,
**TAROT**,
*+I AM awakening, now what?+*,
*Band Geeks*,
al of your sexual fantasys in this tribe,
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ChakraTribe,
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Craft of the Wise,
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Dirty lil Secrets,
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