A Feeling
An Authentic Feeling
I didn’t know that there were regulations and parameters on feelings
An even more constructive way of feeling without offending others
And keeping it on myself
Staying true to myself
Understanding myself
Now I see –now I know
I’m abrasive; it’s true –when sharing my feelings
I’ve lost many on the way to finding me
However, one thing is true that I learned long ago
That what I’m feeling, is just a feeling
And that doesn’t make what I feel true or real
I understand this much about myself
Though often disguised, it’s Fear
Fear of not being:
Good enough
Smart enough
Pretty enough
Thin enough
Fear of being left behind
And other bedroom monsters from childhood tears
So, I’ll take the new tools that have been given to me
And I’ll use them wisely
To banish Fear from my Kingdom
And try to speak from the truest part of me
First I have to learn to crawl
Before I can walk