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4Gotten One

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Re: So confused and alone (in Limerence Experienced) I will tell you what I often have to tell myself when I have those thoughts. If he wants to talk to you, he will. He will go out of his way to check, e-mails, texts, etc. If he is busy, he will at least check in and let you know that much. He will... read more
discussion post on Fri, November 27, 2009 - 9:54 PM
Re: Outcomes of Limerent Experience while Married (in Limerence Experienced) I consider myself still recovering, though I don't think I am "in love" with LO anymore. I am in love with the illusion that I thought was a man I loved. In my case, LO purposely pretended to be someone I would fall in love with...having known me ... read more
discussion post on Fri, November 27, 2009 - 9:45 PM
Re: LOs with multiple victims (in Limerence Experienced) Read some of my posts. My LO leaves a wake of destruction in his path. He is not attractive or successful but is great at pretending to be everything you want until you are hooked. The games he plays and the manipulation leave you confused and uns... read more
discussion post on Sat, November 7, 2009 - 11:01 PM
My crazy story, from the top (blog entry) Bear with me because it will be a long story. I have been very humbled by all of this and I have wondered lately what the purpose was in all of it. Now, I am starting to see that purpose.

I will say that this is an ongoing struggle for me. My f... read more
blog entry posted Mon, May 25, 2009 - 12:45 AM permalink - 6 comments
Sweet liberty or the calm before the storm? (blog entry) I'm feeling very sane today. I feel as though something is different in me. I can't quite quantify it but my perspective is shifting. Does this mean that I am FINALLY moving forward? I don't know because I felt that way before.

The last time i... read more
blog entry posted Wed, May 6, 2009 - 4:12 PM permalink - 1 comment
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Bear with me because it will be a long story. I have been very humbled by all of this and I have wondered lately what the purpose was in all of it. Now, I am starting to see that purpose.

I will say that this is an ongoing struggle for me. My fear is (and partially by his own admission) is that if I revealed this to my husband that it would not only shake his faith but could possibly land him in jail. There may be a day that I will share this with him, but for now I really do feel like I s... read more
Mon, May 25, 2009 - 12:45 AM permalink - 6 comments
 
I'm feeling very sane today. I feel as though something is different in me. I can't quite quantify it but my perspective is shifting. Does this mean that I am FINALLY moving forward? I don't know because I felt that way before.

The last time it was horrible words that shifted my focus forward and away from the obsession. This time, I was in the midst of a horrible e-mail and as He always seems to do, God intervened through a sweet friend and her prayers. Just as I was about to hit the sen... read more
Wed, May 6, 2009 - 4:12 PM permalink - 1 comment
 
I think this week is some kind of turning point for me. I'm not sure what, but there is something going on. I have been back on that crazy emotional roller coaster this week, vascillating between total sanity and absolute obsession.

This place that I am......this alternating dark and light......has to be a lesson. I have absolutely humiliated myself over and over again, trying to fathom the unfathomable. How did I get here...to THIS place? How do I get back where I was? Do I even want to ... read more
Fri, May 1, 2009 - 2:44 PM permalink - 1 comment
 
Today was a much better day. I feel great about everything and I am optimistic that I can get past this place. I haven't quite managed to get my mind totally off of the current distraction but that day will come.
Wed, April 29, 2009 - 4:36 PM permalink - 0 comments
 
I can really relate to this poem in regards to a relationship I had. I wanted to share it.


Lovesong

He loved her and she loved him.
His kisses sucked out her whole past and future or tried to
He had no other appetite
She bit him she gnawed him she sucked
She wanted him complete inside her
Safe and sure forever and ever
Their little cries fluttered into the curtains

Her eyes wanted nothing to get away
Her looks nailed down his hands his wrists his elbows
He gripped... read more
Mon, April 27, 2009 - 11:23 AM permalink - 0 comments
 
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