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Frustrations

Anikka — Wed, 13 Feb 2008 16:17:35 GMT

As you all know I've been going through a little battle with pain. I've tried many treatments and meds to take care of this. I have found one medicine that works great. It's called Topamax. It's actually an antiseizure medicine. It works well with nerve pain, which is what I have. I love the fact that I don't have to take pain pills anymore. It's freaking awesome. I've been on pain pills for 3 years. I was so happy to find something that I could take that really took my pain away. Unfortunately this medicine has been coming with some yucky side effects. I can't wake up at all on this medicine. It gives me the worst medicine hang over ever. I also get some really yucky tingly fingers and toes. Oh and no appetite whatsoever. Which in turn makes me feel all slugish and weak. I do make myself eat. But the feeling tired all the time is starting to get to me. I don't it every once and awhile, but all the time, it gets to me. I'm hoping all of this will go away after I adjust to my new dose. I hate how this whole situation has been such a battle for me. I know that I am lucky. I know that there are people in the world that have it was worse of than me. They have so many things wrong that my problem really isn't that bad. But some days, it really is for me. There are some days that yeah, my pain still is bad and I don't want to get off the couch. I hurt and it sucks. If surgery wasn't so risky I would do it again. I do try not to let this get to me. Some days are good, some days are bad. I guess today is just a down day because I woke up late with tingly hands.

Doing my part

Anikka — Thu, 30 Aug 2007 18:48:24 GMT

Ok, so a friend of mine told me that it take 1,000 years to decompose a plastic bag. That just made my poor little brain hurt. Then she showed me these. http://www.lehmans.com/jump.jsp?itemID=6966&itemType=PRODUCT They are these awesome bags that fit neatly into a grocery cart. They hold up to 40 lbs. and they come in a set of two for $12. I'm sure some of you already take your own bag to the store. But these are roomy and durable. I am guilty of taking a plastic bag from the store every single time I go. Now I have this huge collection of them in my pantry that I don't want to just toss because they take so long. I don't know who recycles them either. Anyway, just wanted to pass these nifty bags on to everyone! Oh and there are some other cool things on this site as well.

I'm really pissed

Anikka — Sat, 16 Jun 2007 06:49:11 GMT

THis is an update to my Miracles post. My cousin Bobby passed away this evening. I just don't understand. I was lucky and got to see him today before he died. But the reason why I'm so pissed is because he was 18. I'll say it again, he was 18. There is no reason why an 18 year old kid should have to die. There is no reason why a kid as good as he was should leave. He was funny, smart, and getting ready to play football for Marshall University. He had his entire life ahead of him. Everyone keeps telling me "he's in a better place now, he's with God" well you know what? I call bullshit. I want him here with me. I want him here so I can keep playing poker with him. I want him here so I can take him out to a bar. I want him here so I can tell him I love him again. I just want him here. I just can't accept this. I know that these are selfish reasons, but he was such a good kid. He would have made and excellent husband and father. I know this is filled with so much negativity, but right now, I just don't know how else to feel and I don't know how to deal with it all.

Miracles

Anikka — Thu, 14 Jun 2007 05:17:07 GMT

I wanted to share this story with you all. Sunday afternoon I got a very sad phone call from my dad letting me know that my 18 yr. old cousin Bobby was in a very bad car wreck. At the time they didn't have many details. That night I got a phone call saying that he had a fever of 108 and that he had major swelling around his brain and a blood clot in the brain. Monday morning I got a phone call saying that there was no activity in his brain and that I needed to come to WV to help prepare his funeral. I came home (WV) Monday to be with my family. They had Bobby on life support to save his organs because he was going to be an organ donor. I guess that there are tests and a time period you have to wait before you harvest them. Tuesday rolls around and they took him off of life support to go harvest the organs and right before they were getting ready to take them, someone in the OR noticed his eyes moving. They called us and Aunt Melanie and Uncle Bob flew down there to be with him. SInce Tuesday morning, Bobby has coughed, tried to scratch his face, he's squeezed a hand. Today they took him off of sedation for a few minutes and asked him to hold up two fingers. He held up his whole hand. The dr.'s have said that they haven't seen or heard anything like this before. They have called it a miracle. Bobby has a twin sister Maggie, a 15 yr. old brother Mack and a 12 yr. old brother John. I have been here with them since Monday and I can't even begin to tell you how strong these kids are. There are about 20-25 kids here a day that are friends with Maggie and Bobby. I has been a hell of a few days emotionally but you know what? This is the first time in my life that I actually belive in miracles. If you guys don't, please look at the the following web site and read the story. I'm so exhausted right now that I'm sure I'm missing stuff. Go to www.wsaz.com and read all about it. I'm writing now to let everyone know that miracles do happen and until this week I was not at all a believer. I hope all of you read this and call your family and friends and let them know how much you love them.

Poi... woo hoo!

Anikka — Mon, 18 Dec 2006 18:00:07 GMT

Ok, so I have no freaking clue how to post a video on tribe. So I'm going to just copy and paste the link from youtube. Go check it out if you love poi. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Hu2g5h0hNM It is a video of A Maori Poi Kapa Haka performance in New Zealand and it will make you smile, I promise. :)

Abuse

Anikka — Tue, 26 Sep 2006 18:41:29 GMT

I have to vent this one. I have a friend who was in a bad relationship. She gave the asshole another chance and sure enough, his true colors came out and he beat her. She just sent me the pics and wow, this was more than just a black eye. It was a beating. I just can't believe that people can be so heartless. I think it's a shame that so many women go through this and are so scared to discuss it let alone do anything to the bastard that did it to them. I am very guilty of this too. I know what she's going through, I've been there but I just don't know how to give support. She's in GA and I'm in KY. It's so hard to comfort someone who's so far away. Also, I know when you are going through it, the last thing you want to deal with is cops and all of that but I feel that if guys like this had to pay the price for being a spineless prick, maybe it would stop them from repeating these horrible actions in the future. I just hate sitting here feeling useless when she is alone and hurting and scared. I wish that I could stop the pain for her and do a number to him.

Food quarks

Anikka — Fri, 26 May 2006 17:24:58 GMT

Here's another fun question. I ask stuff like this all the time just because it's fun to know little things like this that may not normally come up in conversation. This one is food quarks. For me and Mindy, we don't like cheese. To most people that is really strange. I don't eat it on pizza, burgers, nothing. Never have liked it. So now I'm dying to know if anyone else has anything strange. My neighbor doesn't like his sauce touching his noodles when he eats spaghetti. I thought that one was very odd. Have fun with this one!

Super Powers

Anikka — Thu, 25 May 2006 14:07:41 GMT

Here's a fun question for my first post. If you could have any super power, what would it be? I'm only thinking about this because I'm super excited for the X-Men 3 movie to come out this weekend and it made me think about powers and what not. I would love to be able to fly I think. I would just fly around and enjoy the view without the bother of people or cars or anything like that. Just me and the birds. Anyway, hope everyone has fun with this one!