I couldn't sleep. The accident was a constant memory playing over in my head. Every time I would close my eyes, I kept thinking about what if I had died, what if I had lived and killed my roommate, or if we were paralyzed or anything. Why weren't we? What does it mean? This kept me from getting sleep for a few weeks until finally my body sick from exhaustion, I collapse in my bed. I contemplated how I was going to be able to afford to repay my roommate for the truck and motorcycle I destroyed. I thought maybe this was a wake up call to take my life in a new direction. I don't even remember falling asleep that night. I just remember this booming voice ask me "Do you believe in destiny?" Without hesitation I responded, "Yes". Before I could react, I felt my body moving as if I was being pulled forward by something, it was completely dark all around me. It felt like I was moving upward at an incline, I said to myself "Don't panic you are only dreaming", all of a sudden there was a light in the distance, I was traveling towards it and it seemed to have a hum coming from it. As I got closer, it grew stronger until I was engulfed in the light and standing directly in front of a Man. He stood about 6'1" with very broad shoulders, dark skin, a long beard and a long white robe. He reminded me of someone, but I couldn't place who it was. I asked him, "are we related?" and just then the light that surrounded us separated into 7 spheres and formed a circle about 25 feet in circumference. They slowly rotated around us clockwise. They were humming as if an electric current was running through them. "Who are you?" I asked, and his voiced came through the seven glowing spheres as if they were amplifiers. "You come from a bloodline of great warriors, your ancestors were betrayed and they are seeking justice." He continued, "You were selected at your birth, to be given a very special gift of guidance and protection, in adverse, you were tested time and again. You were born at a very crucial time in history, and just as I have led, you to will lead if you choose to accept your destiny." His voiced turned cold and direct, "If you choose to not accept who you are, you will not only be turning your back on yourself, but the people who love you, care about you, and know who you are." Then his voice grew louder "What do you choose? Do you accept this gift?"
"I accept" I said as I remembered my mentor once telling me something about paying attention to what the universe is showing me, and not to marvel at it in wonder. The next thing I remember happening is we were suddenly in a palace. It looked like a fortress of some kind. The man who was talking to me then said. "My name is Tariq, and you and I share the fact that we are warriors, but we are also from the same blood, for we are one." I couldn't tell if he meant that I was his descendant, or a reincarnation of him. Although we did not look alike, I certainly felt like I was looking at myself in another body, and in another time. "You come from a family of healers, teachers, communicators, artists, inventors. You come from a family of great Warriors. Your family was brought to North America by kidnappers, and tortured with servitude. 7 generations later you are born as the seal of a sacred covenant of our family." I stood there at attention as if I was receiving direct orders from my superior officer. " You must restore unity consciousness to the masses through the alumbra vibration." All of a sudden again we were surrounded by light. I couldn't see anything except Tariq. "You were given a gift at your birth, your were also tested, and no matter how hard times got for you, no matter how impossible your obstacles have seemed, you have always overcome them. Now I am giving you your final gift. That gift is purpose. No matter how impossible your obstacles seem, with purpose you can do the impossible. Use your gifts that you were given at birth to change your life, then use it to change the people around you, then the greater community, your nation and the world. For the time is at hand. Go forward without fear, the seven alumbra are around you." "What is the 7 alumbra?" I asked, and just then the sun peaked through the window and I awoke. I immediately grabbed my notebook and pen to jot down what I remembered. I didn't remember everything, only pieces at first. The name Tariq, the light, the palace, the 7 alumbra, the hum, the gift, spheres of light. The more I wrote, the more I began to remember.

-- To be continued
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