but he didn't kick my ass! I was so proud of ME! HE came over tonight between jobs, just to visit me and damn was I good! He talked and talked about how happy he is, how fulfilled he is and how much he loves her... I talked about how happy I am, how fulfilled I am, and how much I am in love with ME! I felt so damn good knowing full well that he didn't have that effect on me, that he didn't make me feel like I am less than, that we could sit and talk as true friends, I could actually be happy for him, and not wish that I was the one causing his happiness...it is nice to move on, it is wonderful to know that I am not defined by him anymore, that I can be ok with him being with someone else... because I know that he still cares about me... it is not an end but the beginning... the beginning of a beautiful, REAL friendship!

Good things happen to bad people, and bad things happen to ME! The lovable loser strikes again! So last night I was all set to go home from work, snuggle down on my couch and just veg, watch tv! But AHA! Someone had a cunning plan for me... a plan so cunning you could brush your teeth with it!!! I plug in the ancient space heater that my uncle gave me (as my furnace is STILL not functioning) and pow! sizzle, bloooop... out goes all the electric in my living room! So I spent about 45 minutes switching on and off the circuit breakers to no avail. Needless to say, I am Job, no electric in my living room, no heat in my hovel, no man in my bed... what a winner!
I am just going to smile... and keep smiling until my face cracks!

working in a psych clinic has tweeked my interest in all things psychological... today's word of the day is a phobia and one that makes me giggle!

Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- fear of LONG words!

At first I thought someone was taking the "mickey" but then I found it on the AMA web site and it was confirmed as true!

alone again, naturally... It is funny how things work out! Everyone I know has thier special someone, a wife, a husband, a girlfriend, a boyfriend, a friend with benefits, and I have no one. I have tried Match.com, Cupid.com, and I am getting hits, but that is it... hits! I don't understand it, I am smart, funny and not hideous looking, it makes me think that I will never find that someone who makes me say "oooooh" ever again! There is this one guy, who I cannot stop thinking about, but he told me he just ended a relationship and doesn't want to start anything, I was doing really, really well at not taking it personally (because I take EVERYTHING personally) but now I am starting to think there is something wrong with me. I know that I cannot base my whole existence on someone else, or count on another person to complete me, but dammit, it would be nice to be someone's special someone! and SMOOCHING, I MISS SMOOCHING! Ok, I know blogging isn't the place for whining, and it seems like I have been doing ALOT of that lately, but bleech! I guess the trade off is that I have a wonderful job, fabulous friends and cats who love me more than catnip! Still..... I can hope right?

ah, the holidays! What a joy it is to get together with your family and enjoy a meal.... BLEECH! I hate Thanksgiving almost as much as I hate Christmas!!! My grandmother, who I love more than anything else in the entire world, decided that even though she tells me that leaving my ex-hub was the best decision I ever made, that she should try to get us back together yesterday... "D**, give Michele a kiss, D**, give Michele a hug!" I thought I was going to puke! Thankfully D** was his normal self absorbed self and he chose to ignore her. I told her "Nana, we aren't married anymore" she told me to shut up because it was the holidays! YAHOO! Yipeee yea! I think I am going to spend Christmas with my cats!