ugh

well im 18 now...and I haven't cut in a long time...thats good right?

yes.

But i think I have food issues...

Thats a whole nother story to tell later. I am going to school now, I am gonna study to be a nurse. I still wanna sing though. I will for sure, I have been losing some weight , though its not coming off fast enough. wtv..it will. I binged and purged today. I binged and purged last night. I hadn't done it for 2 days before yesterday and I can't do it anymore. But i need to stick to my fast.

Thats the hard part.

Hopefully this diet pill will kick in and I won't be so tired when i go to run.

My head hurts..but thats just cause I Have started a new fast..I broke it by binging and purging but. I had eaten almost normal for a while there. So the lack of foods taking its toll. give another day..ill be fine. I just need to not touch food tomorrow.

yeh I guess thats basically my update XD

so much like falling.

..excuse me, to busy writing my tragedy...

I didn't think i could go back to feeling this bad.
I thought I beat it.
I thought I could do this alone.
I thought wrong

again.

i know i will hurt the person i love most if i cut, but i dont know ..i need to.