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artist, mom, 2 boys, 17 & 24...live in the northern catskills, lived in Wellfleet on Cape Cod for many years...great place but too expensive to live there now... creating art and community serving Spirit........so here I add excerpts from my journal entry from BEING at Alex and Allyson Grey's intensive and the COSM fire...it sums up where I am in my life at this time.....see the whole thing at my link to my blog & piks...

July 14..So this is my report on my time at Omega Institute in the Visionary Art Intensive with Alex and Allyson Grey. It has been ..... I'm wordless... probably because I am sleep-deprived. I'll just say that for me, it will profoundly impact my art and life. I had been looking for a container for the need to use my art as service, and I have found it, and much more.
It will take a few days, I think, to become solid again, I have been so opened up. Especially the third eye.... Yes, Virginia, there really is a third eye.
July 18 ......excerpts from my journal during the intensive and shortly after....
7/10- Quickly before the battery in the flashlight goes- drumming! Dancing! Yoga! swimming, crazy painting! it's after midnight!
7/11- am so far this has been a great experience. So many cool people here - such energy... There was drumming in the space where we paint last night, so lots of sweaty bodies undulating & stomping- I danced some, painted some.
7/11 pm about 10:30....a dream of mating wasps now a painting... such a journey..a trip.. to be here! Very aware of ego stuff.. insecurities coming up.. body image..age....Hmmmm...
7/12 late... 1am.. more ego stuff.. did a painting of the wounded ego party, may as well invite them into my awareness and embrace them. ...Showed Alex my work, got some feedback, esp w/ the ego one.. he felt it was my strong point & to pursue inner work art.. Hmmmmm..
Even with the uncomfortable ego stuff it has been a blessed, wonderful, mind-blowing, transformative week!.. It's like the cutting edge of the transformative, visionary society - what an honor to a part of it!
7/13 Glimpses of a deeper reality.. the veil is thinned.. rather open to it- visions, emotionally open and grateful.. a LARGE meaning of art. of soul. seeing. not wanting the gap to close up.
(later. written 7/18, about the morning of 7/13) :
Last Friday Allyson and Alex led a long meditation that morning connecting us to the spectrum of the universe.."we are connected. we are one." with Peter Gabriel's Last Temptation of Christ soundtrack.. was powerful - I had my sacred objects laid out before me.. I was overcome emotionally in joy and gratitude. a release.. We were to wait for a vision of unity; I got a whole movie! I remember parts.. then I received a more sustained vision of a glyph.. a sort of backward "L"... I've had the same glyph appear in dreams since then.
7/14:Currently sitting in a diner, needing to eat and REALLY needing to sleep! where to begin..
There was a COSM fire dance/drum thing @ the Center for Symbolic Studies last night, near New Paltz. I went with my new friends Rani and Ian. I have no words for how amazing it was! Imani, shaman woman, led.. Many people from all over.. I really liked the self-ornamentation and celebratory dress of many there.. There was an incredible fire performance.. with wonderful dancers, a story with spider web motif, the dark and the light, war, death, renewal... fire blowers, twirlers; web, cosm symbol & infinity symbol structures lit on fire.. Later the fire with drumming all night, music, dancing, singing, poetry....I was so honored to be there to participate/witness! Again, some holding back of total spontataeity, but much softer and I honored IT, too.
The message, or intent, of the fire circle- LOVE, NOT FEAR. We are ONE and it is our sacred duty to use our talents to save humanity from self-destruction. HEALING. from individual to planetary. Being the healers. I feel I have found the matrix for what I want for my art and life. I need to create something to transport me into this space I'm in now and not lose access. For me the challenge will be to return to 'life' and esp. my relationships & maintain this opening and sense of purpose.