So it has already been a long day today and it is only 2:30. Why I even came back up here this weekend is now behind me. I spent the entire time up here completely by myself.
It is I am finding so hard to let go of something that is no longer mine. If I keep myself busy I don't think about it and I get strong and then I take ten steps back like this weekend. I should of never come back up here. It would be easier if the cats were with me, but since I am staying with a friend that is not easy to do.
Oh, I just am feeling sorry for myself now-a-days.
I guess I will try and stay strong next weekend and not come back up North and find things to keep myself busy someplace else.
love
autumn