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Will life get any easier????
Well, after returning from Princeton last weekend, I went to my doctor to get my weekly injections. I felt fine but presented with a couple of probs (ones I've had )for the past 7 months. Well, this time she decided to send me to the hospital once again. This time they admitted me, started an IV (the only time I've had an IV that was painful because the staff at cooley suck and can't do anything right) and monitored my contractions at 1-2 minutes apart and lasting a minute each . .. . really really really bad. When I had Ash and Josh they were 11 minutes apart. Unfortunately the reason i delivered them when i did is because the fuck tard resident who brutally examined me broke my water. I should have sued the cunt like my ex husband insisted. Anyway, since none of my doctors seem to know what the fuck they're doing, I don't really trust them. I was told my tests were perfect and I'm not due to deliver any time soon (heard those words before). Yet, somehow the frequent contractions have caused me to be 80% dilated??? Um yeah, Right. Of course this is a subjective measure but to be dilated this early is super horrible. The docs ended up transferring me to baystate the next day where i stayed overnight. I'm working with the high risk docs there as well as northampton doctors but I'm transferring all of my care back to baystate because cooley dickinson is a horrible hospital with no experience whatsoever with less than perfect pregnancies. If a woman can easily deliver a baby on her own by herself at home, she'll go to Cooley to say she delivered in a hospital. they don't know what the hell they're doing. I use to work there and know so many people who have worked and currently work there and they all agree. ANyway, they are not a level 3 hospital and would have to transfer me to baystate if anything was not perfect.I had many tests and two injections of steroids plus lots of nifedipine and terbutaline. The hospital stay was more comfortable than home since I've been sleeping on an air mattress for 5 weeks. the food at baystate is really good. Cooley Dickinson food sucks and always has. . . yuck. I was visited by nurses that took care of me 8 years ago as well as a bunch of friends. It was not such a bad experience but staying in the hospital got old quickly.
Last night Aryana id not stop rolling, stretching, and kicking and I had incessant contractions. I called my dad who totally made me feel better. He is a retired high risk OB and one of the best (renowned in area I grew up). In fact some docs up here know him. Anyway, my issue now is not with the contractions it's with the effacing and dilation. I went from nothing to 50 % in no time. now i'm worried since I have to hold out at least 5 more weeks (5-8). I am not one for bed rest as I'm type A and a workaholic. WHen I'm deathly ill, I keep myself busy. I hate resting. I can't do it.
Okay total change of subject now. A small world story once again. I was in town yesterday and heard someone calling my name. It was a girl I went to OT school with, and was very close to. She helped me get my first house in northampton and we were lab partners. She also lived a couple streets down from me. She was with her husband, Brian, who is a great guy and her daughter. Her daughter's name is the same as the one I've chosen but spelled differently. Funny cuz I've never heard that exact name before. I chose it because of my nephew who died two years ago. his name was "Ryan" so added the "a's" on the ends. Anyway, I haven't seen them since I worked at Hadley elementary school 3 years ago. Turns out they moved. Of all places to move they moved to my hometown, Princeton. I told them I moved all of my stuff down there because I'll be living there for a little while. Actually I'll end up in Philadelphia ultimately. I mentioned some people I grew up with who work at Princeton hospital where Claudine now works. My dad "lived" at that hospital, as did I. I use to go on rounds with him and then I worked there in high school. I think I've seen more babies delivered at that hospital than some doctors. My dad was in private practice and, therefore, busy. He delivered most of my friends.
Okay enough rambling. Hopefully everything will turn out perfectly. I'm done registering at babies r us and target online (which was more of a pain in the butt than I'd thought). I registered for only necessities but I don't know if I'm gonna be allowed to do anything after tomorrow. I didn't realize how much I need until I went through all of my old baby stuff. I have way too many clothes. I will never need clothes for this girl. I actually found so many that I ended up giving a lot to good will. I was planning on having everything ready and set but this recent setback just made that impossible. I wanted to have a shower or at least something social but the way things are going, I'm afraid the doctor won't let me do anything now. I just hope I don't have to spend the next 5 weeks in the hospital. YUCK YUCK YUCK. I'll find out my fate Thursday if not sooner.
Well, I wish the best to all of you and huge love to those of you who have been so awesome and supportive. I love you. Oh and Finn, you are one of a kind and will always be a huge part of my life. You are one of a few that I will always love and be friends with. Helping me move, which is one of my biggest hates, was an enormous help and load off my mind. That was priceless. Anyway, please people stay in touch as I'm bored out of my mind.