joined on 09/01/06
last updated 12/07/08
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about me
I'm a stay-at-home-mom of two boys, married for ten years this past summer. I'm also a writer, though unpublished as of yet. I'm a scorpio, deep and emotional by my very nature, tend to be secretive and I tend to crave close connections with people. I tend to like the deeper side of life, but that can very easily wear you out, and being serious has it's place. I also love to laugh. It's what I love about my husband--he can crack my serious side like nobody else.
I'm that person people come to when they need someone to lean on, when they need someone to talk to, and strangers often find themselves telling me their life stories. There are few people I *can't* get along with and usually not by any fault of my own. I hate conflict. But I also have a tendency to want to take care of everyone else a bit too much.
These days, I feel as if I'm just waking up from a long sleep, like I've been asleep for most of my life. I'm getting to know myself in ways that astound me and I feel more alive now than I have in years.
Asborbing Again
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I think I've been absorbing again. Funny how subconscious it is and how vigilant I think I need to be. But I know I've been doing it (absorbing) because I've gained back ten pounds and I'm exhausted all the time. I've taken to taking naps in the a...
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Decoding Symbols recieved in meditation
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Tried to meditate this morning, felt the need to, but I couldn't connect. I'm still locked up tight. I couldn't get into the garden today, couldn't even see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I did a few times find myself standing in front of...
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Contact with my spirit Guide and some interesting news about the red-headed spirit
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I'm learning that this guide of mine is a very gentle, very patient spirit. I felt him a bit yesterday morning sometime. I don't recall why I was there, but I'd followed Chris into the bedroom, I like to do that whenever he's in the bathroom, make...
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I have most definitely met my spirit guides
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I believe I have two of them. There are two spirits around me. After my conversation with shep yesterday morning, I feel more open, which I'm told is very normal. It's easier to open up in a group like that, hence the reason they have spiritual de...
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More odd dreams--a letter from a spirit?
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Last night the being in my room left. He just wasn't there. Someone, however, WAS in the room, in other corner, which is where I store my exercise ball. This one I get the strongest feeling is grandpa. It's a very soft presence, which is how I fee...
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I think I've been absorbing again. Funny how subconscious it is and how vigilant I think I need to be. But I know I've been doing it (absorbing) because I've gained back ten pounds and I'm exhausted all the time. I've taken to taking naps in the afternoon again. I'm overwhelmed lately. I definitely see where the vampire I saw in my one meditation came from. I'm being drained, not on purpose, but it's exhausting and I'm having trouble functioning beyond the basics, not to mention I've gone bac...
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Tried to meditate this morning, felt the need to, but I couldn't connect. I'm still locked up tight. I couldn't get into the garden today, couldn't even see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I did a few times find myself standing in front of a dark door, as if my belly was pressed against it. Nothing happened when I knocked, so I opened it, but nobody was there. I couldn't see the path leading up to the pond, I saw the bench and the tree, but just barely, and my guide wasn't there. I co...
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I'm learning that this guide of mine is a very gentle, very patient spirit. I felt him a bit yesterday morning sometime. I don't recall why I was there, but I'd followed Chris into the bedroom, I like to do that whenever he's in the bathroom, makes me feel close to him for some dumb reason, as I like to listen and watch him get ready for a shower. I bet that was it. I was watching/listening to him get ready for his shower.
Anyway. I laid on our bed then, sort of on my tummy, in that posit...
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I believe I have two of them. There are two spirits around me. After my conversation with shep yesterday morning, I feel more open, which I'm told is very normal. It's easier to open up in a group like that, hence the reason they have spiritual development circles, to share the energy. But I've seen two of them. Or felt anyway. There's the big guy shep told me about. Metatron? I don't know. But he's got wings, because Matthew's seen them. He's very majestic, very strong and very gentle, but v...
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Last night the being in my room left. He just wasn't there. Someone, however, WAS in the room, in other corner, which is where I store my exercise ball. This one I get the strongest feeling is grandpa. It's a very soft presence, which is how I feel the loved ones. They don't make me nervous. But I had a weird dream last night, once again in the hour, hour and a half after my husbvand gets up to get ready for work. I get a lot of messages then, and I don't understand why. But I started waking ...
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